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You might have "done alot" OP, but you didn't feel Him because if you have ever felt Him, you would never be able to turn your back on Him.

Your faith was shallow, alot of "doing stuff" instead of "feeling Him" and building a real personal relationship with Him.

There was no trust and love on your part. That's what happened.

Now you try and find solace in turning your back on Him, and I guarantee you, you'll never find real peace in that.

There really is no such thing as an atheist because we are all connected to God, and we all rely on Him for every breath we take. You don't know that you're connected to Him until you're disconnected. It's almost like breathing, you don't realize that you need oxygen to live until you don't have it anymore. Then, you know it's true, but it's too late because that oxygen is gone.

I hope you come back before you take that last breath because after that, it's too late.