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Gateway to open the heart, ignite the true flame, connecting it to the mind... If it resonates

 
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OP, you have explained "self" with so much beauty that I am in awe.

There is a place in Colorado (Estes Park - right on the river) - when I think about that place, I feel my pulse slow, my blood pressure drop, and experience unparalleled peace.

Your writing gives me the same amazing feeling. It takes a very special kind of heart - a rare and near impossible kind of innate beauty - to be able to have that effect on people.

This is the most beautiful thread I've come across in all my years here at GLP.

Thank you so so much for sharing, and I encourage you to continue this thread with your writings . I would love to read more of your poetry. It has a profound effect on me.
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Would love to see that place by the river you describe...
Have never been in Colorado (come from Denmark have just moved to Canada)...
But I know that with mountains and that river, it would just be like home for me...

Am happy that you let yourself be touched by the words, and that you let your own inner beauty be reflected in the mirrors of the poem...

Well, don't think I can help myself so I'll keep on writing here as long as anyone find anything of resonance in it...
Started here in february I guess with writing, like stepping out of the shadows, bc before that I was always kinda working with the energies behind the surface, but a strong urge to share and to share with all who wants to read it brought me here...
In the last months I think I have even written one a day (almost lol) so if you like it there is plenty...

Thanks for your kind and loving words, is always deeply inspiring to meet someone who finds something of herself in the poems...
Lots of love and gratitude to you
And a big smile
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[link to www.flipkey.com]

Go flip through the gallery. Pictures do it no justice but it will give you an idea.

Please do continue to write. I love it
Here is where I look back.
Here is where you fell.
This is where I got up,
Shaking off my tail
This is where your rope trick
Started to look stale.
A greyhound pass for the boy in the well.

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yeah? well, today i got fined 300 dollars, that i dont have, had my child support money, for a son i dont get to see, robbed right in front of my eyes... cant pay rent or utilities, in between jobs, only family is a grandfather who just had two seizures today and is in the hospital. he will die unless they can put a tube in his throat, which he refuses to have done. stubborn bastard.

and to mention i have nobody to call my own, live alone, sleep alone, do everything alone... the only woman in my life is a beautiful pregnant woman whom isnt single and merely talks to me because i treat her decent, better than her fiancee who hasnt touched her in months and cheats on her with a stripper. soon she will drop me as if i never existed, because women are cold and fucking heartless... obviously, she has a second life with me, shares more with me, but tells him he loves him, not i, but he is treated worse.

am i suppose to be happy, too? i'll probably be in jail in the next few weeks.

but, whatever, right... as long as you are all happy my existence won't bother you and you can just say "oh, best of wishes hope everything turns out."


mm, happy, yes.
but, because of my over bearing run on and pretentious message im just a whiny little bitch who most likely deserves the continuous downfall of negativity -- misfortune i had hoped would end with 2012.

nope. i wouldn't say im happy, but im not sad, either. i want to cry... i want to cry so bad... i want to be sad... i want to feel, even...


but theres nothing. and wont be evermore. to feel is to be human, to be human is need to be loved. i am and have neither.

happy? yes... because i feel neither, and the tears fall without any emotion.

I hate my ex fiance. it took a long time getting over her and the pain of seeing her with another man within days of the break up. it took immense strength knowing another man was in my boys life during the custody battle.


well, i do love my boy with all my heart. it took seven months to stop crying myself to sleep each night.
a few more to block out thinking of him constantly... smiling... doing things for the first time...

i made a choice for my happiness.

to become like a stone and live,
or to drone in on this wretched misery, this heap of distasteful things called my life... ruminate on it to the point that i vomit myself to my own needed demise.


happy? absofuckinglutely.
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[link to www.flipkey.com]

Go flip through the gallery. Pictures do it no justice but it will give you an idea.

Please do continue to write. I love it
 Quoting: Only Me


Wow, that is so beautiful, would be happy to go there one fine day...

I will continue to write that is a promise...
If electricity and internet breaks down, I'll still write, I'll just make a message in a bottle for you :o)

rose
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OP, you have explained "self" with so much beauty that I am in awe.

There is a place in Colorado (Estes Park - right on the river) - when I think about that place, I feel my pulse slow, my blood pressure drop, and experience unparalleled peace.

