Your problem is not only that you are a confirmed catholic, but that you are also stiff-necked in your carnal heart....

What the rcc won't dare tell its parishoners, much less preach to the world, is that Christ Gave HIS Life To Enable those who The Father Called to Abide In & With HIM in Everlasting Relationship.

Until you seek The Father and make your surrender of self Unto HIM you will remain a stony-hearted creature of wretchedness, descended of Adam who chose self-will over Relationship With God. Don't matter how "wonderful" you are are doing "good works" and trying to be selfless and pleasing to God. that rcc saint, mother Theresa, is also a wretch as is/are all whoever lived after Christ without giving their lives Unto God The Father.

If you Love Christ and Know HIM To Be God The Son, then The Father Has Called your heart. catholicism, which I was born-into and educated through university, is in strong denial of The Gospel and Father's Plan for man.

Without Acknowledging Christ Jesus and Trusting The Father Fully with every aspect of your life, you will not Know The Life you were called to live With HIM and The Father....