My parents hate me. I have nowhere to go.

I completely agree and it's great hearing suggestions like job corp., united churches, etc. Keep the suggestions rolling. I definitely don't agree with the post I'm quoting. In fact, that's practically the point of the post along with some hard evidence/first person accounts of what's attributed to the current circumstances.

Thanks for the reply =]

Go work on a cruise ship. Room and board is included and you can just stack up cash until you figure out what to do with your life. Screw your parents if they are making you miserable. Just sail away and don't look back.

I'm in the same position and staying with a friend. If you can hold it there at home, do so. Keep your head down and your inner hope up as much as you can. Because it ain't easy to leave.

same boat, and my girlfriend just broke up with me on thanksgiving out of all days.. fuck my life man..shit is just soo not worth it

The biggest reason I need to leave is because the divide is growing and they literally hate me.

It won't sound good to say how old I am, but that's not really my concern. I'm 21 years old and after repeatedly saving her from her drunk, abusive husband and her son who recently stabbed me(the son is now out of the house, the father stopped drinking), I couldn't bring myself to move out for school. Thought I had to stay there and 'protect' her, though when she gets me mad, she'll look at me the same as any of her previous abusers-- although I've ONLY ever protected her. It leaves a psychological mark. Anyway, that's been my life since day one after learning I was adopted and being shunned for no reason at all from day one to now from both of my "parents".

So, I think depression and no real direction in life, and being caught in this tornado household has taken away from a lot of personal growth and real life skills. It's sad to say and I probably sound like an irresponsible non-working able-bodied person, but I also suffer from a nerve condition that's practically debilitating. I've been working on it though and have been actively seeking work for a while now too.

They keep saying they want me to get a life and push me out of the house. I've gone to Community College and got A's(no big deal) and that was okay but I didn't really have much for direction and it creeped me out. Obviously not an excuse, I'm not going to make excuses for myself. I'm not very active, my nerve problem makes me less ambitious, I haven't worked in over a year, and I don't feel like school is for me.

I think I would be ambitious if I left the house. I honestly want TIME more than anything to just recover from my past, my nerve problems, and constitute an honest plan to the future. These foreign figure-head parents have enough loot to seat me comfortably in their house for the next 30 years. I hardly eat or use their resources. I want time here and they constantly tell me how much I suck at things.

I'm actually very talented. I've written 4 books, used to be a skilled athelete, not much for personal skills but I'm a talented leader, and I'm not bad with hands on work at all. In fact, many of my community college teachers told me to leave school and figure something out on my own cuz they thought I could do it.

Bottom line is they literally just don't like me and they're not afraid to remind me of that. Their son stabbed me, their daughter got pregnant out of wedlock, and the 21 year old middle child who just wants time to figure out their life, and has broken up all of their malicious, drunken knife-intensive fights over the years is the one to get the boot. Great.

I need to get out of here is the bottom line. I don't want to come back either. There's no room for me here or in their lives. I feel that in my heart and know it. Not to mention, the great division between us is no irreparable. It's sad to say but so be it. This adoption has been a failure from day one and it's now reached the boiling point.

I want a real life, not some foreign household I'm forced to role play in and stuff. As much as it's me desiring a lifestyle they don't approve of(one that stands for freedom and enjoying life, not being a slave to a salary job and European modesty-- i actually want to live, not afraid of cops or the law like these alien FOBs are afraid of our gov't. they really are afraid of power structures here as foreigners and it's never worn off. they try making me feel the same "don't misbehave" but I was born here lol i think i should feel free, not like a foreigner)-- the big issue is just the divide.

This hasn't worked and how it needs to end. It's negative for everyone and has ruined me now for too long. As much as it's about me unable to work or find a job or anything, it's as much about me needing to heal and get on with my life.

Do you think it has anything to do with you being such a selfish child you'll not move out of their house because it's more confertable for you to live a life of ease?