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Repent and give your life to Jesus. Go to a church any church. You do not even have to be a member people there will help you. Good luck stay safe.
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I am in the same boat. The only reason I haven't killed myself is because it would bring my x-wife gleeful pleasure.

Go to the dark side and embrace your evil and live.
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law of relationships.
you may be going through shit but it will allow you to appreciate everything in life all the more one day.

Furthermore, think about this. No matter how bad it gets for you: You go to prison or have to eat out of dumpsters. You will still be better off than almost an entire continent of people who are being oppressed and starving to death.

Remember you life is based on your beliefs. If you believe that from a higher perspective whatever happens is for the best. After all, rejection makes acceptance meaningful.

So choose.

Choose to live in the moment and see the bright side of things. Remember it is you who defines your reality. When you begin pitying yourself you begin down a slippery slope.

Choose to make the best of things and if you have nothing else at least you will have happiness.
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Dear Friend,

The main problem is that you suffer from having very unhealthy thoughts. It is your thoughts that determine how you handle things and how you get through life. The sick thoughts from all of your close ones have passed on onto you and are making you critically sick. To heal yourself, you must start cultivating healthy and life-promoting thoughts. It will not be easy and will not work right away because you are deeply buried under the burden of all the sickness.

Only a strong and persistent will of cultivating your thoughts to that what is good and positive will help you to start living your life.

Here are some thoughts that you should repeat to yourself several times a day. Positive thoughts are the best form of prayer and they actually work.

1) To live in today's world, I must be strong and develop tenacity with regard to my consciousness and my intellect (understanding).
2) The more calm and tenacious I become, the more difficulties I overcome.
3) The creational-natural power is within myself, and I use it, actualizing it in my thinking and behaving.
4) Within my consciousness I change myself positively, and for this I utilize my creational-natural power within me.
5) Within myself I am strong and change my mental self-image positively.
6) Everything is achievable for me, and I master whatever I wish to accomplish.
7) Constantly, I raise my view, recognize all possibilities and I am a positive thinker.
8) All difficulties, I overcome with courage and a victor's readiness.
9) Constantly, I will be as good and positive as my thoughts, feelings and actions actually are.
10) Within me exists neither anxiety nor fear.
11) My thoughts and feelings strengthen the trust in myself.
12) Constantly, I retain my knowledge that my thoughts and feelings are positive and generate what is positive.
13) Constantly, I find my own strength and can depend on it.
14) Constantly, I decide and behave myself on my own responsibility, and lead and define my life myself.
15) It is a joy for me to know and value (esteem) myself.
16) Because I cultivate myself, I can depend on myself.
17) My nature (being) is good, and I am a true human.
18) There is no discontent in me, because everything moves actively and in contentment.
19) My self is developed, and with this I live well together in harmony (concord).
20) Because I respect Creation, I respect and value (esteem) also myself.
21) In every respect, I steer my life myself, and I also like my own results that I create.
22) In the consciousness, the psyche as well as my thoughts and feelings, I am great, friendly and averse to every humility.
23) To live by the creational laws is my purpose.
24) The life and the world, I view optimistically and make the best out of everything.
25) Constantly, I do my best and will thus succeed in all that is good.
26) Constantly, I accept myself and trust in myself.
27) The constant flow of creational laws and recommendations is within me as prosperity, which I actualize.
28) Good living, wealth and prosperity are within me in the love, in the happiness, in harmony, peace and freedom.

You can find many more on this website:

[link to www.futureofmankind.co.uk]
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Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever?
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Well now my fine friend, so you lost your one love and your life was shit......Well sorry there now Pilgrim but life is like that. I lost my girlfriend after forty five year so I would know a little of how life sucks. I also had a shit childhood, but hey, you have to get over that........Friends, well now I have had a few of those, but real friends stay in your heart forever.

I have no magic fix for you alas, but hey, you are you, you have no job and life sucks just now, but fuck it all Pilgrim you live in one God awful country. There is beauty all about you, get up off your fecking arse and go out and be a fecking tramp. Make your way to the Grand Canyon and just sit on the edge of creation look down into the beginning of creation and see how insignificant you really are...............

I have a habit of flicking through those threads, but I am not really going to read all yours......Not trying to be a shit here and rain on your parade, but you were created in the image of the creator, you are perfect, you are you, just believe in who you created.................Stop feeling sorry for yourself, get out and make things happen for you, and always believe in who you are..............

