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I go to bed at night and dont want to wake up
I don't mean to be cause for alarm.

I just have this deep emotional pain.

That which makes me ache. I have constant anxiety. I feel the weight of the world in my heart and soul. It's no longer depression as much as it is a longing for a better time.

You see ill get down to the details.

Every day I wake up to a blinding sun, always before the alarm. To the morning guidance of either work or maintenance of material goods, neither of which feel right to me. I step on the same floor. Shower in the same bathroom with the same cleaning supplies. Put on the same clothes. Eat the same bland food. Brush my teeth with the same poison, the same brush. Lock the same door. Start the same, miraculously still working car. Drive to the extent of 3 miles, to and from the same box. Sell the same material shit, and get the same treatment of shit. Make the same terrible pay, or less. Go home and eat. Feel the pain of another day... Repeat.

Now i know glp isn't the place to go for a pity party. That's not what I'm getting at.

Thing is I'm a 20 year old American and this life I'm sure is similar to many of you.

I had it all going for me. An honors diploma, scholarship to a good school, independence, and many more years.

Then I started to live. To actually live. I took up cannabis and it helped me to realize that we are living a play. That even though we may call others sheep and ourselves awake, we are all being suppressed.

I had a massive explosion of self discovery rarely even found in those twice my age. I started to see how docile everything and everyone was becoming.

I started to think about how much we could do but dont. How I'm working a job to hold up a shitty corporation, even though pay is falling with quality of living and they treat me like trash. How the school I was attending was a brainwashing ponzy scheme to get a "degree." A literal label for yourself to do, what else, join the workforce. How tv, facebook, texting not talking, hate, ignorance, greed, compliance... Its what everyone is used to, and we do NOTHING about it.

They say vote. Yeah, bullshit nice try. Why vote? I'm too stupid to know about politics, right? And its a number game in the guise of a popularity contest, which should be bad enough. After all the media seems to comfortably know the outcome of everything. Ill just let them make the decisions.

That's how people are beginning to think.

My sister said it best:

"Its money. Its the banks. Its a power scheme that worked. The bills are a measure of power. You start at the bottom. To get to the top you have to live a life of deceit. If EVERYONE woke up to this... If EVERYONE marched on the capitals of the world and burned these bills and got rid of the idea of power, we could live. That's when humanity truly becomes free again."

Couldn't agree more.

Now ill go to sleep and continue this madness. But I feel as if even god is telling me its time. I can feel it in every bit of my energy. I've been put here for a reason, even if its just for my soul to endure hell.

Night yall!
Those who extended a hand when I most needed:

Nickadeemus, Bluebird, ItSeesThroughEyes, Rev StarGazer, darkwolf007, Rickster58, ar-15 nut, Chrewman, beeches, ceawaves, Shackles, ANHEDONIC, Shoot straight Johnny, Useless Cookie Eater, Hq okc, AR 15-SPECIALIST, Psi Guy, InTheHood, Abi, Paved in Chaos, sacred energy, AnonymousGirl, Nine's, Dice84, Simple27, justanothergranny, WitchHazel, jdb, Bearwalk9, Geo777, natasha77, TheWayWeWere, curry nosher, homelessguy92, Still Meow..., nah, INK3, Deaf Cat, katharinels, Re_Deek_u_Lus, Dug In and ALL THE AC'S!!!

For every negativity, create two positives!

Karma accepted!

~For wolf and moon


Part of a pack one wolf chose to leave
A life like his dreams this wolf chose to weave

On his own in the dark the wolf could not see
Nobody was telling him what to believe

When he questioned what truly made him free
It was always the moonlight guiding thee

~eyeDR3


The sheep may one day find, there was always a wolf inside.

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Re: I go to bed at night and dont want to wake up
Make sure to wake up though?
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Re: I go to bed at night and dont want to wake up
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I took up cannabis and
....
 Quoting: eyeDR3



This is the source of your problem. The mind altering drugs invite in the demons. Canabis destroys your drive and in fact causes depression, schizophrenia and demon possession. Altered states = witchcraft, which is communion with demons.

