Im fucking dying

Time is a bitch....but yes ,the realization of death is eye opening...the late Terrence mckenna said after he was diognosed with an inoperable brain tumor said just watching a bug move across a floor would bring him to tears,just an appreciation for life everyone who is healthy takes for granted when they squish that little fucker just for being in there home.


If you can buy goji juice...that is by far the best elixir for life a human can take...and also if you can sprint...it is synonymous with adrenealin and running for your life ie trick the entire body system to want to live....and as your running make believe you are running from something just to create adrenaline.

Other than that a 30 pack a day keeps sobriety away

Thyroxin you cannot get from a juice! Go to the doc and he has to make a thyroid gland test!!!!! It is very important for your body! Lost of your body is a lost of you!

Realising youre going to die is good. Everyone dies. Ive realised that as a child. I find myself being happier than others

Everyday I feel a little more tired, almost unnoticable, but after a month I can tell that everything is different inside my body and mind.

It sucks because the knowledge of my death sparked something inside myself that changed who I am completely. I feel so much smarter, and for the first time I am at a sense of peace with the chaos of the world, and the chaos of the body and mind, they all seem to melt.

Too bad its also killing my stamina, my motivation for money and power.

I dunno, if you guys wanna talk I would like that, if not, i will enjoy sparking this bowl and thinking about my existence

Yea i refuse to see any docs, my body has made it pretty clear whats going on, and what i could do to extend my life, but i just dont care enough