Your writing gives me the same amazing feeling. It takes a very special kind of heart - a rare and near impossible kind of innate beauty - to be able to have that effect on people.

This is the most beautiful thread I've come across in all my years here at GLP.

Thank you so so much for sharing, and I encourage you to continue this thread with your writings . I would love to read more of your poetry. It has a profound effect on me.
:ommiracle:
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"... Might be fun to try out, and the results of it could lead to interesting results... There is a way to talk that is narural with the harmonies of all"
Funny how that works...;)
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OP, you have explained "self" with so much beauty that I am in awe.

There is a place in Colorado (Estes Park - right on the river) - when I think about that place, I feel my pulse slow, my blood pressure drop, and experience unparalleled peace.

Your writing gives me the same amazing feeling. It takes a very special kind of heart - a rare and near impossible kind of innate beauty - to be able to have that effect on people.

This is the most beautiful thread I've come across in all my years here at GLP.

Thank you so so much for sharing, and I encourage you to continue this thread with your writings . I would love to read more of your poetry. It has a profound effect on me.
:ommiracle:
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"... Might be fun to try out, and the results of it could lead to interesting results... There is a way to talk that is narural with the harmonies of all"
Beautiful results.
Funny how that works...;)
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yeah? well, today i got fined 300 dollars, that i dont have, had my child support money, for a son i dont get to see, robbed right in front of my eyes... cant pay rent or utilities, in between jobs, only family is a grandfather who just had two seizures today and is in the hospital. he will die unless they can put a tube in his throat, which he refuses to have done. stubborn bastard.

and to mention i have nobody to call my own, live alone, sleep alone, do everything alone... the only woman in my life is a beautiful pregnant woman whom isnt single and merely talks to me because i treat her decent, better than her fiancee who hasnt touched her in months and cheats on her with a stripper. soon she will drop me as if i never existed, because women are cold and fucking heartless... obviously, she has a second life with me, shares more with me, but tells him he loves him, not i, but he is treated worse.

am i suppose to be happy, too? i'll probably be in jail in the next few weeks.

but, whatever, right... as long as you are all happy my existence won't bother you and you can just say "oh, best of wishes hope everything turns out."


mm, happy, yes.
but, because of my over bearing run on and pretentious message im just a whiny little bitch who most likely deserves the continuous downfall of negativity -- misfortune i had hoped would end with 2012.

nope. i wouldn't say im happy, but im not sad, either. i want to cry... i want to cry so bad... i want to be sad... i want to feel, even...


but theres nothing. and wont be evermore. to feel is to be human, to be human is need to be loved. i am and have neither.

happy? yes... because i feel neither, and the tears fall without any emotion.

I hate my ex fiance. it took a long time getting over her and the pain of seeing her with another man within days of the break up. it took immense strength knowing another man was in my boys life during the custody battle.


well, i do love my boy with all my heart. it took seven months to stop crying myself to sleep each night.
a few more to block out thinking of him constantly... smiling... doing things for the first time...

i made a choice for my happiness.

to become like a stone and live,
or to drone in on this wretched misery, this heap of distasteful things called my life... ruminate on it to the point that i vomit myself to my own needed demise.


happy? absofuckinglutely.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 31060997


Thanks for sharing this, my friend (if I may call you that)
I know life can be tough to the bone, that life can take anything from us, and claim even more...
As if every drop of love and joy have been sucked out and this life still craves...
There are no easy solution, and I am sorry for that...
The only way is through it all...
If you read my threads, they are far from just positive, some days can be like dying inside, some days are just so confusion and the world doesn't make any sense... Not any sense at all...
Still... Still my friend, even how screwed up this world may be, with its confusion, its games and its hopelessness, still we have a choice...
We might not have so much we can change in the world, yet one thing we can touch...
That one thing is our own heart and soul, the way we perceive it all...
That's not just something that changes by the snap of a finger...
It takes the true intention, to go through and to see on our lives, honestly and deep...
See where we pull ourselves into hopelessness and where we cut through...
That way we can start to realize patterns and to dissolve them...
Sharing is also a good thing, it was very brave of you to share here like this, it takes courage, and that is something...
I believe in you, have faith in that you can do it...
If you live nearby we can meet for a beer and talk, bc the written word is easily misunderstood...
But know this, I care for you, and of my heart I hope you find a way through...
No not just a way through, I hope you find THE way through, your way, the path that holds a heart for you, that makes sense...
You deserve to be loved, to feel that love, to feel being a part, bc you are, and you matter, you matter deeply, and everyone who says anything else is deluded and full of crap...
You just have to find yourself, find your inner strength and honor, go from there...
Feel welcome to write here again or at my email (laffoe@gmail.com)
Lots of love and a big hug for you, my friend
Truth and Love...
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OP, you have explained "self" with so much beauty that I am in awe.

