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I mean this in all seriousness and am only offering this disclaimer for the reason that the solution is rather blunt... You have first world problems. It may sound like a joke but the first thing you need to do is acknowledge how silly some of what you're saying really is.

I'm guessing from everything you mentioned about the past (such as your childhood) that you find yourself constantly looking for reasons as to why you're unhappy. Instead of saying "I had a shitty childhood but I survived it", you prefer to see yourself as still a victim of circumstances over it. It gives you an excuse as to why you hate your life instead of reason to see yourself as deserving of more so you can go out and get it.

The hard truth is that life is simply hard but appreciation is only acquired through challenge.

Getting a little more technical about it, the brain has this process called neuroplasticity. In a nutshell, the way you think makes you continue to think that way. Everything from learning motor skills like controlling your fingers to developing addictions like smoking is the result of experience and repetition. Your brain makes you be you based on what you make yourself be.

What this all means is that a pessimistic person will continue being pessimistic until they choose to force a more optimistic outlook into their routine. Trying to avoid seeing yourself as the victim requires you to "rewire" your brain and is as difficult as changing a chemical addiction like nicotine.

A pessimistic person will see negative incidents as part of a sequence and when something good happens, it's treated as an isolated event and they're apprehensive about when the "bad luck" will come back because they've just been rewarded.

A better life is out there but only if you really want it. Having said all that, forget everything that happened in the past. It's behind you and what's done is done. Stop using it as justification for overreacting to trivial things.

Yes, losing a job sucks.
Yes, girls break hearts.
Yes, we are born into families and have no choice in the matter.
And yes, shit happens.

Again, being blunt here, so what? You may not want to hear it but the reality is that a better life is entirely optional... you have to honestly decide if you want a better life or if you'd rather complain about not having one because of things that happened in the past.
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OP, I'm going out on a limb with what I'm gonna share with you because I have no other way to contact you. Pay no mind to those who will laugh, and I'm sure there will be some others who will see this and give it a try as well.

There is no science known for this yet, but in about 100 years there will be. These types of treatments will be used with 100% success, and doctors will be a thing of the past. I bring it here now to you and anyone else freely who wants it. Take it or leave it!

(Ego and Low Self Esteem)

What you will need:

Buy one bottle of 1000-1200mg Omega-3 fish oil.
A quiet place with a mirror where you will not be disturbed.
Complete scilence.

Protocol:
Days 1 to 3, take one fishoil every 6 hours, and be sure to wake up with an alarm to take it every 6 hours. Never miss!

Day 4 is the same, except at 12:00 midnight stand in front of your mirror and just stare into your own eyes for one full hour. Instead ot watching the time which will become a distraction, please set a timer.

Stare into yourself. You will see who you are. You will begin to question yourself, Your ego will step in, but your ego is not who you are. Your inward demonds will come forward... all those little things that have always held you back. Everything, and it may get ugly. That's just your ego. Nothing else. It's not real demons, just your own you've created!

Cry if you need to (which you will I'm sure), but be firm! Your ego will fuck you up here at this point! It is trying to convince you that he is you. He is not! He/it will not let go easily. If and when you have any sort of head pain like headache, that is what you want. It's working.

Continue this another day if needed. You will know when you have gotten control over it!

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cute you had me til 'day 4' lolsign

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Try it yourself.

The fish oil is good for the brain which by the way is made up of mainly omega-3's. It cures psychological problems by balancing.

The mirror is good for the soul by staring into the window of the soul which is the eyes.

Brain/mind and spirit/soul are connected, and can never be separated ever.

Times of doeses every 6 hours even at night teaches discipline.

This is the medicine of the future!

 Quoting: WatchmenOnTheWall




I'll just take your word on this one....cuz trust me...standing naked in front of a floor-length mirror while taking large doses of fish oil would ~not~ make me feel better thumbs
"the truth will stand up, when nothing else will"
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Just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you. If the world was filled with people like you it would be a far better place.hf

What you need is unconditional love, which you never got from your parents or the girl you lost and you won't get it from most people.

So while you are waiting for that special someone who will bring you the happiness you seek, go to the shelter and adopt a puppy.

I guarantee that puppy will love you no matter what. That's what puppies do.
And with all the love that you have to give, that is going to be one very lucky puppy.

Instead of taking your life, save a little life and you will know joy.

