Firstly, almost nobody knows what they want to be at 20. Almost everybody feels lost at your age. It's part of growing up. If they say otherwise, they're probably lying to themselves.

Try to get off all drugs and see who you are. It doesn't matter what other people think, only what you think about yourself.

Comparing yourself to anybody else is a ridiculous proposition. It's like picking a bunch of leaves off a tree and trying to say which one is the better or the right leaf. Each one has a purpose and a function and none of them are "better" than the others.

This site is good, but sometimes there are people who are just trying to out "doom" each other for fun. It can't be taken that seriously, even some of what's discussed here is very serious, if you know what I mean.

Don't let anybody or society define you or hem you in. That's the oldest trick in the book and a way of controlling you, which you don't need. Nobody does. Control your own life as best you can.

You don't need a college degree if you don't want one. On the other hand you can get five PHD's if that's what you want.

If you really want that girl you spoke of and the house by the lake, then go find her and the rest, then work to make it work as best you can. You might be surprised.

Try watching David dIcke on youtube. Watch his whole seven hour video. Read Jon Rappoport's blog and check out his website then click on "Imagination". These guys have some great stuff to say.

This site is just one site out of millions. Stretch your muscles.

Good luck.