By Ryan Devine

(About one of those moments when you need to do something, but thoughts are racing too fast and nothing seems to slow them down.)

Another episode, more distress

Finding myself in a bloody mess

Tried so hard, but lost my grip

Tried to stand up but once again I slip

At sea alone, I'm caught in a squall

Reaching for a reality I can't seem to recall

All eyes are on me damn it, why can't I get my senses?

It seems easy under the established pretenses

But I'm struggling just with survival

Yeah there's a shadow on my ceiling,

And there's a demon at my door

Forgive me please! I'm crying and begging

I'm on my knees without a floor

Falling and spinning, out of control

My room is a black hole, only the computer remains

A blank document on the screen

I try typing but the keys are missing

It's like nothing I've ever seen

I reach for my pills, Dexedrine and caffeine

I'm reaching for a piece of my sanity

They call it laziness, or accuse me of vanity

But the truth just goes unseen

Yeah there's a shadow on my ceiling,

And there's a demon at my door

Forgive me please! I'm crying and begging

I'm on my knees without a floor

I'm running to the bus, knowing pain to be in store

I've got a dozen excuses, but they've heard them all before

How can they understand? See that I'm not like them

I'm foreign to the world I live in, but they don't give a damn

They hear only whining and lies

Yeah there's a shadow on my ceiling,

And there's a demon at my door

Forgive me please! I'm crying and begging

I'm on my knees without a floor

An under achiever, a brilliant failure

A lazy smart ass they can't understand

I've invited them to look inside my mind,

But they always run, shocked by what they find

Run to condemn to my fate.

I beg and plead but don't succeed

But get no sympathy,

Just become a target to berate

Yeah there's a shadow on my ceiling,

And there's a demon at my door

Forgive me please! I'm crying and begging

I'm on my knees without a floor

Just one more chance? Please? I'm sobbing and pleading

On my knees without a floor