What the Fuck just happened?

You need friends.

you are in the early stages of a psychotic break with reality I would try Risperdal before it gets completely out of hand

Op's doing just fine .

:cruiselarge:

check your hormons!!! you might be horny

You're stroking out.

Hairy Mormons?

A bit weird OP, but not really.

[link to biologyofkundalini.com]

Last Edited by pi on 01/12/2013 12:40 AM

You gained a level. Grats.

OP here--Well my first post to this site...wonderful.

@ Friends dude: I have a multitude of friends and lovers. Some of them are complete weirdos and some are, um, normal, for lack of a better word. This is not loneliness or isolation. I'm just not partying at the moment because its too cold to be out. A friend was over when this happened.

@ Risperdal dude: Anybody who was actually qualified enough to diagnose a "psychotic" break (care to elaborate on that extremely vague term, professor?) and prescribe a drug for it would not do it for an anonymous poster who posted one thing on a forum. Sheesh. If you want to push risperdal put an ad on the site. This stuff has been happening to me for as long as I can remember. I've never once acted out "psychotically" so I believe the correct term or whatever is "eccentric"

Fuck you buddy, Risperdal is a neurotoxin.

Yeah fuck those guys. Try something along the lines of "awakening".

Here's this in case you missed it.

[link to biologyofkundalini.com]

biology of kundalini is a fucking awesome site. I've researched this stuff before, I guess I was just trying to ask about others experiences with similar things, really.

The energy is God. Some people are feeling the connection we have with the energy we physically cannot see with our eyes. The eyes can be deceiving therefore since we cannot see the energy many will say people like you are making it up. Others will say it is evil spirits but they do not grasp the fact that energy is from our creator and it all serves a purpose at this time. Do you work with energy? The ear problem happens to me. I feel like that is the sound of silence. When all hearing leaves at once. Vibration makes sound so either the energy has a completely different vibration than we understand or it has no vibration at all. Good luck on your journey. Life is getting exciting.

Peace

Well... people talk about it lots on this site.

But the threads are generally very long.

That "Biology" site is your best bet.

I suppose you are right. I've come across this site a couple times and it is pretty chaotically organized. I just decided to post this here because it seemed like people would know what I was talking about off the bat, but come to think of it theres probably at least a thousand similar threads. Thanks for reminding me of Biology of Kundalini that site really is straight gold.

What you are describing with the paranoia, the belief you are somehow blessed with special powers, thing are shutting down around you to prevent you from getting your sacred message out are the early signs of a delusional psychotic break with reality and I recommended Risperdal because it was the only thing that knocked me out of it. You don't have to take it for very long it's extremely powerful but it might stop you from hurting yourself or others in the months ahead. Good luck.

Sanity is for the Weak.

Sounds like some common signs of premature awakening.
The Warp has You

This happens to every other human being on the planet, on a regular basis. You are not experiencing a magical, mystical event.

OP, you should go get an MRI.

Risperdal is a strong neurotoxin... danger danger...

had two similar incidents today. Incidentally one while I was emailing on keyboard.
I said to family something big is going to happen because it only happens before bad earth quakes or solar flares.

WELCOME TO magical thinking 101..and yes..your beyond risperdol..ITS GEODON TIME!

I am forced to observe 123. This is the only number I notice. Any form of it possible is seen. I have this feeling it is connected to everything. I dont know what.

I need a friend also =(

That's a joke right?

Well now that I see you are speaking from your own experience this seems more valid. I get where you are coming from, but as someone who really sees this from more of an occult (cant think of another term atm) perspective than a pharmacological one, I can't help but be more interested in this than scared of it. But the "crazy-factor" of it definitely can't be ignored. I have a good friend who seems to have some kind of ailment that strongly resembles some kind of episodic schizophrenia. When she is not having a break, so to speak, she's an amazing person to be around, as well as brave, funny, brilliant and a great artist.

But seeing somebody who's not just out-there, or "weird" or into mystic stuff but actually having a schizophrenic breakdown is horrible, and I speak from that experience. Its not the same thing, I can see how people would assume that it is, but it really isn't. I think it was Alan Watts (not sure) who said, "The Mystic swims in the same ocean that the Psychotic drowns in." or something to that effect. If you think you are god, but nobody else is, you're crazy. But if you think you are god, and everyone else also is, you're a Buddhist. And so on and so forth.

