i´m sorry to hear that as well,OP.
just be reminded, you are a strong person, you made it all the way up to your 25ths birthday.
now you are realizing what was done to you.
(i don´t like the term "what has happened to you", as this takes away the responsibility from those who did harm you).
you have tough times ahead, but you will get through them as well, and after that, you´ll be a lot stronger.
keep fighting and try to get help from outside;
i am sure there are some organisations you can join for free, self-helping groups, psychologists who can help you with that and whom you can trust.
all the best