As long as we're playing the highlighting game, I've gone ahead and denoted the point of yours that intrigues me most. You've detoxed FOUR TIMES, and you still don't get it. You aren't the champion for the cause, you are the reason for it existing.

Naloxone isn't a "seatbelt", it's the brick wall that stops your high in it's tracks. You call it "better than death", but I've known far too many who considered death the more enticing option after detoxing.

There is no balancing act with opiates. Your body accommodates to them, needs them. The chemical changes in your brain take years to revert. If they ever do revert.

If my kid puts his hand in a flame, repeatedly, I'm going to take the fire away. Society is doing the same to you. We aren't trying to deny you any rights or privileges. We're trying to keep you safe, while you act like an ignorant child. I say "believe what you want" to give you the freedom to make your own choice. I'm not here to force you to do anything. I won't waste years of my life preaching to those who will turn a deaf ear ad infinitum. I will say you are only fooling yourself. The sooner you realize this, the better.