I have no purpose or motivation to do anything with my life...

just be

I used to be like you until I found hallucinogens. I now live in a world of fantasy which is much more interesting than reality. I'm not condoning drugs just that they changed my life for the better. Try 5-meo-dmt and you will meet "god".

sorry to hear about your parents
stay strong (for who?! you ask)
for all of us
you wrote things as they are
i think you deserve your own family
where you could cultivate the family standard,
as seen in your parents
you can teach how to have a strong loving family,
you can rise beautifull children on your own,
stronger than any of us with the help of our parents,
you without it..
you could end very happy indeed from the ammount of courage you give to this

still hope (look around, hope is needed, your part is to stay strong for us)
not much time (short lives - make a best of it)

1) Yes, this is the world, it's collapsing because it's based on BS.

2) Hallucinogens have nothing to do with false reality, they CRACK AND BREAK APART your shitty fake realities making you go insane if you can't handle the truth.

I can't even get a girlfriend and you expect me to start a family?? LOL..

Thanks but no thanks. I don't want to further contribute to the overpopulation of this planet.

I don't even know where to get them. Plus I don't even know anyone who sell/does drugs..

Hallucinogens won't help your deeper issues. They really won't.

Of course you can

Or give your life saving another

smoke some weed



There is always still a good you in this world

life is short but not sweet I know how you feel about the work ,future etc.Don't blame anyone or think it's God's fault or you'r inadequate in any way,just try and take a look at your self from a different perspective.you are as good as anyone else try and find way's to help someone in a similar situation even if it's only talking about you'r problem's- it makes it easier to find some good in your own self and other's.like I said life is short don't wish it away by dwelling on the past,cherish the memories of your parent's they give you the strength to take every day as it comes-one at a time.

the entire system is failing don't worry...

parents or someone close dying is insanly hard to go through, my grandmother who i was raised by died when i was 18, after that i slipped into drugs drinking smoking, to run away from it, took me 4 years to finaly wake up from the destruction i was causing on myself now im trying to pick up the peices

ive had the same thoughts as u are having, u cannot get bogged down in all the negative conspiracies of the world,, even though i belive alot of them to be true do not let them cloud ur perception of the world into a dark place.


im 22 no job, had only short term relationships with girls, i fucked up college i fucked up many many chances,,,

i took mushrooms and had a bad trip and ever since then shits been getting weird in my head, my confidence is low my social anxiety is high, i cant seem to cope in even the simplest of conversations sometimes. BUT the bad mushroom trip did wake me up and scare me wich helped me quit using drugs and realize some great things

Im telling my story to give u hope u must fight on,,

all i seem to like to do is ride my bike so im riding it from tennessee to california, i got foodstamps no money just foodstamps sit down and think about somethin u want to do, and do it. make it challengeing

you know
some things they said
are not true

be it, your insignificance
or the myth of overpopulation

we dont know so many things yet
and we stand now at the event horizont
and you want to back up ?

see, for me, life is the only way to answer my questions
todays world is unstable thanks to fucked up values (deman & absence circle, money over life value problem)

we must revive LIFEs value
crash the system
and smile again
all things standing against this, is our work

your girls will show, i promise, but they should find you along your energy you shine out...
so give it the chance, your mind will refresh whole body, but it must come from inside of you as a realization, a life credo or as you name it in your language

perhaps the best way of starting this IN YOU,
is to follow your curiosity - what steers your attention most of the time?... ask vital questions, they will bring shifting answers (thats how it is done)

\ dont make the mistake of drowning ur sorrows with drugs no goood, halucanigins either could fuck u up

Are you a Christian?

How many souls have you saved from hell?

Why are you whining? Get busy.

You are desperately self-centered, sir. Please get out of yourself and look at the mystery around you:

[link to rtr.org]

I'm 24 and in the exact situation than you, OP.

I fucked up highschool 4 times; couldn't even pass the finals and not allowed anymore to pass it.

