Help me. I think I'm suffering from DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder).

God Bless you as well!

I'm really starting to wonder why so many shills on such a harmless thread. :/

OP, I have my degree in psych, always was interested in abnormal psych. It may indeed be disassociation, usually this is from childhood trauma.

Therapy, good therapy is the only way to go, along with a psychiatrist that can prescribe to help you calm down for a while to start your path to health.

Remember the movie 'Sybil'? Well, her disorder was much more severe, but the right therapist/psychiatrist got her through it!

Please look for help through a local doctor that can refer you and hang on tight! Know this can be healed, I wish you strength and happiness :)

You are the awesomeist, but I have told you this before lol.

That's the psych doc for you, load you up on meds, AND label you as having a mental disorder.

Thank you very much for the wishes and good intentions. I plan to start calling some local psychologists on Monday to find one in my area that I think will help best.

Whoever that person is they are being unnecessarily judgemental. Probably a troll/shill.

here is a limerick that works for me.

I do not have problems because I was born as part of a solution. All my doubts are soluble...

[link to www.npr.org]

Thank you! Much love to you as well my friend/brother!

Ohh.. And here i was thinking DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) is someone who act's like those around them in order to fit in...

Good Person!!!

Try dmt

Do not rush to judgement forcing memories to come forth because this might have you create false memories. Realize you are safe and find something thing that brings peace.

Unfortunately there are those families that have been used by secret societies and often the memories have been falsely implanted through hyptnosis and mind washing techniques. Often an out of state move will put some distance between you and them. Do try to keep in mind not everyone is evil and in many cases they have been unwilling willin victims and accomplishes.

My mother said NEVER to go to the mental health professionals w problems unless you want to be labelea That will ultimately affect your job.

While we would all like to see more effective drug treatments for PTSD (see below), and DMT, LSD, MDMA etc, have shown strong positive results, these drugs can sometimes be unsettling if taken without proper supervision.

[link to www.theweedblog.com]

Please seek help. Go to an ER. They will refer you to the help you need. There is no shame in seeking help.

If you don't trust doctors, go find a naturopath or a homeopath or a hypnotherapist who specializes in helping people overcome trauma.

Things can get better, I promise.

Dude. You are merely suffering a Panic attack. It is a positive feedback mechanism. Go to the doctor immediately and ask him for some xanax. It will do the trick.

They that do such things are more afraid of being founded out then they are concerned with dealing with you. In most cases your family has been forgotten and/or the evil fraction of the secret society cult has dryer up.

As to the reasons why such things are done there are many people out here in the Internet in full knowledge of what's going on and why. You are not alone and the answers will be here when you've questions.

I'm praying for you. The dissociative disorder is to protect you, it's a place to retreat to - but being in actual physical danger, that is a different type of retreat that must take place there, for sure. It is good that you have a sense of self preservation returning to you as it's a sign that you are still sane. Once you are in a safe place, and cannot be abused any more, you will have the opportunity to fight your way back to reality, little by little. It's a struggle, but it's so worth it when you come into the light again and out of the dark tunnel that abuse victims sometimes must retreat into to endure. If you are aware of it, then you are in the beginning steps to finding yourself at last, the self you were meant to have and to be apart from THEM and what they did, and the darkness behind it.

True

And most importantly, I must add, is when you are delivered, do not look back, do not dwell in the place of the memories of what happened to you, it will want to continue to torment you. In order to be strong, it will eventually have to be left behind or it can keep you trapped.

OP, I'll say this right off, I can relate to this feeling whole heartedly. About 7 months ago, I found out from my brother that he had sexually abused me when we were very little, he was 6, I was 3. I couldn't remember it and infact a BIG part of my truth searching involved rediscovering myself over the last 2 years.

When he told me though, it turned my world on its head. EVERYTHING about my built up tensions, erroneous fears, and maladies now seemed to have an answer, or origin point at least. It was as if my entire life came full circle and I was the joke of my very own existence. I felt dirty, ashamed, and angry, really more than angry, rageful to be honest. I wanted to kill him. I mean HOW COULD HE DO THAT TO ME! the fucker did that to me and never told me the truth till 27 years later???! Of course, to him, he thought that i never forgot, but see thats just it. I was too young to remember it then despite it completely fucking up my soul. And I, growing up with him, loved him more than a brother should, because I didn't know any better. It's an aggrevating truth to reconcile that the man that should have had my back my entire life did more harm to me than anyone else I've ever met.

Yet, for the 27 years since, my brother and I have become close friends, and I couldn't condemn the life we had grown up in together, so I forgave him for what he did. It wasn't easy, mind you, and afterwards I left him in Atlanta and went home. I still find it difficult to be in his company since his confession. Hate is a difficult thing to overcome and I'm still pretty angry. Time will help.

So, for you OP, hang in there. Try to find it in your heart to forgive your family for keeping it secret from you because it's not a thing that can ever be easily approached or handled well. And as for the guilty person, you have every right to be mad at them and it's something only time and effort can mend if at all. Just try to move on if you can.

This thread got pinned way after most people posted on it, to those of you coming to it late, if you want to know more about DID this is some quick facts from Discovery Health, the Discovery Channel people, you have to click through each point, many of the points came up in this thread. I think OP is brave for even posting
[link to health.howstuffworks.com]

OP, I'm sorry that it was assumed that you were female. It is an unfair bias in society that this kind of abuse just happens to females.

I would think there is almost an element that makes it worse to be a man with this kind of wounding from his mother.

If your family can afford it I'd seek help from someone you think you can trust, possibly talk to several before you decide.

One thing that will be so important in resolving this issue is your relationship with your opposite sex parent heavily influences your relationships (love) throughout life.

Something horrible must have happened to your mother to make her this way--is your sibling ok?

It will be difficult but forgiving your mother will help you to not repeat your feelings toward your mother in future love relationships.

I got a lot out of watching Dr. Drew's TV programs (you can down load them) a lot of people who suffer from abuse end up with addiction problems.

Support groups where it is safe to talk with others who have suffered similar things can be very helpful.

Don't put yourself in danger, I'm not sure there is such a thing as revenge or justice for this situation, unless you fear others are being hurt.

It is good that you had some relatives who believe you, would be worse if everyone tried to make you think it was all in your head.

Journaling helps many people, just write your feelings out, whatever is on your mind, it is very healing. And I would counter anyone who says that speaking out here is a bad idea--nonsense, it is in fact a way to Journal and a safe place to reach out.

It is your responsibility to protect that small boy inside of you and let him know he is safe and you won't let anyone ever hurt him again.

You are young and hold the promise of a wonderful future that can be as amazing as you can imagine. Dream, and know that although the truth is horrible, it is yours, it is in the past and it doesn't have to ruin your future, don't let them take that away from you too.

The very best revenge is to be ok, to rise above it and have a great life.

I just want to quote this...

This

Molestation isn't the same as DID. In fact. Simply being molested probably will never ever ever cause DID. DID IS CAUSED BY LIFE THEATENING EVENTS BEFORE AGE 7. Things a kid has no way to be able to proces THUS THEY SPLIT TO SURVIVE.

I hope you get to feeling better.

I'll call true after reading all of op's replies... hard to discern when you're not face to face... whatever the reason for disclosure... keep yourself close to yourself till you find something and someone you trust... if you've been honest thusfar... truth can be stranger than fiction, your own mind is trying to unscramble something.. be shy of calling people out if you're not sure... more harm than good in that suposition... :)