There is a place in Colorado (Estes Park - right on the river) - when I think about that place, I feel my pulse slow, my blood pressure drop, and experience unparalleled peace.

Your writing gives me the same amazing feeling. It takes a very special kind of heart - a rare and near impossible kind of innate beauty - to be able to have that effect on people.

This is the most beautiful thread I've come across in all my years here at GLP.

Thank you so so much for sharing, and I encourage you to continue this thread with your writings . I would love to read more of your poetry. It has a profound effect on me.
ommiracle
 Quoting: Only Me


"... Might be fun to try out, and the results of it could lead to interesting results... There is a way to talk that is narural with the harmonies of all"
Beautiful results.
Funny how that works...;)
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hugs

yes ;o)
Truth and Love...
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I found myself, who I am. Did you OP?
Faithful and Truth
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Faith to me is having left the sanctuaries of men and their theology, and to come out from among them that dance around a golden calf, by the making of their own hands, entrusting completely and without reserve to God within.
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I found myself, who I am. Did you OP?
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Yes, even it is still an ongoing process
Happy to hear, my friend
I think we know eachother very well, from 'the other side' too
hugs
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Newheart
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perhaps it was you I saw :)
Faithful and Truth
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Faith to me is having left the sanctuaries of men and their theology, and to come out from among them that dance around a golden calf, by the making of their own hands, entrusting completely and without reserve to God within.
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perhaps it was you I saw :)
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When? :)
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perhaps it was you I saw :)
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When? :)
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She saw "el" or a jesus archetype in her dream. No not making that up. K-el could explain it. Slightly ironic
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perhaps it was you I saw :)
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When? :)
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She saw "el" or a jesus archetype in her dream. No not making that up. K-el could explain it. Slightly ironic
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Hmmmmmm well for now I think what matter is to get as many as possible awakened, more than who we actually are...

Those flames of the heart to burn, so that all can begin to hear Father and Mother inside for real...
It can be done...
It's a matter of trust/faith, intention and the choice to make ones heart be touched by one of those who can actually lit that flame for real...
When enough are awakened, the balance will be tipping, towards something real...

rose
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I remember Mom. SHE looked just like me, only perfect.I saw her in heaven, in person and hugged her. She was ancient looking, with a long white and bluish glistening gown.

My heart was ignited on Jan.15th,2012 in the early morning. He called it intimation, a inner marriage. I felt His Spirit enter me.
Faithful and Truth
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Faith to me is having left the sanctuaries of men and their theology, and to come out from among them that dance around a golden calf, by the making of their own hands, entrusting completely and without reserve to God within.
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I remember Mom. SHE looked just like me, only perfect.I saw her in heaven, in person and hugged her. She was ancient looking, with a long white and bluish glistening gown.

My heart was ignited on Jan.15th,2012 in the early morning. He called it intimation, a inner marriage. I felt His Spirit enter me.
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Thanks for sharing that, it is so beautiful
I could feel the words vibrate throughout me in a strange way
Know you to be speaking the truth, my friend
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i feel bad for saying such mean things and envying your happiness.

the poem spoke nothing but truth to me... it is everything i look for in life, the words in that poem.

everything i spoke is truth, but you are right as the written word can be misunderstood.

it may sound inflated, but it is all true from my eyes, only tinkered to the taste of my prose.

im 23. the ex is a good mother, (terrible lover) and i wouldnt be a good father, as i was raised without.

my mother passed away unexpectedly last year and my ex left me for some co worker about two weeks later... (two days before my mom unexpectedly passed i broke it off cuz i came home to find two friends of mine alone with her, doing what i believe was coke... my boy right there in the room so i petitioned for custody the next morning prior to the death)

going through court for the custody battle was so rough and she was the only shoulder i had to comfort me that i lost custody of my son... not because i shouldve, but because i was so weak of mind that i was zombielike in making choices... she manipulated me into thinking wed be together so it wouldnt matter who really had custody, especially if we were to marry.

