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01/05/2013 11:50 PM
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For as long as I can remember, I've never really completely connected to any one thing. I had those current emotions at the time which felt right, never giving myself completely.Quoting: OutlawSeeker
I've only had one true connection with a person but that's in the past now. My mask is shown to everyone, even my family. I'm not sure exactly why, but what they see is not who I am.
It does cause a burden at times to think that there are people out there making connections with everything and anyone, and no matter how much Im involved with something, there is always this part of me that is disconnected to what is going on. since I have awakened I have great amounts of fear as to what this life I was supposed live in entails. Ever since I strayed from the programming and the Veil of Lies this feeling has increased. Maybe it has to do with my own lack of potential that I have experienced in the past and the loss of motivation I feel as the years have increased. I used to have dreams of me being able to fly...now I don't even have those. Just disconnected, its probably why I crave for the unknown and find the absolute truth.
Have you felt disconnected or feel disconnected to this sad world we inhabit?
I don't feel disconnected from my family, but I definitely feel disconnected with everyone (well except for one person) at my work. I have a really hard time faking small talk, I don't like being forced to socialize with people, and that's how it is at my work. The more they try to force, the more I step back. I just feel like I'm not at all on the same wavelength as the people I work with.
I think a lot of the people who you THINK are connected, maybe really aren't? If people aren't really being who they are, then all of those "connections" are based on what? Something that's not even real. I'd rather have very few connections that were based on who I really am and who the other person really is than a bunch of fake, superficial connections.