Former Cincinnati Reds player Ryan Freel reportedly commits suicide with self-inflcted shotgun blast

he wanted to go out with a bang I guess.

he did it correct he just took his own life .No other innocent were killed by his actions.

Or at least somebody made it look that way.

Painful all around. My dear brother committed suicide on January 6, 2011. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think/wish, what I could have done to prevent this.

My thoughts and prayers are with Ryan's family, because this is something that haunts you forever. It's not like a illness or accident, which is horrible in itself, it is a selfish act.

At least my brother had the decency to shoot himself in a hotel room and not at home with his kids around, not that it matters.

In August of this year, he came to me in a dream and said "I never meant it to be permanent." Well I knew that, but it still doesn't comfort his 14 & 9 year old children or any of us who loved him so much.

His wife asked him for a divorce and admitted she was having an affair. Trying to stay positive, but she can take her greedy a$$ an rot in hell. I might be with her for saying that :)

He was one of my favorite players when he played. So much hustle...

I'm sorry for your loss.

Prayers and tears are going out to Ryan Freel's family.

Hopefully, not many of you have the experience of Police Officers, Clergy and Homicide Detectives coming to your home at one time to relay, pray and question you.

His poor wife, kids and family will never have another Merry Christmas with this event at a time we should all be happy and celebrating.

God Bless his family and especially his children who will grow up without a Father and now have a high risk of committing suicide themselves (horrible). When one experiences the trauma of suicide, in their heads they think this is the cure all for all life's problems.

Sorry for such a doom post, but I am approaching the two year mark and still attend Survivors of Suicide meetings.

God Bless and Merry Christmas.