NO ONE TO TELL YOUR TROUBLES TO?? GET THEM OFF YOUR CHEST HERE. WE PROMISE TO LISTEN AND UNDERSTAND.

pray

Yeah, life feels like a bad dream populated by idiots who don't listen, don't learn and don't generally give a shit...

There I feel better

I SIMPLY DONT WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE, I HAVE THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE EVERYDAY, MY BUISSNESS IS FALLING APART ABOUT TO LOOSE MY HOME WIFE AND FAMILY , WHEN IT HAPPENS I WILL PUT A 12 GUAGE UNDER MY CHIN AND PULL THE TRIGGER. I AM SO STRESSED OUT , AND IT HAS BEEN RIPPING ME APART INSIDE . I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD FALL PREY TO SUCH THOUGHTS BUT IT HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR TWO YWEARS OR MORE. AND THE DARKNESS IS THE NORM ANYMORE , I AM A CHRISTIAN AND HOPE GOD WILL FORGIVE ME BUT I FEEL SO UTTERLY USELESS AND DEFEATED.

Lmao! Good Im glad I think thats why Desert Fox threw it up?

Get with a Christian counselor as soon as you can. The pressure you are under is to much for you to bear all alone. I have some very good people on here that will try and work with you, Junkyard Lily and Nines are my go to people for this type post. They will answer you in time, watch for them. I wish I had more time with you right now,but I have to step out for a while, so I hope one of them will check in soon. DF

Thats terrible brother Im sorry you are so sad! Many have taken there life since the 07 colapse ! Hang in there ! Loosing things isnt worth dying over ! May the Lord bless thee and keep thee! May the Lord shine his glorious face upon thee! Choked up man this was a sad read.........

I have no friends. Mixed up with the wrong crowd back in high school, we took drugs and skipped class whilst other people who I used to hang out with simply because we had no one better to hang out with were slowly finding other groups and were leaving me behind which I deserved. So since high school I have not had one single friend in my life, I'm now 24. I don't interact with anyone on a daily basis, not even close to my family at all.

The first girl I ever had sex with was a prostitute who sucked me up and fucked me but couldn't even make me cum for the 60$ that I gave her. Didn't even mean to pick her up, I actually mustered up the courage to talk to her while she sat at the bus stop. Asked if she wanted a ride, and when she got in, she was what do you want, a bj or to fuck? I was surprised but said fuck it and went along with it.

Now like 20 prostitutes later I'm over it. But I'm still into other fucked up shit. Because I have no friends, and no life, I figure I'm really not worth much. I've always liked giving girls money since I was a child, little did I know there was something called financial domination that's quite popular. Because it is somewhat erotic, and because it's the only way I can talk to pretty girls, I go around on FB asking girls if they want me to be their financial slave and give them money. I've given away over 20K to these girls, and yeah I feel like a dumbass but I can't stop. Fuck my life, have fun laughing at me lol.

How do you let a best friend go?
Here's my story, please bear with me, it's painfull

One of my best friends left us last week, but not in the way you would think. He told me in not so many words that he is leaving and I will most likely never see him again......

This person had been molested as a child, beaten, ridiculed and persecuted for his parents beliefs as well as living in the "hood" his entire young adulthood. To say that he did what it took to survive would be an understatement of the highest degree. This person was so afraid to tell me of his child/ young adulthood and what he had to do, that he though I would be scared of him and this among all other things weighed very heavy on him. Of course I never felt any fear of this person as he was/ is the most gentle, caring and emotional person that I had ever met. Me and my family accepted him with all of his warts and damage in hopes of helping him see that with love and light, anything can be overcome.

While playing in our band, he and the replacement bass player, hooked up and seemed as though they were going for the long haul and I had never seen him so happy. They bought a house and lived together for 8 years. She decided one day that he wasn't taking care of her the way she felt that she needed to be and left for another man. This was the final straw for this person as throughout his life he had been jilted, screwed, and left high and dry over and over again.

In the smoking thread, I wrote of our last night together and when I say It was tough to hang out knowing he was leaving, that is an understatement....

David, if you are out there, just remember that we love you and we are still here for you.....

I have no friends. Mixed up with the wrong crowd back in high school, we took drugs and skipped class whilst other people who I used to hang out with simply because we had no one better to hang out with were slowly finding other groups and were leaving me behind which I deserved. So since high school I have not had one single friend in my life, I'm now 24. I don't interact with anyone on a daily basis, not even close to my family at all.