That is why the Bible condemns this activity. Your solution is simple. Drop the dope, take up Christ and stop living for yourself. The joy of the Lord is not far behind.
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I would like to add you to my buddy list, and continue this line of thought either within this thread or via p.m.
as I have felt this way since I am a youth as well.


You seem very bright, probably genius I.Q., which is why you do not feel as if you "fit in." You don't. Most people are low I.Q. docile sheep. They don't want anything disrupting their lives- for most American men: football season, basketball, then baseball season. Watch 6 hours tv per day, fast food, maxim magazine, top 40 radio, oogling bimbos.

Women, not much different, just swap out sports for fashion and shopping.


This current American paradigm is ugly and awful, and it will end, and soon.


Be good, brother EyeDR3!
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Mendelssohn: Tarantella Op.102 no.3
Mendelssohn: Venetian Boat Song Op. 19 no. 6 (both from 'Songs Without Words')
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do you get anytime off? what about that? go fly a kite or kill a rabbit? take up a hobby for frak sake!! you are 20 years old! energy? you dont have it? come on!! when i was twenty you could hook up a jumper cable to me and i could power a small city with the energy god gave me! now my energy is reduced to a small shack with a 60 watt light bulb. time heals all and you need time for yourself!! thats the cure and medecine!! seems like all you do is work. weed? well nothing wrong with that but weed opens doors to depression to mostly the indica strain or body high which wears out the joysticks on the xbox and all the food in your fridge!! get up! get out! take time off!! hand in there op!!!rockon
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I took up cannabis and
....
 Quoting: eyeDR3



This is the source of your problem. The mind altering drugs invite in the demons. Canabis destroys your drive and in fact causes depression, schizophrenia and demon possession. Altered states = witchcraft, which is communion with demons.

That is why the Bible condemns this activity. Your solution is simple. Drop the dope, take up Christ and stop living for yourself. The joy of the Lord is not far behind.
 Quoting: SevenThunders


You have NO IDEA what the "bible" says!

You know Hebrew?

Nevermind...

Anyway, the tree of life? Depicted in all ancient cultures, religions, peace offerings...

The plant that we were given BY GOD that daily is proven to treat so many issues and all made up issues about it are being proven false... That's cannabis.

This wasn't a thread about that though, stop digressing.

If all you got from this post was a point that you wanted to criticize, you are part of the problem.

Who are you to tell me what is right for me?

Isn't it YOUR philosophy to follow the word of god?
Those who extended a hand when I most needed:

Nickadeemus, Bluebird, ItSeesThroughEyes, Rev StarGazer, darkwolf007, Rickster58, ar-15 nut, Chrewman, beeches, ceawaves, Shackles, ANHEDONIC, Shoot straight Johnny, Useless Cookie Eater, Hq okc, AR 15-SPECIALIST, Psi Guy, InTheHood, Abi, Paved in Chaos, sacred energy, AnonymousGirl, Nine's, Dice84, Simple27, justanothergranny, WitchHazel, jdb, Bearwalk9, Geo777, natasha77, TheWayWeWere, curry nosher, homelessguy92, Still Meow..., nah, INK3, Deaf Cat, katharinels, Re_Deek_u_Lus, Dug In and ALL THE AC'S!!!

For every negativity, create two positives!

Karma accepted!

~For wolf and moon


Part of a pack one wolf chose to leave
A life like his dreams this wolf chose to weave

On his own in the dark the wolf could not see
Nobody was telling him what to believe

When he questioned what truly made him free
It was always the moonlight guiding thee

~eyeDR3


The sheep may one day find, there was always a wolf inside.