I'm not so much trying to defend myself as "not crazy!" as I am just trying to clear things up really as there is so much confusion on this topic just about everywhere you go. I dont think that anyone who exhibits this type of thinking should be thrown in a loony bin. If there is no real inquiry into this subject, there will be no further advances in psychology and many people who really aren't crazy will be treated unjustly and certainly be driven crazy. I've certainly made the assumption that I was going crazy at times, but isnt a characteristic feature of being crazy, not being able to know that you are crazy?

I haven't been to a pill pusher, because none of this has caused a problem warranting that kind of action, and honestly, its hard to find a psychiatrist that actually knows what they're doing. My own research into mental disorders has shown that while these types of things are a symptom, they have become in no way debilitating and I do not have enough of any other class of symptom for this to actually be considered something major. yet. anyway.

Things aren't really shutting down around me to prevent me from spreading any kind of real "special message." If anything, in the real world, they are doing the opposite, and my "special message" isn't anything that hasn't been said before and isnt being said by others now. If I do have some kind of special powers, they are not something that makes me unique as any other human being most likely has them too, even if they are not developed. What I meant in the framework of this post, is that whenever I would go to an occult board on the internet to inquire into the symbolism involved in certain visions,dreams, or synchronistic experiences, and type these things out, there would be some kind of glitch and I would lose all that I had written.

I am certainly not going to hurt anyone else or myself. Honestly I've managed to talk someone experiencing an actual psychotic break out of doing this before. I've experienced a true "delusion" in the clinical sense of the word before and came to a realization about them. I know how amazingly clear and convincing they seem even when they make little actual rational sense (though they do give the "illusion" that they do) A delusion is the subconscious managing to break through into the realm of the conscious mind. While there is certainly more force in the subconscious mind, it is generally hidden. The conscious mind speaks through language and reason, while the subconscious speaks through myth, symbol, and archetype. When the subconscious mind impinges on the conscious world through the experiencing of a delusion in a state of psychoses ( non-waking consciousness impinging on the waking world) everything gets blown to the wrong proportions, but if it can be interpreted correctly, it makes actual sense. Heres (a somewhat crude) Example- A delusion that somebody you know is satan and you have to save yourself from their grasp by killing them....wait a minute, this is the language of the subconscious speaking at the wrong time. After all, you aren't dreaming, you're awake, and you'll fuck your shit up if you mix those too worlds up in the wrong way. The message is something along the lines of, this person is a bad influence, for lack of a better term, they are doing you harm in some way and you are seeing this in its archetypical form as a demonic force. You dont actually go and kill this person. You kill this person's influence on you, shut them down, cut off contact, etc. Problem solved. You just have to shut down the deluded aspect and get the actual message of it all. Its all symbolism. All the time. Everything is a symbol, thats how the mind works.

I certainly do believe a lot of things that are generally not accepted as real are in fact real. I have put them to the test and determined them as valid.They exist in another plane of reality that overlaps ours, and impinges, if perception is attuned.

Shamanism is the only system that can heal schizophrenia.

This probably comes across as a vague ramble. I have too many thoughts on and experiences with the subject to be particularly concise about this, without the effort it would take to write a thesis or something of that nature.

Interesting, as we are in opposite hemispheres, maybe enforcing the "bigness" of the hypothetical event. I guess we'll see if this is connected to something of that nature.

Looking into medical causes, it does sound something like some kind of Simple Partial Seizure. Weird as I've never had what was actually bad enough to be diagnosed as a seizure, and there is no history of epilepsy in my family. I wonder what the connection is.

An interesting link--- (doesn't exactly match up with ear tones, as it wasn't the same article that I read earlier) but interesting nonetheless--

[link to www.epilepsy.com]

I have the ear ringers/tones. They almost ALWAYS come when the sun is gonna explode. I've noticed this in the past 3 years and when I get the "ringer," IT'S ON!

That being said, 3 days ago I got a shooting thru my left ear, into my right. The best way I can describe it is when I was in basic training and got 5 pressure air shots from the gun into my arm. Well imagine that in my left ear that traveled thru my head thru the right ear.

I have no doubt the sun will explode. I'm sensitive to it and always have been. So there, now you know WTF just happened. YOU ARE SENSITIVE TOO!

Well written and and interesting read op thanks for sharing!

GET YOUR HOUSE BLESSED!