Got sick, quitting smoking, losing job and my fiance just broke up with me

First of all cigarettes are for weak losers. So don't go back.

Second, obviously she wasn't your soul mate because if she were she would have understood what you were going through at that time and not said those hurtful things.

Here's what's going to happen. Sounds like you had a decent job...you'll find another.

Sounds like you had a decent fiancee up until that day...guess what, the next girlfriend you have will be better than her.

Just get through this period and start a new beginning. Much like we all will be doing in 8 days! LoL!

I don't 'need' someone in my life... This just happened about an hour ago. And it's not just her, it's everything. Of course my relationship with her was the most important. I'll get over her, and her me.

It just really sucks when you love someone so much, and to hear them tell you you're a POS in very descriptive ways. To tell me I used her that I never loved her that I ruined her life. I can only think she's wanted this for awhile, maybe I just gave her to ease to go ahead with it.

And I'm not a pussy by any means. Love hurts worse than any wound.

Time to buy a lottery ticket. Good luck, OP.

nothing is wrong with you!

its normal to feel this way

you gotta get your mind off things!

do something fun, watch stupid youtube videos, check out some DIY projects you can work on. Keep your mind busy, so you dont fall into depression.

and I want you to read the OP of this thread

Thread: For Those Having a Hard Time Listen To Me

I was having a hard hard hard time when I wrote that

Its one thing to hear advice/positive things from a happy person...

but hearing it from someone who is sad/going through some shit... might have more merit?

OP it sounds like she loves you just as much. If she said those things to you she was feeling insecure, she wouldn't have said things like that if she has no feelings for you and wants to break up with you.

I bet you 2 will be back together by tomorrow but hopefully sooner. It sounds like you are attached to one another.

Maybe you should call her? Or call someone you trust and like to come over? That sure is a bad feeling, hang in there OP.

I don't really have any friends :( ... Not that I would talk to about something like this. The only reason I come here is because no one really knows who I am. Makes it easier.

even if those you loved the most have turned on you...

Reading this gave me pain in my stomach and heart. This is exactly how I feel. I'm def having some sort of breakdown, anxiety... My stomach is in knots and I have shortness of breath. OMG this hurts so much...

I'm trying to pick myself up, every time I start I just start crying again.

Dude same with me!

Glad you came!

I tried to give her that chance, I told her and I quote "You need to suhtup if you want any chance of ever working this out" ... I told her this early on, I then gave her another chance to stop...

You're right, she might have just blown up.. But the bad thing is, i'm not sure I can forgive her. The things she said was so bad. So bad. That is why I'm upset, not that she broke up with me, but that I've closed the door im afraid.

Maybe God took everything from you for a reason? Seek him, learn about Jesus Christ and see how you feel. Sometimes shitty things need to happen in our lives to see the truth.

Question for the OP. I highlighted my question from your post.

Oh that song is so good!, but I cry my friggin eyes out every time I hear it lol

Well...I just noticed that exact same thing and until now,no one has answered your question.
So, OP, is your partner,as you call it earlier,a he or a she? Or is this some bullshit story?...

I know this isn't the best place to put this, but...

I got sick a little over a week ago with some upper resp infection. I couldn't breathe so I threw down my smokes and that was it, I was quitting smoking cigs... Then my Dr prescribed me prednisone cuz I was having a hard time breathing, and that along with nicotine withdrawls has turned me into a complete asshole...

Then my partner loses a really big account at work, so I decide to give my job up... I can't have him working against me all the time, losing accounts and money.... Then to top all this off, my fiance just BLOWS the fuck up on me saying some of the most hurtful and hateful things I've ever heard from anyone...

She says i've been an ass for two days, so its ok for her to blow up like this... So she then leaves me... I thought she was my soulmate, I really really love her and will miss her so much! I can't even type this without crying, life sucks so bad.

I really hope the world ends on December 21st so this pain will go away.

Not sure why I am posting this, I guess just to get it out. I just can't believe the hateful things she said, making me out to be the devil... I even treated her pretty good during this rage fit from the prednisone and nicotine withdrawls... I might have been a little btit of an ass here and there, but nothing how she just treated me.

She really stuck the knife in and turned it.

I'm sure the trolls will enter, guys if you like kicking someone when theyre down, go ahead i guess.

I want a smoke soooooooooooooo bad and i'm trying so hard not to... My heart is broken so bad...

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It seems like the only time I turn to God is during hard times. I feel bad because I haven't had a relationship with him for a long time. I should just seek him now? In another bad time?

Dude, have a smoke, really, why do you want to quit? No one like a quitter. Hell i stopped for 9 months and decided one day to smoke again. Been since. I got tired of every fucking second that voice of - "need a smoke, no, go away, need a smoke, no, go away"..., the dueling voices all day long repeating itself over and over. Said to hell with it...

It seems like the only time I turn to God is during hard times. I feel bad because I haven't had a relationship with him for a long time. I should just seek him now? In another bad time?

;)) You make me smile Dr Acula! Didn't think that was possible right now, thank you! I've been coming here for sheesh, 7,8 years now... GLP is a good place, most of the time. And there are some really good people here.

I've been coming here a lil while

not that long but there is a lot of good folk around here

GLP is a family in my opinion

im glad to be apart of it

This made me laugh... So true with the dueling voices. Its like the angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other.