The girlfriend I had 2 years ago left me for some better looking richer guy. I still love her, after 2 years. Even now I cry myself into sleep and I just can't seem to cope with it yet.

Never done drugs or alcohol or some weed shit and never will. its fucking hard to endure reality without drugs.

Now I'm sitting here, alone, no job, no girlfriend, noting. I hope this world or the entire system collapse. It's meant to be, to begin with.

Satan is the god of the evil world ..... that's why this life is a nightmare .... and he's had 6000 years to get better at what he does and that mess people's life up....

Humans have free will and with their free will they gave satan the throne in this life ....

this life isn't about finding happiness in another human being or in material substance

it's about growing thru hardships and reaching maturity as a spiritual being so that you can handle the huge responsibilities that await in the afterlife ......God didn't just create all of this for his amusement ..... He only did it because it was the best and only way to get spiritual,beings that have a conscious beginning like us to a mature level like him.......a spiritual being that had no conscious beginning

Have faith that he knows what he's doing by creating all of this and by allowing it to continue


If you don't have faith then you will go completely insane like the rest of the evil society

I bought some balloons and then tied two together and then played with them made them bounce and what not, it seams to me i had forgot to play or something, try getting something that you can have some fun with while you let those thought storms brush over you.

oh wah wah, i wont be famous or rich!!!! hey arsehole, i never got the opportunity to even go to college, so you shouldnt even be bitching. grow up and face the fact you may have to go do a job you dont like everyday to pay the bills, and go find a girlfriend and find some happiness, and dont say "i cant do it" you whiny little bitch, just go out and do it! if all you do is keep thinking of failure and hopelessness youre just gonna fail, you can accomplish things, just try, you might fail sometimes at things but thats life, nothing good comes without working for it! so get off your ass and go get something!!!!!

Good points and insight.
It really does feel like a nightmare.

Hey OP,

“What use is it to be special, in a world full of unique people...?”

Nobody is better or more lucky, it rather is their open mind towards loving one self.. The answer lies in loving yourself.. You want to love yourself, or you would not write here..

I am there for you.. Send me a PM if you like..

I’ll pull you through these times..


Loves from a brother :)


PS:Dude from Luxembourg: same counts for you.. ;)

You do have a purpose, you just haven't found it yet. You're ahead of a lot of people in that you already know what you're doing now isn't it. That's a start. It's also normal to be angry at everything/everyone when you experience the loss of a loved one. Everything and everyone can seem so meaningless afterwards. A lot of times, people discover that their purpose in life is inspired by the loved one they lost.

Last Edited by Zuzu's Petals on 12/03/2012 07:17 AM

If what you are saying is true, the sudden and tragic loss of your parents has probably caused you to have PTSD on top of your grief.

This is very hard to overcome by yourself, so seek counseling but avoid drugs if possible since they will just complicate your progress.
Avoid stress, and above all else do not blame and shame yourself for not conquering or even liking the world right now. Your feelings are normal.

The loss of a parent is a tough thing to deal with at any age. Lots of people have gone through the darkness where you are. Reach out to older people who have also grieved a parent.

+1
Lots of love
Hang on
I believe in you
You matter, the love you have touches hearts that on one else could touch

I have a decent job, college degree from a top school, a very loving girlfriend who is going to be a wife and a very good family.

And yet I have no purpose or motivation to do anything in life. I am just going by every day doing the same shit again and again.

I want to say just one thing: :hf:

I feel the exact same way you do, OP. Except I know that my life has more meaning, spiritually. Find out your true purpose in life, not the purpose your government says (go to school and graduate, go to school more and learn what they want you to learn, 50% chance you get a career, you die from this shadow of reality). Meditate more and open your conscious mind, but do not resort to anything as your escape (drugs) if that's not who you are. I've found out with meditation that I've discovered a lot more about the world and come to handle it quite well. There's not much you can do in a corrupt society, but forgive, let go, and continue learning lessons until the next life!

Good luck in life and I wish you well!

Last Edited by Awak3 on 12/03/2012 08:03 AM

I believe in you OP. You can do anything!