:eyebanner:
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I took up cannabis and
....
 Quoting: eyeDR3



This is the source of your problem. The mind altering drugs invite in the demons. Canabis destroys your drive and in fact causes depression, schizophrenia and demon possession. Altered states = witchcraft, which is communion with demons.

That is why the Bible condemns this activity. Your solution is simple. Drop the dope, take up Christ and stop living for yourself. The joy of the Lord is not far behind.
 Quoting: SevenThunders


Yep.
The things which are impossible with men are possible with God.
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I completely relate to you OP.

Hang in there, because I know, I know.



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"Start giving, and see the JOY in giving"
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Its hard alright you wonder what the hell its all about, stupid ratrace, who would have chosen to come here, what the heck is there to learn, nothing really, just some skill to serve someone who wants to make money, what lessons could you possibly learn by being a slave
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I took up cannabis and
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 Quoting: eyeDR3



This is the source of your problem. The mind altering drugs invite in the demons. Canabis destroys your drive and in fact causes depression, schizophrenia and demon possession. Altered states = witchcraft, which is communion with demons.

That is why the Bible condemns this activity. Your solution is simple. Drop the dope, take up Christ and stop living for yourself. The joy of the Lord is not far behind.
 Quoting: SevenThunders


iamwith

 Quoting: Needles Eye


Fixed.

Now I don't actually mean that. Just trying to show you that you need to tear down that wall of compliance. Life outside of high school means you can be your own person.

Think much harder next time before you are so quick to agree with somebody.

... That all is if you weren't being sarcastic.

Sorry. That too is an emotion that is getting hard to read in our convoluted society.
Those who extended a hand when I most needed:

Nickadeemus, Bluebird, ItSeesThroughEyes, Rev StarGazer, darkwolf007, Rickster58, ar-15 nut, Chrewman, beeches, ceawaves, Shackles, ANHEDONIC, Shoot straight Johnny, Useless Cookie Eater, Hq okc, AR 15-SPECIALIST, Psi Guy, InTheHood, Abi, Paved in Chaos, sacred energy, AnonymousGirl, Nine's, Dice84, Simple27, justanothergranny, WitchHazel, jdb, Bearwalk9, Geo777, natasha77, TheWayWeWere, curry nosher, homelessguy92, Still Meow..., nah, INK3, Deaf Cat, katharinels, Re_Deek_u_Lus, Dug In and ALL THE AC'S!!!

For every negativity, create two positives!

Karma accepted!

~For wolf and moon


Part of a pack one wolf chose to leave
A life like his dreams this wolf chose to weave

On his own in the dark the wolf could not see
Nobody was telling him what to believe

When he questioned what truly made him free
It was always the moonlight guiding thee

~eyeDR3


The sheep may one day find, there was always a wolf inside.

:eyebanner:
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Re: I go to bed at night and dont want to wake up
Me too, I want to check out sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad!

However, I have tried enough times to know I am condemned here for some obscure and really annoying reason.

So yeah, I do hope and crave that deep sleep, never to see this beautiful world again.

My life wasn't ever as privileged as yours, and I feel I was dragged, not brought up, but hey, I am here for a reason, and I am not allowed to leave until whatever I have to see is seen, whatever I have to do is done.

As I write this, I am listening to a song that has been with me since it came out.

I seek sustenance form the words, perhaps it will also console you.

Just remember young padawan, if you want to suicide, it won't work out as you planned, and you are here for a reason too.

Don't lose hope, ever - ever.....

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You wouldn't wake up if u didn't want to wake up ;) addicted to the drama
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OP, I have a son who went through something similar to you, he quit a corporate job and was very depressed for a while and then he started making money on You Tube, so now he doesn't have to leave the house and work around other people, he makes friends easily online but not in "real life"
check out the details on You Tube , all you need to do is make videos of anything, get some subscribers and start making money according to how many views your video gets , maybe a lot of us Glp'rs could subscribe to get you going !

peace
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OP, man, I feel ya.

You got two things absolutely right, and they are two of the most important things you'll ever learn.

