Gotcha...I had to go through it alone...yep it's not fun in the beginning...The first year I went to this fireworks show for the 4th...omg I could not even stand hearing the fireworks...to me it was like bombs or something lol...but a few months after that things started to fall into place...and everyday after I felt better...adjusting to the actual reality of this place...

Some I know still live in false reality and will never be able to see it for what it truly is...cause they are afraid or just don't want to go there. It's easier living in the lie I guess and not acknowleding it. Or a my one friend she is devout Catholic. We have had talks she will never see the world as I do...I can never go by the book like she does...we respect each other though and that's all that counts :)