Trust me, and let me know how it works out for you.hf

And remember this. If you act like a doormat, don't be surprised when people wipe their feet on you.
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Find a simple, straightforward job. Get a small place, live a quiet life. No parties, no drugs, no drinking. Exercise, eat right. Deliberately let your life calm down. Take a whole year to do this - a whole year to calm down. save some money, keep your expenses minimal. Do not get into any relationships. stay away from family and former friends. Take the year for yourself, and don't try to figure anything out - just let yourself calm down, and rest. Try to spend time in nature. Stay offline as much as possible, and read books instead. You need a break - give yourself one. A year isn't too much, and you'll have your feet on the ground again. And think about God, in whatever way makes you feel loved. If it doesn't make you feel loved, throw it out. One year - give it to yourself as a gift. You deserve the time for yourself.

^^^^^^This, for real....just do it.
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I don't have time to read all the pages, but I will give you the advice I have.

First of all, eventually change will come...this too shall pass.

You are not alone! Don't ever think u are alone.

I lost my son, and he was also my best friend, to suicide. He was the most beautiful boy in the world...a precious soul.

I have also tried to take my own life. I failed, and I have learned so much since that act. I have gotten stronger, and I would no longer consider that an action to rid my life of this pain.

I realize now I have to live with myself and my pain. The longer you sit and meditate on your situation....the more you will be closer to an answer. Go into a place of peace, and sit and meditate on your life until an answer comes.

It may just be to take a walk to a beautiful place, but whatever it is, it could bring about the change you need....just one small act could give you the strength you need.

Put yourself first for right now. Do something for yourself, even if it is a small thing...something for you.

Realize we are here to be...just to be...that is all. Our presence in this world changes so many things...we just have no idea.

I thank you for all you have done for mankind...now do for yourself the same. Love yourself.:uit:
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OP, you got a lot of advice here. And some of us have been where you are. I hope some of it helps you. Good for you for reaching out. You already see what reaching out to the internet community did for you. Now I hope you find out what it can do for you in your environment.

I came back to give you this link in case you want to try to find a job in another location:
[link to www.couchsurfing.org (secure)]

I hope you will come back and tell us how you are. Post daily if it helps you. We all want to see you do well even if a lot of us disagree on what we think you should do.

hf
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meditation helps dissolve old karmas (those old patterns that seem to run one's life) into bliss awareness.

it doesn't happen overnight, but a consistent practice will improve your view on yourself and you will see this reflected in the "real world"

so.. how to meditate?

here's a link to an easy guide: [link to www.aypsite.org]
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cute you had me til 'day 4' lolsign

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Try it yourself.

The fish oil is good for the brain which by the way is made up of mainly omega-3's. It cures psychological problems by balancing.

The mirror is good for the soul by staring into the window of the soul which is the eyes.

Brain/mind and spirit/soul are connected, and can never be separated ever.

Times of doeses every 6 hours even at night teaches discipline.

This is the medicine of the future!

 Quoting: WatchmenOnTheWall




I'll just take your word on this one....cuz trust me...standing naked in front of a floor-length mirror while taking large doses of fish oil would ~not~ make me feel better thumbs
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I never said anything about standing naked in front of a full length mirror, lol.
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omg! I just re-read your original post...and you're right... not a word about naked-ism! rofl

holy crap, I'm sorry! ...... and now everyone knows where my mind is now!

no more wine for annie! someone cut her off! thumbs sorry

roflmao laughing hehehe
"the truth will stand up, when nothing else will"
- annie's mom

"When a great ship is in harbor and moored, it is safe, there can be no doubt. But that is not what great ships are built for."
- Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes
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I had a lot of breakthroughs in my life when I learned to pray with authority.

Check out this free teaching from William Lau:

www.theelijahchallenge.org
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Try it yourself.

The fish oil is good for the brain which by the way is made up of mainly omega-3's. It cures psychological problems by balancing.

The mirror is good for the soul by staring into the window of the soul which is the eyes.

Brain/mind and spirit/soul are connected, and can never be separated ever.

Times of doeses every 6 hours even at night teaches discipline.

This is the medicine of the future!