i was in such a slump i hadnt noticed anything of who she was or doing (like moving shit out) the following weeks and one day she was gone and there was a text "I dont ever want to see you again. i dont love you anymore. the only contact will be for chase." words not held by actions. he was born dec 20 2011 btw()

during those days in that empty house, id come home from work each day...i did not prepare food. i did not shower. i did not clean clothes. sometimes i left them on and went straight to bed... there was a small white blanket of chase's that she forgot behind. for those months it was the only thing that helped me get through those nights. i held it in my arms and cried my face into it to sleep every night. i was even so low that i cried when it lost the smell of my boy and took on the smell of a worthless mans sweat and tears. im not sure if i cried from the death of the only woman to ever care for me, or for the loss of my beautiful baby boy, the only person that helped me cope with the loss of my mother by bringing me joy. a boy i now was not raising... not a father... a mere visitor who was not even permitted that... who didnt get to see him at all. it was so dark.... and thinking of those months haunt me. i would sleep until fifteen minutes of having to be at work everyday. always 8 minutes late. it was so hard waking up... so hard... my eyelids were never so heavy. got up, keys, name tag, car. work..forever.. so slow... cold.. so blue those days, people interacted with, all so solemn... fake smiles. people ask how you are, knowing it means nothing. end work. swipe out. gas. home... repeat for months.
i spoke to nobody. nobody was there. anywhere. i dont think i remember anyway even if there was a there? i couldnt afford anything. not even a stone for my mother.
a few weeks after she passed was mothers day, and i didnt want to even see her grave. but i knew i had to... being poor and a worthless man i bought cheap flowers and a cross and the humiliation of standing in line with tears that you just cant hold back, even with a straight face and talking as smooth as i could, not trying at all to make a scene or anything...but only making it worse cuz knowing i have to buy flowers for my mothers grave not to give to her and take her to dinner.... and then after the grave going to the empty and cold house she died in, to fall asleep in my tears... in my arms the most important item in my entire life at the time. i believe the only thing that kept me alive.

i remember one day a new bar and grill opened and i went to eat. an old friend from high school a waitress... she asked me how things were, and i merely said "trying to be a father" i told her the mother left me for another man, and am only at her discretion to see him. and yes i do pay support...

there was a lady sitting next to me... not eavesdropping but politely listening the whole time and after those few quick sentences she looked and said, lightly "oh my... are you okay?" in response i said "perfectly fine, doesnt bother me at all" with a smile.

that is the most compassionate that another human has been toward me. i immediately paid and left the bar.

there is so much more and at this point im done. i dont know why ive gone this far. i dont know if this is real even. but... these words are the only existing reflection of my life in my eyes that anyone will ever see or know of.

i miss you so much, mom... and im sorry that im not... anything at all.

i love you, chase... and i am so ashamed as your father that i hope you never have to know me and that you are so much more than i ever was.
for such an excellent child i would only poison you..

im sorry. that last few sentences was extremely difficult for me to type and took awhile.

i dont know what i have written and i will not go back and read. i know theres a lot, and a lot will not make sense as i left a lot out... more to save it from redundancy... but there is so much more...

yet these words mean nothing and this content is the reflection of the hurt of a man that struggles with the pain of the reality that he is truly meaningless and fights an urge of wanting to feel ... meaningful.

regardless, that first poat i wrote is the most anger or feeling of upset display i have shown toward anyone... strangers on the internet who wouldnt be offended by a nobodys words.


im sorry i wrote this. i know everything i just wrote is boring and probably... pretentious, sulking, self pity... and everyone wants to read anything better...

its just so.... dark... and cold... and its all so awful to live i see no point in emotions anymore. im not mad my friends rob me. who am i? i dont care another girl walks away. im just a zombie now.


where am i again? =(
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i feel bad for saying such mean things and envying your happiness.

the poem spoke nothing but truth to me... it is everything i look for in life, the words in that poem.

everything i spoke is truth, but you are right as the written word can be misunderstood.

it may sound inflated, but it is all true from my eyes, only tinkered to the taste of my prose.

im 23. the ex is a good mother, (terrible lover) and i wouldnt be a good father, as i was raised without.

