My life is fucked up. I am filed with hate. I am crazy and there is no hope for me. My family destroyed itself. I want them to leave. My last friend and my brother moved away. I am fucked. My life is over. I can't fix it myself and the doctors don't give a fuck they will just drug me and tell me to have a nice day. I don't want to be a zombie. I want to be happy again. I forgot how to ttalk with people........I end up fucking it up and sounding like a fool......I am not a fool I know for a fact I'm smarter then most of these stupid fucks that pay me my measly ass paycheck.I try.being happy. I hate everything. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate how fucking crazy I am. My family is useless and I have no friends. I am fucked I am alone and I don't even know why I posted this stupid fucking thing. If anyone has something "smart" to say, fuck you in advance cause if I hear you talking shit in real life ill blow you to fucking bits cause I'm no bitch I'm the real fucking deal and I don't have shit to lose anymore so suck my Dick untell blood drips out of my crazy fucked up head. Ps fuck you very much cause no one will help anyways Quoting: Anonymous Coward 28305603
I just re-read your post.
Thought I'd tell you that you are not alone in the way that you feel. Depression is my middle name.
No, its not but I fought it all my life.
For me, it was the worst at Thanksgiving and Christmas time. Not sure why, it just was.
Things improved bigtime for me when I got a dog and started hiking up in the local hills.
I did it every single day. My dog was my friend.
He'd MAKE me go even when I wasn't in the mood. I'd go and feel better afterwards.
I still hike almost every single day. Except now, I have 3 dogs. You know WHY???
Because I have no friends and most people make me crazy.
I'm super happy by the way.
I got married to awesome guy who loves me.
Just DON'T GIVE UP.
Sending you serious GOOD vibes.