first level:
I have learned that the government is my main enemy. (and the trigger was 9/11)

second level:
I started to see who’s behind this grotesque ambition to dominate the planet.

third level:
I realized (in a traumatic way) that the previous levels were just smoke and mirrors meant to hide the most grotesque truth.
I won’t tell you what it is because you will lose your appetite to exist, like I did . . .