Try to stop using those drugs those in the know would give you, always believe in self, just knuckle down and move on. There are always only ever but two emotions in the human heart, love, and fear..................Choose love.

Just another Pilgrim,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,bump
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12/24/2012 06:10 PM
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What city do live in OP?
Justalittlebad/more or less
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im in the exact same boat as you my friend.. lost the only love of my life about a year ago, however we still talk sometimes even though its not the same. we had a caustic bipolar relationship it was either great or really bad. had to get my ged because school fucked me over, and my family is the EXACT same way. my father has been in prison my whole life and my stepdad is a jerk most of the time and my mother always agrees with him. i use to lay in my bed all day not wanting to ever get up or seek help and sometimes still do. im slowly starting to feel better about my life and myself. thought about suicide but have always been against it. id rather live through the pain nd become stronger. and honestly the only advice i could give you is time has a way of changing things. until then do what makes you happy. was the only way i could escape. you are a brave person for posting this by the way. most people dont have the balls. it takes alot of patience and temperment to deal with all these things at one time.
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12/24/2012 06:19 PM
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god? seriously? fk god.
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12/24/2012 06:32 PM
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The Law
by Ella Wheeler Wilcox

The sun may be clouded, yet ever the sun
Will sweep on its course till the cycle is run.
And when into chaos the systems are hurled,
Again shall the Builder reshape a new world.

Your path may be clouded, uncertain your goal;
Move on, for the orbit is fixed for your soul.
And though it may lead into darkness of night,
The torch of the Builder shall give it new light.

You were, and you will be: know this while you are.
Your spirit has traveled both long and afar.
It came from the Source, to the Source it returns;
The spark that was lighted, eternally burns.

It slept in the jewel, it leaped in the wave,
It roamed in the forest, it rose in the grave,
It took on strange garbs for long aeons of years,
And now in the soul of yourself it appears.

From body to body your spirit speeds on;
It seeks a new form when the old one is gone;
And the form that it finds is the fabric you wrought
On the loom of the mind, with the fibre of thought.

As dew is drawn upward, in rain to descend,
Your thoughts drift away and in destiny blend.
You cannot escape them; or petty, or great,
Or evil, or noble, they fashion your fate.

Somewhere on some planet, sometime and somehow,
Your life will reflect all the thoughts of your now.
The law is unerring; no blood can atone;
The structure you rear you must live in alone.

From cycle to cycle, through time and through space,
Your lives with your longings will ever keep pace.
And all that you ask for, and all you desire,
Must come at your bidding, as flames out of fire.

Once list to that voice and all tumult is done,
Your life is the life of the Infinite One;
In the hurrying race you are conscious of pause,
With love for the purpose and love for the cause.

You are your own devil, you are your own God,
You fashioned the paths that your footsteps have trod;
And no one can save you from error or sin,
Until you shall hark to the Spirit within.
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12/24/2012 06:38 PM
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Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever?
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Now lets break this down abit..deprived childhood, perhaps lots of trauma, lots of triggers in the environment making you feel worse on an almost daily basis. Lots of life events, knowing lots of superficial people who do not really support you. It seems that you have been defined by others most of the time and you may struggle with creating a self that can be separated from others, where this self is consistent. How can the doctors tell you that nothing is wrong with you when you were prescribed anti-depressants and mood stabilisers. So, you must suffer from depression and/or a personality disorder/bipolar/childhood trauma (complex type). Try using mindfulness techniques as these promote being in the present rather than the past or the future. Talk to someone who specialises in complex trauma.
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OP if you live in Texas come have Christmas dinner with us. We will be happy to have you and it will get you out of the house. We are kinda looney tunes but maybe some laughter will help you. Let me know if you want to come.
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OP if you live in Texas come have Christmas dinner with us. We will be happy to have you and it will get you out of the house. We are kinda looney tunes but maybe some laughter will help you. Let me know if you want to come.
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And you have to bring only one thing your appetite.
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Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever?
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Wean yourself off all pharmaceuticals. Change your diet. Stop eating all wheat, become gluten free. The wheat we eat today is not the wheat our grandparents ate. This may sound extreme but I encourage you to research, there's plenty of info on the web. Eat fruit especially apples, and lots of fresh vegetables. Bike riding, running, sports are all great ways to blow off steam. Biking gets my head straight.

