if your parents divorce stopped the abuse why the unsmiley face? seems like that was a great thing. i am so sorry this happened to you.

instead of psychology, i think finding a reputable clergy person who has perhaps some training in psychology would be more helpful. many psychologists / psychiatrists outcomes are deviant....they normalize deviancy. so, like if a person had a homo choosing or opposite gender personality they may encourage that personality just bc it is more vocal or something. idk. God's help is the best help! you are also mentioning ritualistic abuse, so a Godly person would be a good resource for getting you help, i think. jmho though...i am no expert or anything. trust in God though.