I'm sorry I couldn't deal with my mothers abuse and my step fathers abuse. I've lived my life taking up what they left. I'm broken and torn and my life is a joke. I've been a kind soul to many in my life and haven't reaped any benefit. I feel like a loser and I'm devasted. So I'm apologizing to myself for letting myself down and loving myself enough. I hope something happens in this world soon because the sadness is too much. So there you have it.