my mother passed away unexpectedly last year and my ex left me for some co worker about two weeks later... (two days before my mom unexpectedly passed i broke it off cuz i came home to find two friends of mine alone with her, doing what i believe was coke... my boy right there in the room so i petitioned for custody the next morning prior to the death)

going through court for the custody battle was so rough and she was the only shoulder i had to comfort me that i lost custody of my son... not because i shouldve, but because i was so weak of mind that i was zombielike in making choices... she manipulated me into thinking wed be together so it wouldnt matter who really had custody, especially if we were to marry.

i was in such a slump i hadnt noticed anything of who she was or doing (like moving shit out) the following weeks and one day she was gone and there was a text "I dont ever want to see you again. i dont love you anymore. the only contact will be for chase." words not held by actions. he was born dec 20 2011 btw()

during those days in that empty house, id come home from work each day...i did not prepare food. i did not shower. i did not clean clothes. sometimes i left them on and went straight to bed... there was a small white blanket of chase's that she forgot behind. for those months it was the only thing that helped me get through those nights. i held it in my arms and cried my face into it to sleep every night. i was even so low that i cried when it lost the smell of my boy and took on the smell of a worthless mans sweat and tears. im not sure if i cried from the death of the only woman to ever care for me, or for the loss of my beautiful baby boy, the only person that helped me cope with the loss of my mother by bringing me joy. a boy i now was not raising... not a father... a mere visitor who was not even permitted that... who didnt get to see him at all. it was so dark.... and thinking of those months haunt me. i would sleep until fifteen minutes of having to be at work everyday. always 8 minutes late. it was so hard waking up... so hard... my eyelids were never so heavy. got up, keys, name tag, car. work..forever.. so slow... cold.. so blue those days, people interacted with, all so solemn... fake smiles. people ask how you are, knowing it means nothing. end work. swipe out. gas. home... repeat for months.
i spoke to nobody. nobody was there. anywhere. i dont think i remember anyway even if there was a there? i couldnt afford anything. not even a stone for my mother.
a few weeks after she passed was mothers day, and i didnt want to even see her grave. but i knew i had to... being poor and a worthless man i bought cheap flowers and a cross and the humiliation of standing in line with tears that you just cant hold back, even with a straight face and talking as smooth as i could, not trying at all to make a scene or anything...but only making it worse cuz knowing i have to buy flowers for my mothers grave not to give to her and take her to dinner.... and then after the grave going to the empty and cold house she died in, to fall asleep in my tears... in my arms the most important item in my entire life at the time. i believe the only thing that kept me alive.

i remember one day a new bar and grill opened and i went to eat. an old friend from high school a waitress... she asked me how things were, and i merely said "trying to be a father" i told her the mother left me for another man, and am only at her discretion to see him. and yes i do pay support...

there was a lady sitting next to me... not eavesdropping but politely listening the whole time and after those few quick sentences she looked and said, lightly "oh my... are you okay?" in response i said "perfectly fine, doesnt bother me at all" with a smile.

that is the most compassionate that another human has been toward me. i immediately paid and left the bar.

there is so much more and at this point im done. i dont know why ive gone this far. i dont know if this is real even. but... these words are the only existing reflection of my life in my eyes that anyone will ever see or know of.

i miss you so much, mom... and im sorry that im not... anything at all.

i love you, chase... and i am so ashamed as your father that i hope you never have to know me and that you are so much more than i ever was.
for such an excellent child i would only poison you..

im sorry. that last few sentences was extremely difficult for me to type and took awhile.

i dont know what i have written and i will not go back and read. i know theres a lot, and a lot will not make sense as i left a lot out... more to save it from redundancy... but there is so much more...

yet these words mean nothing and this content is the reflection of the hurt of a man that struggles with the pain of the reality that he is truly meaningless and fights an urge of wanting to feel ... meaningful.

regardless, that first poat i wrote is the most anger or feeling of upset display i have shown toward anyone... strangers on the internet who wouldnt be offended by a nobodys words.


im sorry i wrote this. i know everything i just wrote is boring and probably... pretentious, sulking, self pity... and everyone wants to read anything better...

its just so.... dark... and cold... and its all so awful to live i see no point in emotions anymore. im not mad my friends rob me. who am i? i dont care another girl walks away. im just a zombie now.