If you currently watch TV. Stop. When anxiety/depression strikes have a good book standing by. A topic that interests you. Helps to escape by getting caught up in the story.

Stop trying to kill yourself. It's very possible your body's toxic, lending to toxic thoughts and poor decision making. People underestimate the damage pharmaceuticals cause. Have you googled the side effects of your meds? A combination of anti-depresants, a poor diet and lack of physical exercise will reek havoc on your psyche. What have you got to lose? If your family's "twisted," refuse to engage or get caught up in any drama. Only meet them on neutral ground. Depend on them for nil.
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12/24/2012 06:55 PM
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Dear OP,

This is just a thought, probably not the best one, but thought I'd share it anyways. Join the Peace Corps. You seem to enjoy helping others, and this would allow you to do so, while helping yourself at the same time. You get to see the world, establish meaningful relationships, have food and some shelter, all while filling your innate desire to help others. It will also allow you to see that all the world is not bad, and that you don't have to be defined by your past, but can do something meaningful for someone elses future (and your own).

It has to be a better option than waiting around until your suffering causes the world to miss out on your spirit, because you release said spirit prematurely.
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OP, I have a friend who went through the same thing as you. In his case his dad left when he was young and the mother was neglectful to the 2 kids she was left with. There were all manner of men that the mother subjected the kids to and they were beaten & abused.

When I met him he had no confidence in himself. He couldn't keep a job and hit a low point including alcohol, suicide & drugs. And like you when anyone in his family needed help he was there and didn't know why he did it. It sounds like you also have had your family telling you how worthless you are until you finally believed them.

I told my friend that he had many good qualities along with the bad and that he needed to have more confidence. I told him to start with music, a natural ability for him, and he excelled. He then tried other things & found many strengths he had. He finally moved away from his family to a large city and eventually found a good job. You need to get away from your family. They'll be fine and will appreciate you more when you visit.

When I first met him he was always bringing himself down & felt he was worthless but I saw many wonderful things in him. I couldn't believe his family had him so brow-beaten. He had natural abilities in music & art but also had strong leanings to left-brain abilities. He was very intelligent & didn't realize it.

Sounds like you have been criticized your whole life for unfounded reasons. Don't believe it any more. Find your strengths. If you don't have the money to move maybe consider the organization that hooks you up with organic farms/vineyards/ranches to work at in exchange for board/food/cash. It's called World Wide Opportunities Organic Farms. I met a girl in town who does this & loves it. She says she has learned skills & met lots of great people. Here's the link.

[link to www.wwoof.org]

If you want to stay in your town maybe you could start your own business. Before my friend moved he had started his own landscaping business & was doing o.k. You just need to get away from the people that bring you down. You have to make yourself whole before you can help them. So concentrate just on yourself for now.

When I read your story it was almost as if my friend was writing it. He moved away from those that were being destructive to him. They were all selfish people who hung on to him. He visits a few times a year and they are nice to him when he does now. He made it and you can also.
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12/24/2012 07:34 PM
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Dear OP
Hang in there! No matter how difficult it gets...Hang on. See your life the way YOU choose it to be. There have been so many wonderful comments here from many kind individuals. However, no matter what they say, you are the one that must change your situation.

"The finest tapestry takes patience and the ability to wait for each thread to support the final picture and the larger purpose..."

We are all part of the same whole. But each one of us has our own Universe that we create. Do whatever you can to heal your universe. That means you must go within because healing your universe is an inside job. When you release the past and move beyond the old paradigms...you will see :) When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change!

Here is a note for you from the Universe:

If it's not yet obvious to you, the real reason for this, and all seasons, is you. A more perfect child of the Universe has never lived. Until now, only celebrations cloaked in myth and mystery could hint at your divine heritage and sacred destiny. You are life's prayer of becoming and its answer. The first light at the dawn of eternity, drawn from the ether, so that I might know my own depth, discover new heights, and revel in seas of blessed emotion.

A pioneer into illusion, an adventurer into the unknown, and a lifter of veils. Courageous, heroic, and exalted by legions in the unseen.

