Nam, you are a brainwashed newager(already a discredited religion/belief system satanic/luciferian in origin), and possessed by wicked spirits claiming to be angels of light, YAHshua/Jesus still loves/cares for you whilst you draw breath.

PS, thank you for the lols by the way, in regards to your behavior and abject blindness to Reality and Truth, it is true as the Op said about folly and the like, The book of proverbs deals extensively with this subject.