Quoting: pi Quoting: Enjoy Candy!
Hmm? Exactly which aspect was the "corrupting" influence? Quoting: pi
I realized that I am the nobody and that I have a mission, a purpose to share what I know. That my views are the truth and that those that don't follow them must be convinced, that they must join me as they are suffering otherwise and I am their savior.
I felt egocentric, I felt full of ambition and narcissistic.
Only thing that has changed is that I do not feel superior to anyone, nor do I think I know 'the better way'. I try to be humble and occupy myself with art and actions so that there is no room in my mind for unnecessary thoughts, ill thought, egocentric thoughts. I try to think less.
There are people who just shine this aura of positiveness. One of them completely changed my life and he did not have to say much, it was more his presence, his purity and humbleness that inspired me. I do consider him to be my mentor.
I believe that you generate inner light by becoming purer in thought and action. Then you just live your life and shine. The people around you will gaze in your warmth and without talking about anything they will light up just from one spark of your radiance and carry some of your light further, fueling it to burn even stronger.
Everyone is like a torch that just has to be lit. And I do not think it is possible like this, with threads and throwing ideas around. But it might do something, I do not know, I am experimenting and after a while I will find out if this was the right choice and maybe learn something from this experience that will help my development.
Fall in love with doing not the result and your spark will slowly turn into wildfire engulfing the world. Maybe not in your lifetime, but the nobody idea made me think about MY lifetime, that I will get to see the results and taste the fruits. It made me think about me, when actually what you need is to not think at all.
You do need to think a little bit...
and intuition does not equal a shortcut in thought...
One day I felt a little bit envious about Chinese and their language. I realized that with only 3 symbols, 3 sounds they can express a complex concept fully and be understood. While the translation to English was a long, crippled, hard to interpret sentence.
I thought to myself ''wow, so they can think faster as they can define and comprehend complex ideas and concepts faster, with less effort and time invested in writing, thinking and formulating than the rest of the world that would struggle a lot longer to accomplish the same thing.''
Xue er shi xi zhi, bu yi yue hu?
"To learn and to practise what is learned time and again is pleasure, is it not?"
You see how the English version is longer? And it could have been interpreted in many, many ways.
Then I realized that even the Chinese language is very slow compared to the communication with the use of music theory, music. This might be fully comprehensible to someone who is very involved with music and studying it for some time. But anyone will agree that only the first few notes can set a tone, give you a certain feeling or inspire you to a certain action, mind set. Not to mention the complexity of the idea and impact of the whole piece altogether.
As I am studying music and other languages, it becomes more clear that music is just another language.
the speed at which great musician can think in this language is just mind blowing. Literally - it would probably blow up an untrained mind if forced in there. It is an insanely fast and fluent way of comprehending and expressing ideas, emotions. doesn't help to give instructions on how to hammer in a nail, but very fast still.
So this got me thinking.... that thinking in concepts and using words to define them is just so slow and limited.
Imagine that all your thoughts, ideas, concepts are pieces of a colorful rope neatly sorted, put in boxes and stored on an endless shelf. Not to mention the time you spent cutting up the string, but the time spent on sorting and storing - wow, what an effort. Then to formulate something more complex you have to spend even more time to stitch the rope back together just so you could look at it and judge the outcome.
When we meditate we do not completely lose our thought, they just flow freely like the uncut colorful rope. You just let it slip through you hands and you take in what you have seen. It is not cut up in words, sentences, concepts or ideas. I know people have the ability to communicate without words, by holding the same rope when it flows through their hands. I have experienced this a few time very clearly.
This might have been used in the past or be used in future, or neither. But this way exists. Therefore I try to spend as much time in a half-meditative state with this free flow of thoughts, uncut rope. Oh, the wonders and ideas that is has brought me.
Sorry for the long post, I only wanted to say this as I have not met many people that would listen to this.