I seen god during my shroom trips and figured out LIFE and its many answers.

Basically its a series of trips that I had on shrooms that were really scary. It felt like 3 separate dreams on 3 different days that all share a roll with each other. Actually the first one was from acid and the other 2 were from shrooms.

Trip 1: 2 hits of high grade LSD..... Took one hit of lsd (my very first time taking it) and after 20 minutes I said this crap sux and put the other one in my mouth.. 20 more minutes the effects kicked in, I seen kaleidoscopes of shapes and colors blasting into the cosmos and everything around me started to morph and breathe, expand and sink into everything. The visuals were astounding and beautiful. Then I went into this guys house I barely knew, knocked on the door and he let me in. He had this bowl full of good bud that he let me hit. I hit it a few times and anxiety started to kick in. I started to think about my life and how much it sucked and how people thought about me. I started feeling depressed and alone, like nobody liked me. That everyone is fake..

I then was told that I was in purgatory but Im not sure if it was the guy, or me just hallucinating. I said I accept that, and just watched the visuals get more intense and then I got scared and thought the effects would never wear off. I lost my ego. Ego death is the scariest feeling any human being can experience. I then thought he was the devil and that doing the lsd put me in hell, I seen spiders come from the walls, and the carpet kept moving and there were skulls and bones moving all around. I was extremely scared and he i was being told that my time was up and its time to pay for my sins and that I wasnt saved. That Jesus comes like a thief in the night, when we least expect it. So the scary part was thinking that my soul left my body, that I was MEANT to do the drug because God knows ALL, like your path was pre-determined so he can reveal himself whenever he wants and that this was all apart of my pre-determined path. I was mad because I wanted more time but I had no one to blame but myself because of my FREE WILL, my choices that led me up to wanting to try LSD and thats the consequences. Playing skyrim all day, worshipping false idols, loving death metal and rock, not living FOR JESUS, but FOR MAN, but that trip got worse because I began to fight this guy and ran out and got arrested. But anyway, off to the second tip.

2nd Trip with 2.5 grams of mushrooms: Ate the shrooms and went to another guys house and smoked some bud, but his girlfriend poured me a glass of juice and I didnt really want it...at that point in time. I started to feel like she really wanted me to drink that juice, and that I didnt like it or something.. Like im an asshole if I dont drink it..which is weird because I didnt think like she was trying to poison me...which would give someone more anxiety.. that thought never came across my mind. The TV had this commercial which I cant really remember but the people on the commercial seemed to be communicating with me.. not directly; but more or less like they were demons that the symbolism was that I spent alot of my life caring about appearance, like wanting to live the movie life, where everything works out, all fun and games, and even if things get bad it all works out in the end.. Then I ran outside and I felt like I was in another planet.. Then I was in hell again.. I kept saying... "No No! Jesus! No! I will not do shrooms again, and i was being told that drugs arent the answer, that its all in the Bible, that I was being being led down the wrong path, which it really FELT like that during judgment day we will KNOW our destination, even before our judgment starts, so I bet some people will be afraid to face god and just jump right into the lake of fire knowing that they werent WITH god, but they were doing evil works... and following that path.. There is more to that trip but I dont really wanna talk about it.

The third trip was with 3.3 grams of shrooms, an even higher dose that I grounded up in a coffee grinder and drank down with some OJ.. Everything seemed cool at first but I had no Idea what I wanted to do, every song I put on gave me a bad feeling, even though I love those bands and whatnot. I then tried to watch youtube videos but I didnt know which one I wanted to watch. Then I kept having a wormhole mind loop where I kept thinking about the same things in a sequence that I was finally able to break free of. Until I seen the christmas presents on the other side of the room, all wrapped up and nice.. No, they werent for me, they were for my kids but I went BACK TO HELL before they could even open them. Uggh im gonna shorten this up by getting to my main point


My main point is that it seemed like maybe God was getting to me through my drug usage, it seemed so real what I was being put through. Its almost like HEAVEN AND HELL ARE STATES OF MIND and once YOU die Your heart directs your soul. Like, God is infinite and God made man in HIS image, maybe that literally means that GOD is US! Well, a part of us. He is IN US, and we are IN HIM, and this universe..

The DEVIL is real and TRIES to deceive us 24/7. He knows his time is short because 5000 years is SHORT compared to 99999999999999999 years (infinity) so hes trying to drag as many souls down as possible. People THINK there is nothing left but maybe our great great great great ancestors had 100% brain capacity and was able to comprehend what WE CANNOT today, and while he was deceiving us we were just getting more and more dumbed down and that 100% went down to 90%, down to 80%, etc.. We are the output and we think there are people who are so smart but this world is rapidly getting worse... So who was smarter? Maybe we think people are smarter because of how advanced technology is. Technology leads to destruction because it keeps your mind, body, and spirit entangled in this "unholy trinity". I felt for a few days that ONLY EYE exist and everything else around me is literally a test to see how I would react to it, or more simply, what I would do in that situation. And I use this saying "Where you're going is where you're at" so if YOU think your life sucks, its because you put yourself RIGHT WHERE YOUR AT! Im not saying its fair, or its right or whatever, but even a girl that gets kidnapped still made choices in her life to put her in the wrong place at the wrong time.. Otherwords, do right from the start. Its about the root on the problems.. You cant blame anyone but yourself. No matter what. Even if your boyfriend throws you out of the car while its moving, you went inside the car willingly. And even if its unwillingly, the step prior to that was most likely willingly, and almost always is stil la choice that goes against Gods teachings. Like choosing to go to that party on the weekend where you think nothing bad will happen. It wasn't a party FOR and about the God, but socializing, getting drunk/high, and trying to get some pu$$y..

TO be even more straight forward, follow all 10 commandments and don't bit off more then you can chew.... in life and even at the dinner table.. Your future will be alot cleaner... safer... Mo' Money, Mo' Problems! Right? Ask me a question. Test me!!!!!