You are afraid of sexual intimacy you should get some therapy before your body doesn't work any longer. Sex is the act of creating life but also creates great pleasure for the body and mind and also builds confidence and the clouds also look really fluffy when you getting some coochie on a regular basis. You should embrace this life while you are here not avoid it. It is a learning experience, well for those of us aren't turned into mindless media spoon fed dribbling idiots.