where am i again? =(
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There is nothing boring about what you write, my friend
When I read this post, I cried with you and for you...
You know what, we are more alike than you think...
When I read your words, I feel so deep emotion, so deep passion...
A love so deep, for your mother, for your son...
Your words are real, in a world that hold so much illusion...
Your feelings touch me through the screen...
This world needs hearts like yours, don't ever think that you are worthless...
The love you have shown your mother means a lot more than all the worlds most expensive flowers... That is just empty, what is in your heart is real... You are real...
This world is not easy for a heart like yours, you don't fit into the system, you feel to deeply, you bleed too much...
You long so deeply for something that makes sense, something that is real...
I'd so wish I could give you a hug right now...
You so deserve to be loved and to be cared for...
What have happened and what has not, it is there, inside, yet try to wrap you out of it, this moment...
First of all, forgive yourself, you judge yourself as worthless, hopeless and so on... Please let that go...
If you open your heart here and now, I will from my heart send you all my love to you, so you may feel loved, and remember, that love you feel, it lives inside you, burns inside you...
Every word written here by you testifies of deep compassion and emotion...
That is a gift, you just need to use it, to love yourself as well...
I have many times in my life been at the edge on taking my life, bc I had just enough of this world, it seemed like only pain and suffering... Nothing made sense and nothing resonated with what I felt inside of my heart...
Yet somehow, like you, I managed to stay, step by step, and some days still are very painfull, but now I always tries to make sense out of that pain, use it to go deeper, to understand better...
And to share...
And when I share these things, many who reads it cries too, bc it is a story of us all, a story of you and me, about broken hearts and pain, and a story of still holding on, and insisting...
Insisting on being you, on being loved and that you matter...
Bc you do, you do matter...
So please open your heart, and I will help you with that pain, and help you lit that fire in your heart, that already burns... It just needs to be released from your judgement and hate for yourself...
Let go of that, and feel loved... Please


After that. perhaps read this one:
Thread: From the edge of suicide to life again. Hold on!

And please stay in touch
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OP, you have explained "self" with so much beauty that I am in awe.

There is a place in Colorado (Estes Park - right on the river) - when I think about that place, I feel my pulse slow, my blood pressure drop, and experience unparalleled peace.

Your writing gives me the same amazing feeling. It takes a very special kind of heart - a rare and near impossible kind of innate beauty - to be able to have that effect on people.

This is the most beautiful thread I've come across in all my years here at GLP.

Thank you so so much for sharing, and I encourage you to continue this thread with your writings . I would love to read more of your poetry. It has a profound effect on me.
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Would love to see that place by the river you describe...
Have never been in Colorado (come from Denmark have just moved to Canada)...
But I know that with mountains and that river, it would just be like home for me...

Am happy that you let yourself be touched by the words, and that you let your own inner beauty be reflected in the mirrors of the poem...

Well, don't think I can help myself so I'll keep on writing here as long as anyone find anything of resonance in it...
Started here in february I guess with writing, like stepping out of the shadows, bc before that I was always kinda working with the energies behind the surface, but a strong urge to share and to share with all who wants to read it brought me here...
In the last months I think I have even written one a day (almost lol) so if you like it there is plenty...

Thanks for your kind and loving words, is always deeply inspiring to meet someone who finds something of herself in the poems...
Lots of love and gratitude to you
And a big smile
:o)

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Thanks for this...Wonderful hf

You just moved to Canada?? Wow...Love or business?

Funny...I used to live in Canada myself...

Much love and wellness to you on your journey my friend...

Med Venlig Hilsen,

The one you call "Morgana Le Fey" hehehe
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You are amazing! I love you. smile_hear
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Together we are even more amazing
We can make this world a loving one
Of sense, joy and laughter
Love and light
Our will and brave hearts are needed
Step by step
Heartbeat by heartbeat
The path opens before our feet as we go
The path which holds the heart

All good to you sweet friend, love and lots of blessings
rose
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Beautifully put, kaere hjerte. blwkss
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OP, you have explained "self" with so much beauty that I am in awe.

There is a place in Colorado (Estes Park - right on the river) - when I think about that place, I feel my pulse slow, my blood pressure drop, and experience unparalleled peace.

Your writing gives me the same amazing feeling. It takes a very special kind of heart - a rare and near impossible kind of innate beauty - to be able to have that effect on people.