1.) It's all one big scam.

2.) Ours is a self-defeating system that, by allowing the greediest and most selfish to attain the most power, guarantees that the most powerful will be greedy and selfish.

Simply put, our system is made to be exploited.

There are only exploiters and the exploited. And because good people do not want to exploit others, positions of power are devoid of good people and therefore the system continues.
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Dont listen to the religious idiots they are in a cult and dont know it. Find your strength inside because god is inside you is part of you, try and spend time out in nature by the seaside at parks watching the birds simple things sit on a park bench and throw down some bread watch the birds accept your gifts
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Me too, I want to check out sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad!

However, I have tried enough times to know I am condemned here for some obscure and really annoying reason.

So yeah, I do hope and crave that deep sleep, never to see this beautiful world again.

My life wasn't ever as privileged as yours, and I feel I was dragged, not brought up, but hey, I am here for a reason, and I am not allowed to leave until whatever I have to see is seen, whatever I have to do is done.

As I write this, I am listening to a song that has been with me since it came out.

I seek sustenance form the words, perhaps it will also console you.

Just remember young padawan, if you want to suicide, it won't work out as you planned, and you are here for a reason too.

Don't lose hope, ever - ever.....


 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 32807398


Suicide isn't an option. I believe the emotion tied to it keeps you grounded and your soul becomes even more damaged, where you will be reborn in an even more challenging-to-complete life.

I'm here to stay. Just absorbing a lot of raw emotion and having a hard time continuing in this lifestyle.

I am being pulled away.

The next step in my life is to just LIVE. To LEAVE. To LEARN.

I've discovered so much in ONE year thinking for myself I cannot fathom 5, 10 or 50 more years.

zzzz
Those who extended a hand when I most needed:

Nickadeemus, Bluebird, ItSeesThroughEyes, Rev StarGazer, darkwolf007, Rickster58, ar-15 nut, Chrewman, beeches, ceawaves, Shackles, ANHEDONIC, Shoot straight Johnny, Useless Cookie Eater, Hq okc, AR 15-SPECIALIST, Psi Guy, InTheHood, Abi, Paved in Chaos, sacred energy, AnonymousGirl, Nine's, Dice84, Simple27, justanothergranny, WitchHazel, jdb, Bearwalk9, Geo777, natasha77, TheWayWeWere, curry nosher, homelessguy92, Still Meow..., nah, INK3, Deaf Cat, katharinels, Re_Deek_u_Lus, Dug In and ALL THE AC'S!!!

For every negativity, create two positives!

Karma accepted!

~For wolf and moon


Part of a pack one wolf chose to leave
A life like his dreams this wolf chose to weave

On his own in the dark the wolf could not see
Nobody was telling him what to believe

When he questioned what truly made him free
It was always the moonlight guiding thee

~eyeDR3


The sheep may one day find, there was always a wolf inside.

:eyebanner:
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Me too, I want to check out sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad!

However, I have tried enough times to know I am condemned here for some obscure and really annoying reason.

So yeah, I do hope and crave that deep sleep, never to see this beautiful world again.

My life wasn't ever as privileged as yours, and I feel I was dragged, not brought up, but hey, I am here for a reason, and I am not allowed to leave until whatever I have to see is seen, whatever I have to do is done.

As I write this, I am listening to a song that has been with me since it came out.

I seek sustenance form the words, perhaps it will also console you.

Just remember young padawan, if you want to suicide, it won't work out as you planned, and you are here for a reason too.

Don't lose hope, ever - ever.....


 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 32807398


Suicide isn't an option. I believe the emotion tied to it keeps you grounded and your soul becomes even more damaged, where you will be reborn in an even more challenging-to-complete life.

I'm here to stay. Just absorbing a lot of raw emotion and having a hard time continuing in this lifestyle.

I am being pulled away.

The next step in my life is to just LIVE. To LEAVE. To LEARN.