To give beyond reason, to care beyond hope, to love without limit; to reach, stretch, and dream, in spite of your fears. These are the hallmarks of divinity - traits of the immortal - your badges of honor. May you wear them with a pride as great as what we feel for you.

Your light has illuminated darkened paths, your gaze has lifted broken spirits, and already your life has changed the course of history.

This is the time of year we celebrate you OP.
Bowing before Greatness,
The Universe



P.S. This comes from someone who has stood in a worst place from where you are standing...Much Love to you!
Hold on Cowboy! The roughest rides are usually the best!
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12/24/2012 07:54 PM
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So sorry to hear your woes OP. Life can be a struggle and it's never fair. You sound like a genuine soul who has gotten a little lost along the way. Remember, you can't control the acts of others, but you can control yours. Someone in an earlier post said take a year for yourself to reorient your life. If you're losing faith (whatever form you have) it's obviously something you need to investigate to see it's the 'right' faith for you.

One thing I see in several of your posts is that you sacrifice almost to the extreme. You please to excess, and it costs you dearly. The Universe requires balance, take time to find it. Also, when you give, do so without expecting "God" to reward you. That's not how I view selfless giving. You give because you want to with pure motive, and only to the point that you don't become the sacrificial lamb.

Take that kind heart and turn it on yourself friend. You say you have tried suicide several times. Doesn't sound like you are treating yourself as good as you do others. You must take care of yourself before you can help others. Keep at it friend. You will eventually find the happiness in life you desrve.

Peace
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12/24/2012 07:58 PM
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I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times
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You see the irony there don´t you. Get rigt with God first of all.
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Dude you have no clue how right I am with God I spent a year of homelessness, because my family screwed me over and not only did I forgive them I let myself fall to God's will I have prayed every day and every night for 5 years for God to show me what to do and to guide me. God clearly has a plan for me I have slashed my wrists until and I quote a doctor on this "Holy Moses that looks like a road map". I feel like God hates me even though every waking breath I devote to any that need me. I have went without so many times just so others could have a meal and be happy even if just for one night. I worked my ass off and spent every penny I made to help out 4 of my friends who would have been homeless and starving if not. Trust me I am right with God the thing is I'm lost and beaten and I'm losing faith.
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wow....just give it time op..

I think you might have an amazing spiritual mission ahead of you..
hf

Be patient..let things unfold..
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How true. Op has a pup to open. Hahahahah! Just joking.

This one is for you, op:

[link to www.youtube.com]
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Hey OP,
Idk if you're still reading this thread, I would've given up on it too if I were you.
I just have to say that...
you do have a plan at work in your life
to be a warrior of love and truth
dependent on helping the weak and downtrodden
you will not be the one to help though
you will be merely an occupied body
still subject to hardship
thrown in pits
smashed and broken
wondering where your life went
suffering may be endless
but your works never go by without recognition
God sees your spirit
he helps the weary
but let us not forget
wandering the desert
makes us yearn more for the promised land
find comfort knowing that when you are removed from this Earth.
You will be welcomed with "good and faithful servant"
into the arms of Jesus
where every tear is wiped away
and all suffering is no longer present
and all are at peace.

:) <3
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Well I too had been through everything you have. The best advice I can give you is too take personal responsibilty for your actions and realize it's your poor decisions that got you were you are. Once you realize you are good at making bad choices then all you have to do is the opposite.

You like to take the easy road....you like to make the decisions that give you instant gradifacation. It's time to do the opposite start making the choices you dont want to do because it's hard or because it's not fun. It take dicipline at first but after a few months it will become second nature and you will see your life snowball into success, just like it snowballed into failure.


Here is my story:


From a Google cache (search "Cloise Orand"):

Violent Crime Victim Turns Life Around

Cloise Orand is a business owner and now has written a novel.
By TRAVIS BAKER, tbaker@kitsapsun.com
October 9, 2005

Port Orchard -- Youthful Port Orchard businessman Cloise Orand doesn't remember the hours he spent on the operating table in 1987, being sewn back together as one of three victims of one of Kitsap County's most grisly crimes.

For that matter, he doesn't remember being found by police and medical rescuers, near death in a clearing near Dickey Road in Central Kitsap where he and two girls had been brutalized by Daniel Yates, a Bremerton tattoo artist now serving a 60-year sentence in an out-of-state prison for the attacks.

