I was just praying it would be more, just once. I do feel crazy amounts of care and love for him. It is very hard to deal with. It's like an obsession. I feel crazy.
Thank you for your words. I didn't realize feeling this intense could lead to just nothing. I was expecting it to mean something.
I just feel such a pit in my stomach. The hopeless romantic in me thinks there's still a chance, but I am just wasting my time. I need to be stronger, and just leave it be. He's a taken man, that's the final answer.
Quoting: Anonymous Coward 24512322 it is more, but not necessarily in the way you desire it to be.
the pit that you feel in your stomach has to do with your instinctual emotional center bleeding after you opened and connected with him, and when you found out he has a relation, the connection was broken.
this is a different center than that of the heart (in the center of the chest)
the heart connects with myriads thin threads to other hearts, nature etc
the instinctual emotional center (solar plexus, stomach, umbilical cord) is more like a big tube which connects you to an other being, and allows for exchange of emotional energy. It is not an universal inclusive center, but a separative exclusive one ('the two connected against the world'). the life relationship between a dog and his master is at that level, the relation between a mother and her child the same.
this is not a 'bad' connection, just that the point of being human is to be centered in the heart center, where soul connections happen. and after you are consciously grounded there you can have also the other lower connections, if it is needed
if you get carried away by the magic of that connection, and you establish also the connection below, in case it breaks you will bleed energetically for a time and you will suffer.
but this does not mean that it was not a soul connection. just that soul connections are eternal and thus outside of time, the instinctual ones needing physical presence in some way or another (emotional, sexual, relationship)
hope it helps. i know what you've been through. it is part of the human experience.
the point is to understand that what you experienced was more like a 'revelation' bestowed upon you two by spirit. you did not created, you witnessed it. it was a gift, to show you how beautiful a connection between 2 humans can be.
keep that memory alive in your heart, and open up more to the world, and it will happen again.