This is the most beautiful thread I've come across in all my years here at GLP.

Thank you so so much for sharing, and I encourage you to continue this thread with your writings . I would love to read more of your poetry. It has a profound effect on me.
ommiracle
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Would love to see that place by the river you describe...
Have never been in Colorado (come from Denmark have just moved to Canada)...
But I know that with mountains and that river, it would just be like home for me...

Am happy that you let yourself be touched by the words, and that you let your own inner beauty be reflected in the mirrors of the poem...

Well, don't think I can help myself so I'll keep on writing here as long as anyone find anything of resonance in it...
Started here in february I guess with writing, like stepping out of the shadows, bc before that I was always kinda working with the energies behind the surface, but a strong urge to share and to share with all who wants to read it brought me here...
In the last months I think I have even written one a day (almost lol) so if you like it there is plenty...

Thanks for your kind and loving words, is always deeply inspiring to meet someone who finds something of herself in the poems...
Lots of love and gratitude to you
And a big smile
:o)

rose
 Quoting: 141


Thanks for this...Wonderful hf

You just moved to Canada?? Wow...Love or business?

Funny...I used to live in Canada myself...

Much love and wellness to you on your journey my friend...

Med Venlig Hilsen,

The one you call "Morgana Le Fey" hehehe
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Hey my Lady, nice to see you
:o)
Well I came here for love, seem to always be what drives me
Sometimes it shines so brightly
Other times I crash and burn
Yet have no option but to follow my heart, to flow with
When it breaks, I just hit the ground, bleed, learn and share....
People are really nice and friendly here in Canada, which I appreciate deeply...
Thanks for being here with your love and inspiration my friend
Your heart bleeds too and you share so beautifully...
I have enjoyed your songs many times since we spoke the last time...
You know of what you singing...
Love joy and blessings to you on your journey, my sweet friend...



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You are amazing! I love you. smile_hear
Knus.
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Together we are even more amazing
We can make this world a loving one
Of sense, joy and laughter
Love and light
Our will and brave hearts are needed
Step by step
Heartbeat by heartbeat
The path opens before our feet as we go
The path which holds the heart

All good to you sweet friend, love and lots of blessings
rose
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Beautifully put, kaere hjerte. blwkss
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Thanks dear, of all my heart love to you
rose
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yoda
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luke
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Indeed. Let your light shine.

much love

hf
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Indeed. Let your light shine.

much love

hf
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lol indeed you too my friend
Much love to you

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There is a place in Colorado (Estes Park - right on the river) - when I think about that place, I feel my pulse slow, my blood pressure drop, and experience unparalleled peace.
 Quoting: Only Me


^^ for me as well. Upon the summit of Long's Peak also.

16 years now since I've been, the time I'll go back I wonder when... :')
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Go flip through the gallery. Pictures do it no justice but it will give you an idea.

Please do continue to write. I love it
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Wow, that is so beautiful, would be happy to go there one fine day...

I will continue to write that is a promise...
If electricity and internet breaks down, I'll still write, I'll just make a message in a bottle for you :o)

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Interestingly enough, I just made a message in a bottle pendant a few days ago and I'm wearing it right now! Hmmmmm......you write. I'll keep reading. Apparently, I'm supposed to see this :-)
Here is where I look back.
Here is where you fell.
This is where I got up,
Shaking off my tail
This is where your rope trick
Started to look stale.
A greyhound pass for the boy in the well.

Only Me
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There is a place in Colorado (Estes Park - right on the river) - when I think about that place, I feel my pulse slow, my blood pressure drop, and experience unparalleled peace.
 Quoting: Only Me


^^ for me as well. Upon the summit of Long's Peak also.

16 years now since I've been, the time I'll go back I wonder when... :')
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I haven't been in 12 years. I'll go back as soon as I can :-)
Here is where I look back.
Here is where you fell.
This is where I got up,
Shaking off my tail
This is where your rope trick
Started to look stale.
A greyhound pass for the boy in the well.

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There is a place in Colorado (Estes Park - right on the river) - when I think about that place, I feel my pulse slow, my blood pressure drop, and experience unparalleled peace.
 Quoting: Only Me


^^ for me as well. Upon the summit of Long's Peak also.

16 years now since I've been, the time I'll go back I wonder when... :')
 Quoting: Deaf Cat in the Blue Hat


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