Please don't feel that way. Your Dad would not want you to.

Of course you were upset. I am a heavy smoker and know it stresses my children. You - like them - are not to blame in any way.

He would have been short with you if you had had a drug problem that you could have dies from - and then did.

You having nothing to feel guilty about. Neither does he. We all need to use whatever helps us get through life. No one lives forever - smoke or not.

Go a bit easier on yourself. Your Dad would have been the same to you if reversed. But you know that already.

I bet he was proud of you! I sure would be if you were mine.