 Quoting: WatchmenOnTheWall




I'll just take your word on this one....cuz trust me...standing naked in front of a floor-length mirror while taking large doses of fish oil would ~not~ make me feel better thumbs
 Quoting: ladyannie2009


I never said anything about standing naked in front of a full length mirror, lol.
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omg! I just re-read your original post...and you're right... not a word about naked-ism! rofl

holy crap, I'm sorry! ...... and now everyone knows where my mind is now!

no more wine for annie! someone cut her off! thumbs sorry

roflmao laughing hehehe
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Tee hee!

tounge
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I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times
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You see the irony there don´t you. Get rigt with God first of all.
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Dude you have no clue how right I am with God I spent a year of homelessness, because my family screwed me over and not only did I forgive them I let myself fall to God's will I have prayed every day and every night for 5 years for God to show me what to do and to guide me. God clearly has a plan for me I have slashed my wrists until and I quote a doctor on this "Holy Moses that looks like a road map". I feel like God hates me even though every waking breath I devote to any that need me. I have went without so many times just so others could have a meal and be happy even if just for one night. I worked my ass off and spent every penny I made to help out 4 of my friends who would have been homeless and starving if not. Trust me I am right with God the thing is I'm lost and beaten and I'm losing faith.
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wow....just give it time op..

I think you might have an amazing spiritual mission ahead of you..
hf

Be patient..let things unfold..
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Just gotta love people like you... lol.

You tell people this their whole lives, and even a month before they are lowered into their graves.
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Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever?
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I was suicidal until I went to a holistic doctor she told me I was omega deficient
took huge doses of omega supplement everyday
suicide thoughts and depression gone
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Believe in yourself, OP! If you become suicidal, you're made to believe they can.

First quit the medications/drugs. Go out in nature and feel the harmony of the universe. Never give up.

Accept the way you are, be yourself, and accept the way God might be. Without suffering, we cannot enjoy.

Peace and love for your lost soul!
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Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever?
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The universe wants you to stay living. That must mean there is a place and a purpose for you. People can tell you to cheer up but you are of course, living in the vivid present - where all these feelings you have, seem to blur the view of any corner or crossroad on your path ahead.

The only way for you is up so, raise your head and keep your gaze high. There is a doorway ahead which leads to a life change .. there really is. rockon < you know what I mean?
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I mean this in all seriousness and am only offering this disclaimer for the reason that the solution is rather blunt... You have first world problems. It may sound like a joke but the first thing you need to do is acknowledge how silly some of what you're saying really is.

I'm guessing from everything you mentioned about the past (such as your childhood) that you find yourself constantly looking for reasons as to why you're unhappy. Instead of saying "I had a shitty childhood but I survived it", you prefer to see yourself as still a victim of circumstances over it. It gives you an excuse as to why you hate your life instead of reason to see yourself as deserving of more so you can go out and get it.

The hard truth is that life is simply hard but appreciation is only acquired through challenge.

Getting a little more technical about it, the brain has this process called neuroplasticity. In a nutshell, the way you think makes you continue to think that way. Everything from learning motor skills like controlling your fingers to developing addictions like smoking is the result of experience and repetition. Your brain makes you be you based on what you make yourself be.

What this all means is that a pessimistic person will continue being pessimistic until they choose to force a more optimistic outlook into their routine. Trying to avoid seeing yourself as the victim requires you to "rewire" your brain and is as difficult as changing a chemical addiction like nicotine.

A pessimistic person will see negative incidents as part of a sequence and when something good happens, it's treated as an isolated event and they're apprehensive about when the "bad luck" will come back because they've just been rewarded.

A better life is out there but only if you really want it. Having said all that, forget everything that happened in the past. It's behind you and what's done is done. Stop using it as justification for overreacting to trivial things.

Yes, losing a job sucks.
Yes, girls break hearts.
Yes, we are born into families and have no choice in the matter.
And yes, shit happens.

Again, being blunt here, so what? You may not want to hear it but the reality is that a better life is entirely optional... you have to honestly decide if you want a better life or if you'd rather complain about not having one because of things that happened in the past.
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I.
LIKE.
THIS.
RESPONSE.
Too bad you aren't registered AC. I'd give you KARMA for this!

