No he doesn't want to do it. But when you get pushed to the point of suicide then get told to wait for 7 months after giving up everything and waiting patiently for years to full fill something you learned when you were a child you tend to get tired of being a puppet. Especially seeing as God himself is pushing Him as far as can be pushed to test his faith. What he needs is a fucking reason to suffer for the fools and the cattle. The world has given him nothing and taken all that he has attained. He said fuck it. The best part is he was here and he even tried to help the blind but was buried by the wolves who lead the lambs.