Orand's tongue nearly had been cut out and his cheeks slit outward from the corners of his mouth. He'd been shot once in the back and sexually assaulted.

He was 13, a runaway who had been living in vacant houses he and the two girls — also runaways — would break into. One girl died two months later of injuries suffered that day. The other's throat was slashed, but like Orand, she survived.

Orand, now 31 and the owner of four businesses, says the attack is "something I actually left back then and never really dwelled on."

Yet he recreates the violent Sept. 17, 1987, attack in nearly exact detail in a science fiction novel he has written and hopes to have made into a movie.

His main character, Mabus, the unfairly vilified Antichrist, is about his age and shares many of Orand's life experiences. But in the novel, he is the only victim of the brutal attack. The girls aren't mentioned.

Called "The Antichrist, Version 666," the novel is due out soon, at $24.95 a copy.

Orand was an unlikely candidate to be a business success or an author in his younger days.

Even after being nearly murdered by the man who picked up him and the girls up hitchhiking, he went back to the life of a runaway. He also resumed his Navy Yard City paper route for this newspaper as something of an inadvertent celebrity.

"The tips were good after that," he said. "I'd start with a bag of papers and come home with a bag of presents."

He made prosecutors nervous as a key witness in a murder trial because his whereabouts were never certain.

But he did testify, with the same detachment with which he still tells the story, detailing the atrocities committed against him matter-of-factly.

As an adult, Orand became a valued worker in the rough-and-tumble world of roofing but still lived life on the ragged edge.

In the midst of a custody battle with the mother of his two oldest children, "I was going out a lot, clubs and what not," he said. "Despite a decent income, it was spent before I got my check, I was in serious debt, using marijuana and alcohol.

"I had a box of comics and sleeping bag to my name, I was living on friends' couches.

"About eight years ago, I realized I was good at making poor choices. When my mind tells me I want to do it, it's probably the wrong choice and if it required discipline and integrity, that's probably the path I should take. So rather than blaming everybody else for my outcome, it was time I started making better choices."

He and Mike Holbrook left the Hanley Construction roofing crew and formed their own business, later adding Tom Cowan as an owner. Orand says he also has formed two property management firms to handle rentals as well as Port Orchard Publishing, which is publishing "The Antichrist, Version 666."

His wife, Michelle, played a key role in his reclamation, giving him reason to stay home and out of clubs, he said.

"She was a bit of a challenge to court," he said.

Until recently, Orand had become something of an absentee owner of Cloise and Mike Construction, which mostly does roofing jobs. Its bright yellow trucks are a fixture in downtown Port Orchard.

He was spending most of his days at home with Michelle, baby Savannah, 3-year-old Alexander, and, on weekends and in the summer, 11-year-old twins Stefan and Christopher. He watched a lot of the Discovery and Science channels, spent time online and read science magazines.

But the Mike in Cloise and Mike left the company Friday to start his own business, Orand said, so he's back at it full time.
 Quoting: The Antichrist 666

antiom
Here is where I look back.
Here is where you fell.
This is where I got up,
Shaking off my tail
This is where your rope trick
Started to look stale.
A greyhound pass for the boy in the well.

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12/24/2012 08:11 PM
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Grow a garden and eat as well as you can, get some probiotics and fermented food into ya. Hang in there buddy, change can and will always occur :-)
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12/24/2012 08:14 PM
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Nothing can help you until you start to see things in a different perspective.

I'm not into organised religion...so i'll be coming from a different perspective.


The drugs will only make things worse..they mask the problem.
It's happenning on a grand scale throughout society.

Read one of my threads and see if there is anything that resonates with you.

If you need more... i'll help you.


Thread: it's becoming widespread...depression and the breaking down of there day to day lives....why?
 Quoting: mysterynomore


^^^^talk to this person.

hf
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12/24/2012 08:16 PM
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If your family is as messed up as you say......then you have LEARNED wrong ways of thinking , feeling and responding.

These old tapes well memorized and taken interanally are playing over and over in your life right on cue like little programs. sometimes they run in the forground but most of the time they run in the background.

It takes much CONSCIOUS effort to first stop yourself at the point why these old programs begin to play and recognize them that they ARE playing on auto.

You then must turn off the program by realizing that you must NOT do as the program instructs.

