QUESTION, for those who's dick are bigger than their egos

i am a key to ending a long, bloody conflict.

the ultimate war.


one side in the conflitc is fighting to keep slavery, the other to end it.

the side that wants to end the slavery is not much better strand of people,coz they have spend too much time in the world of the evil oes and it has warped them inot being similar to their enemy, they do have an order from above to end the slavery or die trying.

(so they are like undercover detectives that pretty much lsot their way in the gang they are infiltrated into, and became much like the criminals they are here to catch)

both sides need me to end the conflict and there is a battle going on who will control me.

so there are basically teo evils for me, of which one is the lesser evil....


n ot to mention the fact that i do not respond well to ANYBODY trying to control me.


in the early days of the conflict i was taken by the side that is bad and rotten to the core, and i had hopes of meetig the other side, and that they were better people, and they will teach me how to fight these evil enemies that held me prisoner, but it was tricky knowing if the new people i meet could be these other guys or they are still my enemies pretending to be good guys....

having no other test for thisa, i became the test,
i didn't want to be the test, i just was one.

whoever f ailed the test i knew was my enemy and that was it.

trouble is, upon meeting the so called good guys they failed the test and failed it in very ugly ways, very painful for me too.

this makes them my enemies.

trouble with that is, i still have to choose.

if i choose these new people i am choosing people who have proven to be my enemies whoa re fighting to end spiritual slavery in this world, but if i do not choose them, automaticaly i will be back under control of, again, my enemies, who are fighting to keep the salvery up.


i can decide not to choose anyone, and take my chances aloe, but that wld not be very smart of me, since i have a pretty good idea i cannot stand up to slave masters on my own.

are the eemies of my enemies, my freinds, even if they aren't much better then my enemies and what should i do?

also, there is a man i was very much in lvoe with before i was taken by the salve masters, and he works for the side that is trying to end the slavery, and even if the love we once shared is gone nown, i still cannot have him caught and killed by the slave masters, and if i don't choose his side i might be used by the salvemaster for exactly that, catching him and killing him.

coz whoever will control me, will have the key to end this war and kill off his enemies, and there is only so mucn resistance even i can put up against soemone trying to control me.

N.B both sides are acting like really disgusting idiots, and sometimes i have to restrain mysefl from gauging my eyes out and puncturing my ear drumms, when faced with all of the uglyness, stupidity and filth they display.

(but while they're similar in the way they operate, their agendas are different, like i said, to end or to keep slavery)

can i overcome my aversion to the so caled good guys, (basically ugly idiots), and work with them for the purpos of keeping the man i once leoved safe, and also ending the slavery, but most imortantly getting out of this hell myself, or should i save myself from the mission impossible, which is boud to fail and end badly with me hurt, and just keep to mysefl and say to both sides, 'fuck u and fuck ur mother fucking war, i am sitting it out from noe on'?


note again, that me saying that will not stop both sides to keep on trying to controll me, so basically, if i choose to take my chances alone, i will be at war with EVERYBODY, as oppose to just one side.

choosing the slave master's side is not an option for me, they have been offering me that for a vewry long time, i have never even considered it, mostly because they are after the man i once loved a great deal and coz i do not support slavery.

what should i do?