I'm in a similar situation OP. We both need to put our big pants on and rise above it. It's hard to do but hang in there and think about what AC just said. Sage advice from them.
Please take care.
hf hf hf
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My heart truly breaks for you since I know where your coming from....I'm there myself....I can testify of the yukky life...suicide, yes, I've tried that too...my feeling is God wants us around for some reason...., I'm leaving here in tears (again) to go play the game...but I will say my strength is in the Lord...frankly, I can't feel him, I can't see him, and most times I don't hear Him...but I know He's there...He's there for you too...one day at a time....just keep on going...till He comes for us....and He will....the only honest and true thing I've found is Jesus...and I don't say that lightly. I'll keep going if you do...and He'll rescue us in His time.....many blessings.....
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Get on the next fraight train out going anywhere.Make sure you get on a grain car and enjoy the upcomming adventure!
'Politicians are like diapers; they need to be changed often and for the same reason.' - Mark Twain

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I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times
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You see the irony there don´t you. Get rigt with God first of all.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 26268975


Dude you have no clue how right I am with God I spent a year of homelessness, because my family screwed me over and not only did I forgive them I let myself fall to God's will I have prayed every day and every night for 5 years for God to show me what to do and to guide me. God clearly has a plan for me I have slashed my wrists until and I quote a doctor on this "Holy Moses that looks like a road map". I feel like God hates me even though every waking breath I devote to any that need me. I have went without so many times just so others could have a meal and be happy even if just for one night. I worked my ass off and spent every penny I made to help out 4 of my friends who would have been homeless and starving if not. Trust me I am right with God the thing is I'm lost and beaten and I'm losing faith.
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Volunteer at a large Church with many needs...........work in their kitchen for food, etc....landscape for living quarters.....helping others will bring help to yourself............

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Praying for you OP. It would be nice to know your first name if you can post it.

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Well I too had been through everything you have. The best advice I can give you is too take personal responsibilty for your actions and realize it's your poor decisions that got you were you are. Once you realize you are good at making bad choices then all you have to do is the opposite.

You like to take the easy road....you like to make the decisions that give you instant gradifacation. It's time to do the opposite start making the choices you dont want to do because it's hard or because it's not fun. It take dicipline at first but after a few months it will become second nature and you will see your life snowball into success, just like it snowballed into failure.


Here is my story:


From a Google cache (search "Cloise Orand"):

Violent Crime Victim Turns Life Around

Cloise Orand is a business owner and now has written a novel.
By TRAVIS BAKER, tbaker@kitsapsun.com
October 9, 2005

Port Orchard -- Youthful Port Orchard businessman Cloise Orand doesn't remember the hours he spent on the operating table in 1987, being sewn back together as one of three victims of one of Kitsap County's most grisly crimes.

For that matter, he doesn't remember being found by police and medical rescuers, near death in a clearing near Dickey Road in Central Kitsap where he and two girls had been brutalized by Daniel Yates, a Bremerton tattoo artist now serving a 60-year sentence in an out-of-state prison for the attacks.

Orand's tongue nearly had been cut out and his cheeks slit outward from the corners of his mouth. He'd been shot once in the back and sexually assaulted.

He was 13, a runaway who had been living in vacant houses he and the two girls — also runaways — would break into. One girl died two months later of injuries suffered that day. The other's throat was slashed, but like Orand, she survived.

Orand, now 31 and the owner of four businesses, says the attack is "something I actually left back then and never really dwelled on."

Yet he recreates the violent Sept. 17, 1987, attack in nearly exact detail in a science fiction novel he has written and hopes to have made into a movie.

His main character, Mabus, the unfairly vilified Antichrist, is about his age and shares many of Orand's life experiences. But in the novel, he is the only victim of the brutal attack. The girls aren't mentioned.

Called "The Antichrist, Version 666," the novel is due out soon, at $24.95 a copy.

Orand was an unlikely candidate to be a business success or an author in his younger days.

Even after being nearly murdered by the man who picked up him and the girls up hitchhiking, he went back to the life of a runaway. He also resumed his Navy Yard City paper route for this newspaper as something of an inadvertent celebrity.

"The tips were good after that," he said. "I'd start with a bag of papers and come home with a bag of presents."

He made prosecutors nervous as a key witness in a murder trial because his whereabouts were never certain.

But he did testify, with the same detachment with which he still tells the story, detailing the atrocities committed against him matter-of-factly.

As an adult, Orand became a valued worker in the rough-and-tumble world of roofing but still lived life on the ragged edge.

In the midst of a custody battle with the mother of his two oldest children, "I was going out a lot, clubs and what not," he said. "Despite a decent income, it was spent before I got my check, I was in serious debt, using marijuana and alcohol.

