If I were a Sandy Hook parent

I've been reading many threads and do think something is wrong with the "story". Just coming from a parents' perspective, I have a few observations:

1. If my child was one of those killed, first of all, I wouldn't even be able to get out of bed, let alone put on makeup and have a smile without shedding a tear while talking about my recently-shot multiple times "baby"

2. If my child was killed and had a sibling at the school or was one of the survivors, I would be more concerned with the school security and how the hell this guy or whomever got into the school, rather than lobbying for gun control. I would be gathering the community for meetings with officials and DEMANDING for an investigation and followup as to how this happened!

3. Before I would even consider sending my kids to another school in the town so soon after this "event", I would DEMAND to walk that school with authorities and be shown:

a. If the shooter was let into the school, show me how you are going to avoid that again. I'd want part of the 8 million plus donated, put towards security cameras at every door and in every classroom and to know protocol for "buzzing visitors in"

b. If the shooter shot into the school, use some of the 8 million plus donated for bulletproof, shatterproof glass on the windows. Basically, TELL me, a victim's parent how this guy got in and what are you gonna do to make sure it doesn't happen again!

c. All classrooms should be able to be locked from the inside WITHOUT a key in case of emergency and windows able to be opened only from the inside for accessible exit from the room.

I just can't fathom that these parents aren't doing whatever they can to make sure their kids will never go through this again.

4. I don't understand why the town needs all the fundraisers that I see posted all over facebook and twitter. I could see financial support to bury the children and funds for securing all the schools...what else? Don't the towns affected by Hurricane need the money to REBUILD their towns? What is Newtown going to do with all this money and who is managing it? I saw the Soto's posting that money will help with the "kids' education". Why do they need money for education, was their big sister their financial provider and they now lost her income? I could see if money went to support the adult victims' families as their incomes were lost.

5. Looking at Carlee Soto's twitter, she keeps referring to needing a car and will someone buy her a car. Her friends are tweeting some celebrity who has now called her and plans on getting together with her, and are tweeting that he should help her get a car.

The whole thing just disgusts me, whether this really happened as we are told or not. I just don't understand how a parent could go on without knowing exactly what happened and how-