I've discovered so much in ONE year thinking for myself I cannot fathom 5, 10 or 50 more years.

zzzz
 Quoting: eyeDR3


Don't worry little baby, you have come to the right place, you can unravel the knot in your mind through laughter, and other beautiful souls.

We don;t want to lose any more Aarons, glp is here for you to sound off and make friends.

I won;t try it again, as I am not allowed, they keep pushing me back here and telling me to stay, but not why I have to.

I know I will miss this Earthy when I am gone, and I will one day seek my soulmates and we will have a party in the sky.

If this world will not allow me to be, then so be it, but in the next world I will be gathering one.....million....souls, to help me come back here and create the world I envisoned, I hoped for and I helped.
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Basically how I feel. Haha.

Hardest part will be telling my family, I'm leaving that is.
Those who extended a hand when I most needed:

Nickadeemus, Bluebird, ItSeesThroughEyes, Rev StarGazer, darkwolf007, Rickster58, ar-15 nut, Chrewman, beeches, ceawaves, Shackles, ANHEDONIC, Shoot straight Johnny, Useless Cookie Eater, Hq okc, AR 15-SPECIALIST, Psi Guy, InTheHood, Abi, Paved in Chaos, sacred energy, AnonymousGirl, Nine's, Dice84, Simple27, justanothergranny, WitchHazel, jdb, Bearwalk9, Geo777, natasha77, TheWayWeWere, curry nosher, homelessguy92, Still Meow..., nah, INK3, Deaf Cat, katharinels, Re_Deek_u_Lus, Dug In and ALL THE AC'S!!!

For every negativity, create two positives!

Karma accepted!

~For wolf and moon


Part of a pack one wolf chose to leave
A life like his dreams this wolf chose to weave

On his own in the dark the wolf could not see
Nobody was telling him what to believe

When he questioned what truly made him free
It was always the moonlight guiding thee

~eyeDR3


The sheep may one day find, there was always a wolf inside.

:eyebanner:
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OP, I have a son who went through something similar to you, he quit a corporate job and was very depressed for a while and then he started making money on You Tube, so now he doesn't have to leave the house and work around other people, he makes friends easily online but not in "real life"
check out the details on You Tube , all you need to do is make videos of anything, get some subscribers and start making money according to how many views your video gets , maybe a lot of us Glp'rs could subscribe to get you going !

peace
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Is that you Mommy? lols

I am the same, minus the income.
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Thread: The secret of life according to an Objibwe Elder

"Just hang in there."
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Good luck OP. Find something to love, and make it happen.
I love canoeing and camping.
Knowing that if i work enough over Winter that I can canoe the Summer away keeps me going.

Find something to look forward to. ;-`)

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Oh OP, one more thing...

There's a third very important thing you're figuring out now.

3.) There are many others just like you who feel the same way. They keep us from organizing by convincing us that we're each completely alone.
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it's a mad world,the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had....the song helps me feel,not the only one
church of euthanasia.
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have just left my paranormal photos on,as I,m leaving soon.some you have to see whole picture,as clipped.
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Basically how I feel. Haha.

Hardest part will be telling my family, I'm leaving that is.
 Quoting: eyeDR3


Good song, and I feel your angst. Here's a song I think you'll enjoy!!

[link to m.youtube.com]

Not sure how to embed soooooo, :)
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I feel ya as well..... been having depression and anxiety for the last two weeks...... Sometimes I think it's related to quitting smoking but I am really not sure.

I had a similar episode 16 years ago after my daughter was born and I took a year off to help raise her. I took various anti depressants until I finally weaned myself off of them after being hooked for four years and realizing that I was having anxiety about running out!

Keep ya head up and believe me, 40 plus has alot of perspective on 20 plus
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It is koyaanisqatsi, a Hopi word meaning "a state of life that calls for another way of living; world out of balance." Why do I tell you this? Because you are not alone. A lot of people that I know have expressed the same feelings. What's the purpose of anything when you are already bought and sold?

