Help me. I think I'm suffering from DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder).

Hi OP,
Please do call a womens shelter. Go there. Talk to them. They may even come pick you up. You need help dealing with this. You may later think to yourself you're being silly, you can handle it yourself. Dont let your brain trick you, it will come back later, again and again, if not dealt with. And it helps to talk to someone who has been through it or has been trained to help.
My good thoughts will be with you. You have taken the first step, asking for help here. But please do call.

listen to this, maybe it will help. because she probably has you beat.

Thread: Who wants to hear some Batshit cray???

I'm a man.

I didn't know this was a competition.

calm down. breathe.
don't get hysterical.

DID usually only happens in extremely severe cases of childhood trauma/abuse. i mean, severe.

people who lose grip with reality usually aren't anxious about it or worried about it. this is your sign that you are definitely NOT losing your grip on reality.

you sound scared, confused and upset. not dissociative or psychotic.

being scared and confused is a normal reaction to the situation you describe - and very sane.

so calm down. take some breaths. don't make it into something it isn't by catastrophizing. you are equipped to handle all types of situations, even ones you have never been thru before.

The "locking up" is a common demon symptom I have heard about, so they can take you over for awhile. Remember the guy in the cemetary in the Bible who cut himself, screamed, and no one could stop this? He had a Legion. Jesus cast them all out.

There is one where Larson cast 600 demons out of a lady,
so a Legion wouldn't be too many.

Actually, I don't know how big a Legion is.

But, you need to love and accept Jesus Christ before men of God can help you.

Sorry to hear of your suffering...but I agree with the other poster....seek a therapist where you can talk this all out confidentially and in a safe place....over time this will help you overcome the "all or none" mindset that plauges abuse victims when it comes to trusting anyone again...

I wasn't aware that repeated daily/semi-daily rape, torture and humiliation from birth to 9yrs old done by numerous family members isn't severe. I haven't been anxious or worried about it until now because for all this time I had been locking it away and denying it. I will stay calm though. Thank you for your advice, Salt.

If you tell me I need to love and accept Jesus Christ as if you are assuming I currently don't then I will ban you. That is a very ignorant and insensitive thing to say and I do not need you judging me. Do you work for Bob Larson? You sure like to keep peddling his wears. 600 demons huh? Seems legit.

I definitely will. Thank you.

i would say that is severe. but, what raises a flag for me is that you have memory of it until now and then make a thread on GLP about it, without seeking professional help first. I would say that if I suddenly had a floodgate bust open with memories of this nature, the last thing i would be doing right now would be to create a thread on GLP.

i call BS on this one.

if your parents divorce stopped the abuse why the unsmiley face? seems like that was a great thing. i am so sorry this happened to you.

instead of psychology, i think finding a reputable clergy person who has perhaps some training in psychology would be more helpful. many psychologists / psychiatrists outcomes are deviant....they normalize deviancy. so, like if a person had a homo choosing or opposite gender personality they may encourage that personality just bc it is more vocal or something. idk. God's help is the best help! you are also mentioning ritualistic abuse, so a Godly person would be a good resource for getting you help, i think. jmho though...i am no expert or anything. trust in God though.

You may have another 75 years to heal, or maybe less. You now know the signs of who not to trust, take this experience with you and don't think they didn't love you, they most likely did, but in a way that is not condoned by society. Sexual desires are not easily controlled by some, and it's a very sad reality for humanity. You must leave them and go out into the world, any way you can.

No I don't work for Larson, but he helped me. Sorry

Yep..
:)

Last Edited by CeeLite on 02/07/2013 11:13 PM

Okay wow. I have very few friends or people that I trust. Virtually NOWHERE to turn to. I don't have a car. I don't have health insurance. I was sitting alone, scared, crying in my room having these come back to me. I had known several other contacts from this site who reported having these kinds of memories surface and I figured I could come here for help. I was prepared for shills and naysayers before I even made this thread but from a forum moderator? Really? That is a real slap in the face, honestly. I get trolling and making some funny remarks - throwing a BS flag up for kicks..but when someone is truly at their wits end and has nowhere to go..so they get on a forum (which, is that really so shocking?) yeah..you really caught me red handed..lying on GLP to get a pity party going. If you wanted me to leave you could've just asked nicely.

your name en (did you mean ein?) sof is an interesting choice. are you aware of it's (ein sof) origins and meaning?

I believe you.

I am still here dude.

There must be a safe kind family member you could live with for awhile, Grandma maybe?

Family a bad choice...

dude. you just got done telling everyone on the internet that you suddenly got a flood of memories of you being sexually tortured by your own family from the time you were 9 on a daily basis.

you are at your wits end while sitting at a computer and posting on GLP?

um.......... i don't think so.

what-ev.

attention seeking, but what kind of attention you seek is what's in question.

do something positive with your time.

Too bad it's Thursday, if it was Wednesday I would say run to church and pray. How about Crisis Line? They could give the names of some local pastors to talk with.

you're not DID, more like ODD (opposition defiant disorder) or maybe even conduct disorder.

Like I always tell my kids, "You cannot control what other people do, think or say", you are not responsible for, nor can you control their actions, thoughts or attitudes. You have to take possession on your life. You only get one!

I think that if you talked to people you would find that we ALL have things that happened in our past, even involving relatives, that are absolutely terrible. You have the power to rise above anything that was done to you, and live a life that has purpose. You deserve happiness, and dwelling on the past IS NOT the way to happiness. I am NOT saying to just forget the pain, you need a mourning period for yourself and the time that you lost, as well as the people that you are likely to loose. Even if they hurt you, saying goodbye is painful.

You are very young, just now starting to find yourself. GIve yourself a chance, get away! Even if you have to live in a shelter for a while. Start over!. And always remember that no matter how bad you think YOU have it there is someone out there right now that has it much worse.

Find something to believe in! Start with yourself.

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Read my posts to him and his replies... DID...

@ en sof - don't let someone's judgemental remarks get to you. even a "moderator's" post.

i can understand why someone would express themself about something painful on the internt ...... bc i can be anonymous (hopefully) and therefore safe. when someone is trying to keep it together in everyday life and keep plugging along (and in your position with no car, etc.) the internet can seem like a God send for help, information, etc.

you will survive. you will be okay. discuss with someone in church who you trust. go to a new church if your family and you go to the same one. seek good, sound, moral Godly counsel....unfortunately, these days not all ministers, priests, pastors, rabbbis, etc. are moral, so really ensure you are speaking with someone with a high degree of morality. just my suggestion.

I also think you should contact a shelter. Emergency shelters aren't just for battered women anymore. Family abuse is more recognized now, they call it "domestic violence." Just because you are a man doesn't mean there are not resources out there for you.

If you don't know where to start I would call a rape crisis hotline or a women's shelter for resources. Then find an appropriate shelter that will help you get school, work, and most importantly, counseling. These people have worked with rape victims and they've heard it all, their mission is to help you.

Reach out and do it. PM me your city and I will even do the phone number searching for you.

If you are in Tenn....I'd be happy to help in any way possible...