I live my entire life in a constant state of depression

bummer

What a depressing thread!

heh, How could it be otherwise? I didn't mean to make anyone else feel depressed though...sorry.

Mate, ask the big Fella upstairs for help and let him in. Love ya Cobber.

You are dehydrated perhaps.

Drink lots more water.

turn your frown upside down!

{{hugs}} You need to boost your serotonin level naturally. Just google how do do it. Exercise, supplements, and certain foods will help. Your body is probably lacking something. I do understand.

I'm certain I'll be happier after I get plastic surgery. Because I believe everything is about how you look.

Im the same

John 3:16

Please pull out a bible and read this. I will pray for you.

Good advise.:) The only way to true happiness and peace.

It's nice that - that path has worked for you guys. Sadly, that is a big part of what made me what I am today. I'm a 30 year old male, and I am still haunted by what my childhoold upbringing in churches.

Believe me when I tell you that I want nothing more than to 'go into god's hands' -- but there is nothing I can do to make that happen. I tried and tried and tried and tried and tried for YEARS and I can come to no other conclusion that - that is not the way for me.

In fact, over the years, i've tried to go back a number of times, reading the bible, trying different religions, different approaches, different angles and that just makes me feel worse.

My family and friends are so caught up in that and as an outside observer who wanted to be apart of it for a long time, I can now see all the flaws and what it can do to people.

My mother, for example, believes all of her dreams are from God. She had a dream that me, my wife, and my son were in a car wreck. She called me at 2:00am in the morning, told me that god told her I was going to die...even at 30 years old, and no longer under the influence of faith, It'll still bother you..especially when you are, who I am..

Nah, that's the last thing I need.

You are the only person who can fix the problem... change your thinking and the rest will come

Thanks. I drink fluids non-stop. I definitely drink the suggested 8 glasses per day.

When I was about 16.5 years old, I was sitting on one of my friend's front porch. Something hit me like a train, like my entire life flashed before my eyes, but It took a long time, so not necessarily a 'flash' but for about 15 minutes or so, I went into this deep sinking sad and self-loathing world where I decided I didn't like who I was.

I have never recovered from that.

Well! I think you are looking at things the wrong way.
Have you ever wondered why there are so many depressed people. And only a hand full of people that for some reason seem to have their ducks in a row, well this is not true.
We are all the same and the condition you have is just the way you are.

Here is a thing you should try and use. When you think to yourself Wow im depressed (Pick a safe word) A word that you can use to change you mind and lead you away from thinking your something your not. (Even if A Doctor Says you Are) And Don't take Meds.

A safe word is a positive word, And Dont tell anyone your word Keep this safe.

If Any of this has helped let me know.

I have been usesing this for 20+ years and it works. Works for everything.

I know of poeple who got rid of depression by decontamination of the body biochemistry. Dont underestimate the biochemistry aspect..

Best way to start is:
- Remove of tooth amalgam
- Liver & Gallbladder Flush
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I have changed myself constantly for the better, but no matter what I do, I find something to belittle and hate myself for. I always find something to regret. Always find something I could have done better.

No matter how much I want to learn and grow from my mistakes and be what I want to be...it's never enough..I am never satisified with myself..this goes back to my childhood upbrining..I was always an outside observer to family religion and through their eyes, if you're not a person who has a one-v-one relationship with a god, you're a dead sinner.

It's embedded into my subconscious. So everything in my reality is tied to that..and it rooted so early on, that I grew from that type of thought and so it's next to impossible to get out of it. I always go right back into hating myself.

God 's not the issue here. You have to dig deep and know this is who you are (If no one told you how would you know)
you are this way because it is,

take pink pills like Cypralex. I'Ve been on antidepressant for 5 years and project to be all my life. It's like a support for your morale, trust me without this, I'd be on social welfare, but now I can work as a federal employee

OP listen to this song :

Thanks. I agree with you. In fact, that is exactly what I tell my very understanding wife. "This is just the way I am." But, there really is no 'proof' in saying I can't change. It's not like I can just say "Ok, I`ll accept being unhappy until I die." -- Well, i've said that millions of times, but I don't want it to be that way. It's not healthy for me or anyone around me.