"I had a box of comics and sleeping bag to my name, I was living on friends' couches.

"About eight years ago, I realized I was good at making poor choices. When my mind tells me I want to do it, it's probably the wrong choice and if it required discipline and integrity, that's probably the path I should take. So rather than blaming everybody else for my outcome, it was time I started making better choices."

He and Mike Holbrook left the Hanley Construction roofing crew and formed their own business, later adding Tom Cowan as an owner. Orand says he also has formed two property management firms to handle rentals as well as Port Orchard Publishing, which is publishing "The Antichrist, Version 666."

His wife, Michelle, played a key role in his reclamation, giving him reason to stay home and out of clubs, he said.

"She was a bit of a challenge to court," he said.

Until recently, Orand had become something of an absentee owner of Cloise and Mike Construction, which mostly does roofing jobs. Its bright yellow trucks are a fixture in downtown Port Orchard.

He was spending most of his days at home with Michelle, baby Savannah, 3-year-old Alexander, and, on weekends and in the summer, 11-year-old twins Stefan and Christopher. He watched a lot of the Discovery and Science channels, spent time online and read science magazines.

But the Mike in Cloise and Mike left the company Friday to start his own business, Orand said, so he's back at it full time.
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Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever?
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Get OVER yourself and OUT of yourself. Go volunteer for those who really have it bad. I am not trying to be mean. I am speaking from experience. Though I never had depression issues I DID have a dysfunctional family and after waking up and realizing I was making myself crazy by absorbing all their negativity I cut everyone out of my life. Suddenly I had no more obligatory responsibilities. I didn't have to please anyone simply because they were family.

I was lonely at first but then I started volunteering and helping others who were truly appreciative. I gained a sense of self worth and realized that family didn't mean blood. I now have friends and a "family" who doesn't have expectations. I truly know what unconditional friendship is.

So, just as you were quick to assume that only 2% will take you seriously, I pray that you don't do the same thing and you take my words SERIOUSLY. If you don't then you really don't want to help yourself.
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Here is my story:



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I've seen you bravely share this before. Thank you for the reality check again... For all of us out there who need it.
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The highest vibrations available are Love and Gratitude!

My advice is simple...

Count your Blessings (and not curses) everyday !

Multiple times if/as necessary.

And humbly thank the Creator for your Blessings...

With Love and GRATITUDE !


Your list is much longer than you realize !


Blessings upon You and Yours, OP !
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Re: Anyone that could help I'd forever appreciate
Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever?
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Yes. Just keep hanging in there and one day you'll realize what you should, could and would do to change one little thing, then another and pretty soon, you'll be in a different mind set viewing the world a little differently.

It's tough and life is not fair. But you are here. You can do this.
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First post. Never felt compelled to post here till now. I relate to a lot of what you've been through OP. I attempted suicide between 15 and 20 times via various forms of overdose during a very emotionally turbulent teenage experience. Before said teenage life was over, all women in my immediate family had developed breast cancer, my best friend and the most righteous, caring person I've ever known died with her father in a car wreck while fleeing a psycho husband, 3 of the 5 most precious people in my life all died within a year, you get my point. I've always had my faith save for a few crucial moments of extreme doubt and, like you, I've struggled mightily with the question of why my God would not only let me suffer so, but actively INCREASE said suffering when I responded to it with more faith and acts of kindness to others. The answer? God tests us to prove whether or not we are worthy to walk with him. Or rather, not just worthy but whether or not our faith is able to be shaken. Don't forget the parable of the seeds, specifically those finding root in rocky ground. If we abandon faith due to the harsh realities of this world, even if we abandon the APPLICATION of faith, we're failing in our duties to our God, our fellow humans and ourselves.

Likewise, certain people are preordained to have weighty spiritual missions in both this life and next, therefore not only are these people more heavily tested than others by God but they are marked by the forces of evil to be lead astray and generally interfered with. THE BEST, MOST LOVING PEOPLE I HAVE EVER KNOWN ARE THOSE WHO HAVE KNOWN TRUE SUFFERING. Do not forget that you are a righteous, beautiful soul, a being of the light who was created to serve a purpose in our universe. It will never be easy. Just count your blessings and always emanate love and mercy. Prayers sent to you.

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