OP.....you assume your deeds are good, and the only things you can remember is all you have done. Consider you may have been a dick in heaven where all this peace you want existed. One day you stole peoples things and killed a man. God sent you here to experience the stupidity you engaged in but hid the truth from you that this is what you wanted when you were there. Now when you die and realize what a prick you were maybe you'll behave from now on.