Oh don't be so cruel, you GLP bullies! Listen, I empathize with you OP. So what you quit your job, so what you left everything you didn't really like about your life because when faces with death, it was clear you didn't want those things. Think of it as a clean slate, a jumping off point to start over and make the life you want. No point in checking out early, you will be stardust again soon enough. Plus, you might really like the alternate ending you get a chance to create for yourself now. So stop pitying yourself & get back up and live. The people who really love you will always take you back. I hope you find some peace friend.