I'm having an affair at work. I've never done anything like this before. I dont know how to feel about it.

Yea. im a dick, prolly. And stupid. I have been lonely in my relationship for soo long. It is sexless, but my so is a good friend and I love her.

I feel alive with this new girl. I thought I was too old for that. I havent had sex in years despite being in a committed relationship.

Im probably going to ruin everything.
Im going to continue anyway. Maybe I want everything to come apart????