It is hard to delete these old program of ways of believing and behaving but it can be done.

Remove yourself from any person or place that you begin to realize initiates an old program until you can delete it.

You are not operating on your own design but by old programs and they are way outdated.

Create your own new life by deleting the past.

You cannot go forward in the future when you live in the past programs.

Much love and understanding. Had to do this myself.

It is tough but it can be done.

Re-invent yourself by what ever means and make it YOUR OWN DESIGN.

Blessings to you this Christmas that this will be your new beginning.

Put aside all of the past and remember.....

that.........

any new beginning is some other beginnings END.

Best wishes
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12/24/2012 08:16 PM

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i have felt the same way my friend . 2 lil words can help . learn to say fuck it . cant pay the bills fuck it girl run off fuck it and so on . it really helps to just say fuck it and move on . ps and i hate to say it but girls are like buses another will come in a few .
yes my spelling sux get over it and move on i did.
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12/24/2012 08:24 PM
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Hi OP, my prayers are with you. God calls His people in many different ways. You know that He has a plan for you, the problem is that you think you don't know what it is. You do! Most of the time, it is just too difficult to comprehend, or possibly not what you had in mind. Following God is no easy task, my friend. You seem to have certain 'gifts' given to you, ie compassion and a propensity for helping others, no matter what. This is a great gift you have been blessed with, and not using it for the glory of God, is what is bringing you down. In the Gospels, Matthew, Mark, Luke and John all those who followed Jesus, left everything behind. This seems to be your position at this time. Have you thought of serving God by joining the priesthood, a seminary, a monastic order or something similar. God is calling and you need to answer Him. You know what He wants of you. Go in peace. Be strong!

hf
I know!
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12/24/2012 08:36 PM
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Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever?
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First lets say .....stop, take a deep breath. I read you tried to take your life several times, your still here for a reason. God has a plan for you. Take this as a positive. Life is all about challenge some harder then others. If you feel you really need a more component doctor, one that can really help you , please look one up if you need to talk to someone, message me on you tube.Skysearcher2011. Good Luck and never give up . Life is a blessing
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12/24/2012 08:44 PM
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I just want to say to all the people expressing a kind heart on this tread tonight not because you have to but because you have a heart.... Thank you and have a very Merry Christmas with your families <3
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12/24/2012 08:53 PM
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"10% of all you earn is yours to keep." That from a book called The Richest Man In Babylon. It refers to the fact that if you give it all away you have nothing left to give.

Get your health in order. Eat right. "You have a right to be here and, whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt, the universe is unfolding as it should." That from Deiderata by Max Ehrman.

Never give anything away that causes you distress. Stress is fine, it helps you grow, but distress is a process that weakens you. You need to know the difference.

One of the greatest things I have learned, being one who gives readily, is that if you haven't got it you haven't got it to give. Also, the less you have the less you can provide, therefore making you less valuable to your social surroundings.

Hope this helps.
 Quoting: wabishkaeyabe 13126479


Good advice from wabishkaeyabe.

I wouldn't advise anyone in a fragile mental state to seek advice here no more than I would advise using a ouija board. Demons can pitch up.

The I-Ching is a great source of objective wisdom, and in asking only "in the light of what understanding may I set out to accomplish my aims most effectively?" One invokes no penalty or curse. That I do believe.

It sounds to me as if you have already accomplished a great deal, despite difficult circumstances, and you are still with us, surviving and getting by. So I would urge you to take pride in, and reflect on, and build on all your successes.

There is also a very kindly old guy who delivers great commentaries on the Bhagavad Gita, which can be found on youtube. Look for a kindly-looking old American monk. I'm sure you'll know the one I mean.
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12/24/2012 09:00 PM
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hey OP

Im in the same boat as you,


I lost my girl, quit my job, prob looks like I will be kicked out of school



so I feel for ya man, I too have a depressing feeling about my future,

my family thinks im a loser, they think Ive lost my mind talking about these "conspiracies"


but really, what i say is to all that....?

WHATEVER!

ill struggle, I'll suffer, but I KNOW in the end I WILL SURVIVE



somewhere I've heard that:

"freedom is a another word for nothin left to lose..."


just think, be glad life has gotten this sour, cause it means the youll really be able to appreciate the sweet...

1 love from miles & miles away,

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