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Message Subject 3 Spheres, 6 Sides, 9 Points
Poster Handle Anonymous Coward
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Not getting your exact meaning. I think intellectually, I am getting bored. No, I think that is the wrong word. Not sure if you were going here, but it is what's on my mind.

I am beginning to desire to be lost in some of my old experiences again. Not really in a way of re-experiencing them, but wanting to go further, and I have stopped having them so often. I had/have been relying on drinking and sex and occasional smoke, etc to ground me, but it has been over 2 years now. But, to try and juggle experiences like I had with present life would just be incredibly difficult to assimilate again as the grounding would not be as easily attainable.

I am in a rut.

Everything old has yet to pop in as new again to me. Except for the ripples created here on GLP and some other minor places.

I'm use to change, I guess. My entire life has constantly been in flux. Until recently. My insatiable appetite tells me always, there has got to be more. I know there is, but this daily life is sucking up all time and energy, and I am left with my vices instead of my furthering.
 Quoting: Septenary Man

very well said, thank you.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 8131760

That's coming from deep inside, lol. Sometimes it's good to 'talk out loud'. It helps me define things like 'my rut'.
 Quoting: Septenary Man

it is brutal, man, i know what you mean. keep asking those....keep having that conversation (w/yourself)
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 8131760

You know, it used to be brutal. I have learned patience, which has profoundly changed me, the way I accept things like being in a rut. It has made me content in a way, learning the power of patience.
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