You're 20 years young. Get out of the house, apartment...whatever you live in. Go somewhere, anywhere...museum, library or park. Then find a comfortable place to sit, relax yourself, and just look around...see what, and who, is there. Have dreams, visions, fantasies...whatever keeps the other place at bay, for awhile. Continue to accomplish this.

To balance what is happening to us, we need to find change within ourselves, to create any kind of content in the domain which we find ourselves. It is the spirit inside of us that needs, if not rekindling, at least an extra spark to get it fired back up.

You have many choices ahead of you. Do what YOU want to do. Take your time to decide, then DO IT. Light the spark and it lead you into light.

Don't carry a burden too heavy to be yours. Human Beings aren't designed for that. A purpose will be shown to us all, hopefully soon.

As the Hopi say, 'Open the hole in the top of your head'. Imagine it, ask for spiritual guidance and see what happens.

You take care,

the fish
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Then don't stay the fuck in bed never get out eventually interesting things will happen lol
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Oh OP, one more thing...

There's a third very important thing you're figuring out now.

3.) There are many others just like you who feel the same way. They keep us from organizing by convincing us that we're each completely alone.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 32834780



^^^ THIS ^^^
"Start giving, and see the JOY in giving"
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It is koyaanisqatsi, a Hopi word meaning "a state of life that calls for another way of living; world out of balance." Why do I tell you this? Because you are not alone. A lot of people that I know have expressed the same feelings. What's the purpose of anything when you are already bought and sold?

You're 20 years young. Get out of the house, apartment...whatever you live in. Go somewhere, anywhere...museum, library or park. Then find a comfortable place to sit, relax yourself, and just look around...see what, and who, is there. Have dreams, visions, fantasies...whatever keeps the other place at bay, for awhile. Continue to accomplish this.

To balance what is happening to us, we need to find change within ourselves, to create any kind of content in the domain which we find ourselves. It is the spirit inside of us that needs, if not rekindling, at least an extra spark to get it fired back up.

You have many choices ahead of you. Do what YOU want to do. Take your time to decide, then DO IT. Light the spark and it lead you into light.

Don't carry a burden too heavy to be yours. Human Beings aren't designed for that. A purpose will be shown to us all, hopefully soon.

As the Hopi say, 'Open the hole in the top of your head'. Imagine it, ask for spiritual guidance and see what happens.

You take care,

the fish
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Thank you very much! Great info.

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A life like his dreams this wolf chose to weave

On his own in the dark the wolf could not see
Nobody was telling him what to believe

When he questioned what truly made him free
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I took up cannabis and
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This is the source of your problem. The mind altering drugs invite in the demons. Canabis destroys your drive and in fact causes depression, schizophrenia and demon possession. Altered states = witchcraft, which is communion with demons.

That is why the Bible condemns this activity. Your solution is simple. Drop the dope, take up Christ and stop living for yourself. The joy of the Lord is not far behind.
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You have NO IDEA what the "bible" says!

You know Hebrew?

Nevermind...

Anyway, the tree of life? Depicted in all ancient cultures, religions, peace offerings...

The plant that we were given BY GOD that daily is proven to treat so many issues and all made up issues about it are being proven false... That's cannabis.

This wasn't a thread about that though, stop digressing.

If all you got from this post was a point that you wanted to criticize, you are part of the problem.

Who are you to tell me what is right for me?

Isn't it YOUR philosophy to follow the word of god?
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The bible is in English too.

I can tell you have demons because you became so irritated at the man trying to help you. Marijuana opens doors to demons even if it feels good.

If you ever want peace you know where to find it. Call on Jesus from the heart.
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Hang in there opie,every soul has a purpose.
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Don't try to save or change the world, just change yourself into what you want to be. At least for a start. Now that you've realized that money and status are irrelevant, you're free.

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