I just don't want to be here anymore...

Go to the emergency room and forget about paying anyone. Do what you have to. It's your life. Part of survival is taking care of yourself by any means necessary.

You haven't come right out with your details. It's difficult to direct someone without those details.

Give us some more info.

So..... wasn't the world always bad? Did they not crucify Jesus himself? Was it too terrible to live another day back then? If so, the second you "found" Christianity, you should have known about all the crusade/crucifying and evil and killed yourself the second you picked up the Bible!

Do we not bomb innocent countries and invade them killing their children? Is that OKAY?

Christianity is the most evil and cruel of them all. Go read a book while you wait to check out.....

I WENT to the ER and got a bill for $500 bucks... Easier to lay down and let go. They are hounding me every day when I told them I had no job (thanks,obutthole),no money and no insurance.

You have TOTALLY missed the point of this thread.

Leave her alone. She's sick and in a bad place. Pray for her, cause she needs it. She's OK in my book. Get some help OP. If you need someone, just give me a GLP mail.

Done here. May come back tomorrow...maybe not.

Sorry to say, but you're playing right into the devils hands.

You must forgive even horrible people like this Adam Lanza or it will keep you from getting close to God and seeing the purpose behind continuing to serve God.

This hatred for the hate to the point of wishing and pronouncing death on those who have done some terrible crime will keep you very depressed. More importantly, it interferes with the soul communion between you and God.

Try actually praying for ALL your enemies instead of wishing death on them and see if you don't start to feel better.

That said, it is a very trying time as I know we are leading up to the culmination of the end, but it probaby wont be until late this century.

I too had grown depressed until several years ago when I finally realized what was causing it. It wasn't the mess my life had become, or the realization I would probaby never marry, it was the hate I had in my heart for all the evil sinners like this Adam Lanza, and wishing them dead.

When I repented before God and let that hatred go, I immediately felt different, like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I was no longer depressed, and even though I too could "fly away" at any day, I have a rerally hard time staying in a depressed state any longer.

So please give it a try ms. meow, I guarantee it will help you immensely and make life much more meaningful.

God bless -

I hope he is not in Hell.

I hate judging people and wishing pain upon them.

The servant is not greater than the master if the master suffered so will the servant. If you are upset about the things you see and experience remember that He is omnipotent and He sees everything all of mans iniquities and yet came to die for us even for a gun wielding chid murdering person. When he gave himself to be crucified he also had the Connecticut shooter on His mind.

This world is not important if you are about to die then you are in a better place than all of us... soon you will see Him and all of this will be forgotten, don’t let hate and un forgiveness rob you of that.

I sent you an email OP. From Brian.

The ER can't turn you away if you don't have insurance, and if you're going to die what do you care if you run up a bill? I take it you've got cancer. Won't your doctor prescribe you pain meds? If not I'd find one that would. There's no point in you suffering during what time you have left.

You need to make peace with yourself and let go of the things that are causing you all the mental anguish you're going though now. I contracted a potentially fatal disease several years ago and have lived longer than I thought I would. I was full of hate and anger to the point that it was eating me up on the inside. I had to learn to let things go and when I did it was like the weight of the world had been lifted from my shoulders. This is no way to spend your last days on Earth.

I hope you don't find me insensitive because I'm not trying to cause you any more pain than you're already going though.

What's not funny in this western world is that when poor people get sick, they are sent to die in pain.

We are more civilized than that. So please accept my apologies for the following statement:

It's incredibly fucked up and deviant for anyone to die in this nation for any fucking reason but old age and natural causes. It's fucked. Totally fucked. Fuck YOUR SYSTEM.

Your in my thoughts OP.

C.S. Lewis....'The great Divorce'...
BTW-blah,blah,blah...

Many,many thanks...I feel exactly the same.
No reason for this. I 'produced' for over 40 years.

Oops....might want to re-send.

Dude (or,Dudette) don't know where the hell you live but where I live,you have money or insurance or they throw your azzz out.End of freaking story.
Oh,wait! They hound you every single day for money you told them up front you will never have!~

Stop being such a drama queen. Seriously.

Fuck you,bitch. Hope it's YOU in pain next.Needing some help and getting NOTHING.





Good-night,all.

I live in Missouri and they have signs on the wall of the ER that state they cannot deny you care if you don't have insurance.

They also have a policy on charitable cases if you can meet the criteria:


(This) Hospital is also committed to a program of charity assistance for qualified patients who have received or will receive medically necessary hospital services. If you need or have had hospital services and believe you may meet at least two of the qualifications listed below:

You may meet charity care qualifications if:

You are insured with coverage that is inadequate to pay for the hospital service but do not have the ability to pay the balance.

You are uninsured without the ability to pay for hospital services.

Your family income is below 200% of the Federal Poverty Guideline.

Your spendable income allowance is less than 5% of the balance owed the hospital on a month to month basis. Spendable income allowance defined as income available for payment after consideration for the following:

Mortgage or rent expense

Utilities

Car payment/transportation costs

Food

Uninsured medications

Child support and daycare

Insurance for auto, health and property


You have total assets available to pay hospital expenses worth less than $2,000 with the following exceptions:

Home Equity

Auto Equity

Life Insurance Equity

You can demonstrate a verifiable inability to borrow the funds needed to eliminate the account balance.

(This) Hospital will consider all patients that are uninsured, under-insured or unemployed potential candidates for charitable assistance. Charitable services will be provided without an expectation of payment.

What an incredible, loving, God fearing woman.... LOL. Just like

Racist, broke, full of hate, and whining on GLP about it all... Good Riddance.

For starters lets ban cable.

Wiki history channels program list. Its bad programming.

I wish and pray for you that you get absolutely EVERYTHING YOU DESERVE.
Duh...

God bless you, Meow.

You might be right, it will get worse. But "it" is different for different people.

I am not at all sure that the official story of Sandy Hook is what actually happened. Maybe it was a deranged 20 year old, maybe people were killed by someone else ... it is hard to accept.

I thought I was emotionally uninvolved, but today while meditating, I cried. I think that got some of the sadness off of me. But we're all a bit somber about this event.

20 kids and 7 adults, or so, are gone. But 7 billion people were not shot there, had nothing to do with it. You could focus on the rest of us who are still here rather than this particular unexplainable thing.

I am tired of this but I am raising a family, so I have work to do here. If I weren't, I'd have more freedom to explore the world and have new experiences, which I enjoy. Maybe your job is done here, maybe not, but you are protected here or in the next place.

You described yourself as a senior, aren't you eligible for Medicare? And if you're strapped for cash why haven't you applied for Medicaid?

The people you talk about getting all the aid get it because they now how to work the system. There are services out there for people in need but you have to apply for them.

I'm a white male under the age of 65 and get Medicare and Medicaid because I filed for Disability when I found out I was sick. My doctor visits don't cost me anything, my co-pay for a script is $6.50, and I never have to pay if I go to the hospital. It wasn't easy, and nobody would help me do it, but I learned to make the system work for me and have it good now.

Go to your state office of Division of Family Services, or whatever they call it where you live, and apply for Medicaid. If you live in an urban area they probably have a Free Clinic. Find a doctor that will prescribe you something for pain, the one you've got now isn't worth a damn if he's letting you suffer.




The story isn't over till you're dead. It's up to you how it will end. You can continue to be filled with anger or do something positive for yourself. Learn to accept the things you don't have any power over, own them, and learn to let it go so you can find peace with yourself.