For what it's worth, I can relate for a long time now. Since there is only what God wills and what God allows He must be allowing it. It's hard to understanding why He would allow such things. But we were born into a fallen age. He still uses these things to mold us for what is to come. It can be maddening and make you straight up angry with God. He's not "surprised" by this. use it to harden your mental toughness beyond the physical, beyond the natural world. It may force you to rely on Him alone, and this is gain in the long run. For those who have ever worked with a personal trainer it's easy to hate them as they put you through crap but in the end you come out stronger. Its not Gods will we suffer but just a bi-product of the fall of man ages ago. It is working toward a conclusion, and this is what you may be being shaped for to train how you react to adversity.