In need of a miracle...

nice picture

Thanks, dude.

Holidays are like that for me as well. I'm only 24 but I feel like I've seen enough. At least you have your children...That's the only thing I have to look forward to but really seeing the people in this world along with their agendas I doubt I could find anyone, especially someone I can stand. Sometimes life is way too real.

Thanks tho.

for you Indigo

Thank you for the energy...sending blessings your way too. You will get through this. Everything for a reason. You left for a reason...have a good night :)

Too bad we're not closer, I'd pop in and make you feel better. ;-`)

Why do you think you couldn't keep him?

Sad, but true. Everyone's down for a little of the ol' in out, in out. Another reason why I'm sick of everyone and everything. Like a fuck is going to save the world and all the villainous people in it. Maybe I'm just cranky, but just observations, pay no attention.

Do silly stuff with your kids. Fun stuff.

It always makes me feel better. Them too.

I could've. I left him 10 months ago. He tried for the past 10 months and I finally decided to listen to what he had to say 2 weeks or so ago. By then, he had just met some other girl. Says he wants me back but doesn't want to hurt her because she didn't leave him, I did.

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Thank you :). :hf::hf:

I've been doing everything that I can, really. I'm at a loss right now.

Well, looks like you identified your problem then...problem solved, right?

Have been...feel like a horrible person though because I'm not as cheery as they'd like me to be.

Sending healing energy and prayers your way, OP.

Remember the reasons why you got out of the relationship. You say no one died, but the end of any loving relationship is like a death, even if you were the one to walk away. Mourn it, don't avoid those feelings. Own them, feel them, and let them and the relationship go. I feel only then can you really move on with the business of making your life happy again in your way!

LOL. My problem is that I shouldn't feel this way because I left him...but I do.

Sending you positive thoughts.

I understand more than you can imagine. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to message me.

Thank you. Awesome advice :). It is hard when he is telling me he is letting me go because I hurt him, but then hours later telling me how he loves me and is just afraid of being hurt. I told him to stop contacting me and he emailed me saying "she isn't you...I miss you...why do I have to lose you...". So I told him to tell her, it isn't fair not to. Well, he did, she bawled and he got mad at me for "making" him tell her.

Thanks so much, I think I'll do that :).

That's life. What should be felt or done generally isn't but what isn't felt or done usually should be. Relate it to anything.

Welcome to the past 4 years of my life.

Yep, that is true.

Sorry to hear that :(

If there are some miracles left over, I would also like one.

I'll do my best to send one your way as well.

Thanks.
I think sending miracles to one another is the best working method to make them real.
Wishing well one another.

There was a reason he was not right for 10 months. Did he win you iver or are you just settling now bc of the hoidays and wishing you were with someone?

Is he worth the miracle?

Life can be overwhelming sometimes, vent all you want, get it out, cry a little. You seem like a strong woman, you'll pick yourself up in no time and be better then ever.

I know it's cliche but things really do happen for a reason sometimes, you'll get your miracle.

I really hope you feel better soon...the holidays don't help either in my opinion.



Last Edited by geminilion on 12/29/2012 09:38 PM

Well, I thought the kids and I needed a break and I was afraid to go back to the same hell. Over that 10 months, I've seen a lot of the problems that we have had get resolved or we have learned to handle them better. The holidays are a huge problem. Especially since I've been raising his daughter since she was 6 months (she is 5 1/2 and has no mom), and this was our first Christmas not together. So, instead of waking up with my 3 kids like she always has, she woke up with just him.