Hey guys,

I'm not really sure where to turn - so I figured I'd try here. The responses should be interesting to say the least.

Well, I'll try to give you the short version of my "life story". Right now I'm 21 years old - When I was 16, I found myself in a detox for Heroin addiction. The thing is that I really didn't have that big of a problem at the time. My parents, completely in shock to what was going on, did what they thought was best and sent me away. Since that first detox, I've ended up homeless, been to 2 Rehabs, 2 Halfway Houses, 2 Sober Homes, and 2 additional detoxes. It's been almost 5 years since this all started, and I still find myself in the exact same place I was when it all began.

Right now, I've got a lot going for me. I've managed to start my own company, I'm on the verge of getting my own place - in fact, I've actually paved my own way in the world for the last 2 years or so - and it's felt really good.

Lately, I've just felt myself giving up. I can't get myself to get out of bed, I hardly make it to work on time - and I'm up in to the late hours of the night because I just can't turn off my head!

I've just been in this place, feeling regretful that I'm not in college like most kids my age - that right now, I actually have NO friends. Honestly, I think the issue is that I just feel so damn alone in the world. And it's probably the reason why I came here - because this is the only place where I'm actually able to connect with anyone.


I don't know what I'm trying to get at - and I'm sorry for the long post. I just feel myself giving up guys - and I don't want that to happen... I'm just so run down, feeling like all is meaningless.



I don't know... I'm a damn mess. Been like this for as long as I could remember. I guess I always hoped it would be a phase - but now I think maybe I'm just destined to be this way for the rest of my life. Meant to be a fuck up, because I just don't have what it takes to deal with life like most people in this world...


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You are going to get through this. If you quit heroine YOU can get thru anything! Please don't give up!!!!! My brother died of heroine overdose at 25, he never loved, never had kids of his own and was taken from a family who loved him! There is much more ahead....you are not alone in the cloud you feel. I promise!


Well, good night guys.