The first girl I ever had sex with was a prostitute who sucked me up and fucked me but couldn't even make me cum for the 60$ that I gave her. Didn't even mean to pick her up, I actually mustered up the courage to talk to her while she sat at the bus stop. Asked if she wanted a ride, and when she got in, she was what do you want, a bj or to fuck? I was surprised but said fuck it and went along with it.

Now like 20 prostitutes later I'm over it. But I'm still into other fucked up shit. Because I have no friends, and no life, I figure I'm really not worth much. I've always liked giving girls money since I was a child, little did I know there was something called financial domination that's quite popular. Because it is somewhat erotic, and because it's the only way I can talk to pretty girls, I go around on FB asking girls if they want me to be their financial slave and give them money. I've given away over 20K to these girls, and yeah I feel like a dumbass but I can't stop. Fuck my life, have fun laughing at me lol.

THANK YOU , FOR YOUR KIND REPLYS , I AM REACHING THE END SOON WHAT SCARES ME MOST IS GOING TO HELL I HAVE ALWAYS HEARD THAT IS WHERE YOU GO IF YOU COMMIT SUICIDE , BUT MY DEPRESSION IS MIND BOGGLING ITS ALOT OF THINGS I CAN FEEL EVIL CLOSING IN ON THIS WORLD AND I AM SENSITIVE TO THOSE VIBES , SOMETHING TERRIBLY WICKED IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN AND I AM CRUSHED, I LOVE MY WIFE AND KIDS BUT I CANT PROVIDE FOR THEM AND I FEEL I WOULD JUST BE BETTER OFF IF I JUST DOIT. I PRAY SOMETIMES 12-20 TIMES ADAY AND ASK GOD TO GIVE ME STRENGHTH I HAVE LOST 50LB IN 3 MOS AND PEOPLE DONT EVEN RECOGNISE ME , AGAIN THANKS FOR LISTENING AND REPLYING YOUR THE FIRST AND PROLLY THE LAST TO HEAR THIS FROM ME, I SIMPLY DONT WANT TO BE IN THIS WORLD ANY LONGER.

THANK YOU , FOR YOUR KIND REPLYS , I AM REACHING THE END SOON WHAT SCARES ME MOST IS GOING TO HELL I HAVE ALWAYS HEARD THAT IS WHERE YOU GO IF YOU COMMIT SUICIDE , BUT MY DEPRESSION IS MIND BOGGLING ITS ALOT OF THINGS I CAN FEEL EVIL CLOSING IN ON THIS WORLD AND I AM SENSITIVE TO THOSE VIBES , SOMETHING TERRIBLY WICKED IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN AND I AM CRUSHED, I LOVE MY WIFE AND KIDS BUT I CANT PROVIDE FOR THEM AND I FEEL I WOULD JUST BE BETTER OFF IF I JUST DOIT. I PRAY SOMETIMES 12-20 TIMES ADAY AND ASK GOD TO GIVE ME STRENGHTH I HAVE LOST 50LB IN 3 MOS AND PEOPLE DONT EVEN RECOGNISE ME , AGAIN THANKS FOR LISTENING AND REPLYING YOUR THE FIRST AND PROLLY THE LAST TO HEAR THIS FROM ME, I SIMPLY DONT WANT TO BE IN THIS WORLD ANY LONGER.

No one here laughing at this point. DF

No ones laughing at you , see I cant even spell lol

Man DF? Poeple are hurting its a dark time! Its overwhelming!

I know. It is sad to see my thread reveal this darkness to us so boldly. I guess I asked for it. DF

It still helped , Im glad its here ! Poeple need to talk alot of crazy stuff has happened since the 07 colapse ! We all need a hug and some positive feedback! Your a good man DF I read your stuff alot! God Speed!

You will certainly have good wishes for the surgery. Surgery is scary. LOL. Bet you're nervous. Sorry you're going through so much and hope when you're ready to share, you'll come back. Or, you can start now. 8)

I SIMPLY DONT WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE, I HAVE THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE EVERYDAY, MY BUISSNESS IS FALLING APART ABOUT TO LOOSE MY HOME WIFE AND FAMILY , WHEN IT HAPPENS I WILL PUT A 12 GUAGE UNDER MY CHIN AND PULL THE TRIGGER. I AM SO STRESSED OUT , AND IT HAS BEEN RIPPING ME APART INSIDE . I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD FALL PREY TO SUCH THOUGHTS BUT IT HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR TWO YWEARS OR MORE. AND THE DARKNESS IS THE NORM ANYMORE , I AM A CHRISTIAN AND HOPE GOD WILL FORGIVE ME BUT I FEEL SO UTTERLY USELESS AND DEFEATED.

