Where I can no longer discern for myself whether or not i'm paranoid, or going crazy. I see conspiracies and lies in almost everything. Is it true that all the world is a stage? I feel i've slipped away from the finer talking points of modern society, become a recluse, if you will. I just feel i'm fighting a losing battle that i'm not even sure exists, but in my heart I know there is a purpose. Of some kind, this is the only reason I am still on this Earth. I haven't valued life or my existence on this planet in a very long time, no i'm not depressed. Or maybe I am. Maybe I'm disgusted at what I see when I open my eyes. And now maybe i'm ranting to more unopen ears..
Quoting: aliensbro I can totally understand what you are saying, and probably what you are feeling, as well.
Here are a few things that I can suggest to at least temporarily make yourself feel more connected.
Try and find the things that are real, and simple. If you don't live in the country, drive to the country...go for a walk, listen to the birds, smell the flowers, go fishing, walk beside a brook and listen to the water. Listen to the silence. Visit with people that you love and connect. If you are part of a "couple", make up a lunch, bottle of wine, take a blanket, and go find a spot where there is absolutely NOBODY else around, sit back and smell the fresh air, feel the breeze. Nature is about as real as you can get.
If you need to...stay off of the computer for awhile, reading about every little thing that is going on in this world, is not always healthy for the mind. Sometimes, we just need silence.
You are NOT alone...remember that. :)