Thanks..


But, this is more my sound;

you need to raise the vibrational frequency of your energy field to a sufficient enough level to cleanse your depression

SSRI antidepressants are poison, so are antipsychotics, they shrink the frontal lobes

Other drugs alleviate depression, opioids amphetamines psychedelics etc but only with psychedelics does the benefit remain.

Those people that say god talks to them in dreams are mad. Divine entities do not deliver information in dreams, and if they do, it inevitably is expressed under layers of post-event cognition/interpretation.

You are depressed because you have a powerful brain. You will find "god" when you understand what you know to be right. "God" feels like a powerful vibratory energy in the spine and crown of the head.

And remember, you are very good at pointing out whats wrong in the world. So when you encounter righteousness in thought or the world around you, you will have no choice but to understand. That is "gods" language, that there is a better way.

Your no picking up what im putting down,, Here i'll put it this way.

Your not unhappy, you just think you are..

Plain and simple.. It's the power of the mind and only you know the truth. And i will tell you this also. As soon as you decieded to yourself this was what it was you copped out.
So again lift your head high and take a breath and pick a safeword that you can use to change your mind.

Thats all i have for you so good luck....

Sounds like me as of a few years ago. Here is what I learned:

When you decide you've had enough of feeling this way, when you are ready to declare that enough is enough - you will then be ready to distance yourself from your 'way' or 'approach' to thinking that has created this grief that you feel. Letting go of familiar habits/routines is not easy, but we have to let go to move on. Sometimes to figure out what truly works for you in your life, you have to first figure out what doesn't work. Have you had enough of trying what isn't working for you?

I spent so many years allowing external circumstances to define my life and dictate my emotional state. I falsely assumed that to change how I felt inside, I had to change my external circumstances first. I learned the hard way that this was an illusion and that I had in fact possessed the ability all along to change how I felt within, independent of and regardless of my external circumstances.

My advice - take your conscious attention away from your external circumstances and anything that is a product of the physical/material world, and turn your attention inwardly. Work on advancing/evolving your conscious awareness. Question everything you ever believed and everything that society ever conditioned you to believe, and see where you stand when you pose difficult questions that challenge these thought patterns. Work on freeing yourself from the mental prison that is created by false paradigms that the world programmed us to accept and conform to without question.

Your state of consciousness can change/grow/evolve must faster than you could ever imagine. You just need to remove some of the clutter that is holding it back. There is a light at the end of the tunnel even when you feel hopeless and powerless. Just take it a day at a time, because your results will seem slow at first but can/will grow exponentially. The end game is this: freedom from your fear(s), liberation from the controlling influence of the mind/ego which is the source of all negative emotion & pain, and full awareness of the present moment or the NOW (no longer being a victim of your past).



Last Edited by ANHEDONIC on 11/28/2012 03:28 AM

Bro, get away from the negative vibes. Listening to dark, depressing music is going to make you feel the same outlook. Why would you want to listen to people singing about how much life sucks and it's all depressing and sad? I used to listen to Slipknot and Mudvayne, stuff like that, but I realized it was very toxic. Listen to some positive music. This is something small that I am merely suggesting.

Also, realize and understand that we have negative experiences in our lives for a very specific reason. We learn more from the negative than we do the positive. you must learn to embrace this and not have any regrets, for regretting is impeding your ability to learn from the event. You have to take something positive away from your negative experiences and learn something from them.

i'm in the same cycle.

There is no negative or positive.

Organisms seek validation: biology provides this as hedonia.

There is validation beyond "happy" or "sad" but an organism is hedonic in either state

If not sadness, then numbness: if not numbness, then only divine light. You dont have a choice in the matter, if you truly want to be "happy" you will be. But will it bring you peace of mind?