Hi J-Honey..if you do not mind me asking, what does the 'J' stand for?? I ask mainly because I remember you from the 'voracious', and subsequently, 'v' days...lol

I saw this thread pinned earlier, but alas, was already an hour late for work, and it takes me another hour to get there...in other words, another ordinary day(for me)...but I always feel rushed for some reason..
I suppose I care about about showing up on time, just not enough to actually make an honest effort...maybe tomorrow...lol

yeah it doesn't matter...I do my job, when things need to be done. I have a strange job, it would be hard to explain, the purpose, that is...I feel no need to be there, if there is no need, to actually be there..know what I mean? lol

Man it takes me a while to get to a point...

But, back to topic at hand...
I would pick a place off this planet, to 'port' to...that is..
It is a place, I believe, to be a memory, of mine...as well, as many others..
A place where, I believe, I have incarnated first, or at least most often...
I do not recall the name, but it is nice...A world of water, if you will...where the intelligent beings live a life submerged. In a sea of tranquility...I do not recall any animosity towards others, just a great peace.
I do not remember any friction at all, just that sense of peace and love...and mutual cooperation amongst every being..
There is no greed , no hatred for fellow beings...none of that shit. it's quite awesome


Perhaps that is why I am here now, on this world, to experience sufferings, and all the other trappings of being human. I do not feel a sense of fitting in with most here. I have experienced the feelings of envy, jealousy, anger, vengeance, greed, etc...but I find I don't like it too much...especially the anger. It is an easy emotion to let get hold, makes one hate so much, miss even more... I have experienced much loss while here... Maybe I asked for too much this go around. I don't know what I am getting at...
I also know there is a greater human emotion, that which is love...experiencing this makes all other bad 'things' experienced while here, a moot point(probably not entirely)??...I have been blessed in this one...in all forms, although, one aspect of which, has been missing, lately.(if you know what i'm saying)

So yes, yes, I would like to get back to a familiar setting.

I know there are other worlds that are much more serene, not all these suffocating pressures. -In liquid, everything just works better...

I am not saying that this planet isn't beautiful, I have heard it said this is one of the most exquisite of all creation...there is just no peace here(not yet)...I believe it to be a great test of the creators(not God)...God(source) does not deal with these lower matters(at least, not in the sense most believe(in my opinion). enlightened beings, I believe , create much of what we experience, they have the knowledge to manipulate energies......yeah I am off on another tangent here...


Any way, thats where I would like to escape to, here and there, to recharge, if nothing else..

I also believe others remember this 'world'.. it has been referred in lore as "Atlantis"...it's all good. Could write a book about all that, but seems to just cause more animosity..not sure why????????

might have edited out some other ramblings...