I SIMPLY DONT WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE, I HAVE THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE EVERYDAY, MY BUISSNESS IS FALLING APART ABOUT TO LOOSE MY HOME WIFE AND FAMILY , WHEN IT HAPPENS I WILL PUT A 12 GUAGE UNDER MY CHIN AND PULL THE TRIGGER. I AM SO STRESSED OUT , AND IT HAS BEEN RIPPING ME APART INSIDE . I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD FALL PREY TO SUCH THOUGHTS BUT IT HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR TWO YWEARS OR MORE. AND THE DARKNESS IS THE NORM ANYMORE , I AM A CHRISTIAN AND HOPE GOD WILL FORGIVE ME BUT I FEEL SO UTTERLY USELESS AND DEFEATED.

THANK YOU , FOR YOUR KIND REPLYS , I AM REACHING THE END SOON WHAT SCARES ME MOST IS GOING TO HELL I HAVE ALWAYS HEARD THAT IS WHERE YOU GO IF YOU COMMIT SUICIDE , BUT MY DEPRESSION IS MIND BOGGLING ITS ALOT OF THINGS I CAN FEEL EVIL CLOSING IN ON THIS WORLD AND I AM SENSITIVE TO THOSE VIBES , SOMETHING TERRIBLY WICKED IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN AND I AM CRUSHED, I LOVE MY WIFE AND KIDS BUT I CANT PROVIDE FOR THEM AND I FEEL I WOULD JUST BE BETTER OFF IF I JUST DOIT. I PRAY SOMETIMES 12-20 TIMES ADAY AND ASK GOD TO GIVE ME STRENGHTH I HAVE LOST 50LB IN 3 MOS AND PEOPLE DONT EVEN RECOGNISE ME , AGAIN THANKS FOR LISTENING AND REPLYING YOUR THE FIRST AND PROLLY THE LAST TO HEAR THIS FROM ME, I SIMPLY DONT WANT TO BE IN THIS WORLD ANY LONGER.

THANK YOU , FOR YOUR KIND REPLYS , I AM REACHING THE END SOON WHAT SCARES ME MOST IS GOING TO HELL I HAVE ALWAYS HEARD THAT IS WHERE YOU GO IF YOU COMMIT SUICIDE , BUT MY DEPRESSION IS MIND BOGGLING ITS ALOT OF THINGS I CAN FEEL EVIL CLOSING IN ON THIS WORLD AND I AM SENSITIVE TO THOSE VIBES , SOMETHING TERRIBLY WICKED IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN AND I AM CRUSHED, I LOVE MY WIFE AND KIDS BUT I CANT PROVIDE FOR THEM AND I FEEL I WOULD JUST BE BETTER OFF IF I JUST DOIT. I PRAY SOMETIMES 12-20 TIMES ADAY AND ASK GOD TO GIVE ME STRENGHTH I HAVE LOST 50LB IN 3 MOS AND PEOPLE DONT EVEN RECOGNISE ME , AGAIN THANKS FOR LISTENING AND REPLYING YOUR THE FIRST AND PROLLY THE LAST TO HEAR THIS FROM ME, I SIMPLY DONT WANT TO BE IN THIS WORLD ANY LONGER.

Hi, sweetheart. Feeling a little overwhelmed, to say the least?

You are brave for coming here and speaking so bluntly. You need help, you need support, and you need it pronto. I've been where you are, I know of what I speak.

Have you shared with anyone close to you that you don't want to be here, anymore? Saying it, out here in the open, is the first step. It is the reality of what you feel. The next, is if you really feel you are close, and in danger of hurting yourself or another, to get help, immediately. Get yourself down to the nearest hospital ER, or call emergency services, and tell them you are having suicidal urges. Don't think about it, just do it.

People are very understanding, and very caring out there, and nobody will pass judgment. We all have thresholds for what we are able to cope with, before we hit an overload. You know what is happening, and you know it is too much, and that is important--honor yourself, and your life, and do that. Get yourself in, and get yourself help.

I'm here in the meantime, if you need to talk about specifics that have gotten you to this point, and we can go into the spiritual areas of how you're feeling right now, if you need to, too. I'll talk with you on the phone too, if you'd like, or it's easier.

You call it, tell me what you need right now and what's important to you.

Much love...and LOTS of hugs.

You're not alone.

Liz :-)