NO ONE TO TELL YOUR TROUBLES TO?? GET THEM OFF YOUR CHEST HERE. WE PROMISE TO LISTEN AND UNDERSTAND.

Kind words, DF that apply to you as much as anyone. I hope he knows how much we care. I hope he's talking to his wife right now and will be back. I really hope.

Me, too.

Did you all notice a reoccurring word? HOPE. AC thinks he has no hope. A certain person has made it almost a dirty word, but it isn't. It's everything. One thing I do when I think I've had it, is look for one tiny thing around me to make me happy. One thing that gives me hope. AC, I'm pretty sure you're reading, so I'm going to write like you are. Look at your children's faces when they fall asleep tonight. Look at how beautiful they are, how innocent. Watch them play. Just for a minute. Then, thank God that He gave them to you for awhile. If you start giving thanks for even the smallest of blessings, the darkness will lift. Just start by finding that one, tiny thing. It's a big problem. You can only solve it like that old saying,"How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time." Baby steps, hon.

TB, don't tell your husband I love your heart. lol On second thought, go ahead and tell him. DF

I think I just might! Thanks, I needed a little hug, myself. Don't forget about the barbeque, either!

I haven't, just PM'D a mutual friend about it actually. DF

I'll have to get his hours and let you know. I DO know it's better to go during the day. He cooks so much and when he runs out, he closes up for the day.

I know, me too! Poor hubs has to go back to work in a couple of hours. His overnight person hurt her knee and can't stand on it. I made banana bread awhile ago and it's killing me to wait for it to cool off!

Don't wait, I like it while it real warm.

Ssshhh! Don't tell! I had a little extra batter and made a few muffins. I ate 2! That gives handsome 4 for his "lunch".

Too late! He's up and getting ready, so he knows they're for his lunch. That's ok, I have more baking to do after he leaves. Just didn't want to make noise while he was sleeping. Our kitchen and bedroom share the wall.

We all have things we feel we have no one to talk to about. Sometimes it just helps to unload it to help free your mind and heart. The longer we hold things inside us, the more stressed and depressed we become. This is a "no fault" thread, someone else is, or have, gone thru what you are struggling with and will probably comment back to you. I have some great volunteer counselor type members on here that will get back to you sooner or later. JUST DUMP IT HERE. DF

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I was amazed to see the number of people in need a concerned ear to hear them, or just vent. I knew there were vast numbers of people out there that needed an outlet, any outlet. The response so far has been most encouraging, and the attention they have received is beyond reproach. As the volume of posters increase, as it will, just know that we may not be able to respond quickly. How ever, know that I will read them, all of them, and we will do our best to answer you as available to do so. Therefore, I ask you check back in, someone will respond. I also expect that I will have more qualified, caring members stepping up to try and help you in some way. Feel free to come here with out fear of being scoffed at or ignored. You are welcome here. hf DF

Quote,
"To help others is to help yourself." Desert Fox.

I only have like 3 friends in real life. I am in love with a girl who treats me like shit.
All I do all day every day is create music.
My life is so depressing. I would give anything to go back to when I was 18.
Ahh those were the days. Doing a bunch of drugs, having sex with random beautiful women, orgies, parties, EVERYDAY!
But now since I stopped doing drugs and sold my car I have virtually no friends. No one wants to hangout with me because they all want to get high, and all I want to do is create music.
Im just so freaking lonely.

I only have like 3 friends in real life. I am in love with a girl who treats me like shit.
All I do all day every day is create music.
My life is so depressing. I would give anything to go back to when I was 18.
Ahh those were the days. Doing a bunch of drugs, having sex with random beautiful women, orgies, parties, EVERYDAY!
But now since I stopped doing drugs and sold my car I have virtually no friends. No one wants to hangout with me because they all want to get high, and all I want to do is create music.
Im just so freaking lonely.

Can I ask you something? Are you any good? What kind of music do you write?

I only have like 3 friends in real life. I am in love with a girl who treats me like shit.
All I do all day every day is create music.
My life is so depressing. I would give anything to go back to when I was 18.
Ahh those were the days. Doing a bunch of drugs, having sex with random beautiful women, orgies, parties, EVERYDAY!
But now since I stopped doing drugs and sold my car I have virtually no friends. No one wants to hangout with me because they all want to get high, and all I want to do is create music.
Im just so freaking lonely.

Now I have to resist going to that section of that website every time I go back to it.

I am tired. I understand the effects that pornography has on the brain. Porn on the brain, and specifically internet porn, is one of the most harmful things out there right now. And I am just tired. It is everywhere. Most people see it as normal. Most people don't understand how damaging it is to them. I feel very alone as one who tries to resist that crap. And I am tired.////////////////////
I will be back a little later this evening, but for now, I will say that in your last paragraph you answered your own question. You know the harm to the brain, you know it is everywhere, and that it should be avoided. Now you must find the strength to totally not expose yourself to it. There are to many good sites to go to on the internet that contain healthy content for you. RESIST, is the key word in your post. I have to fight that battle all the time, because the female body is so alluring and beautiful to man. You can control this yourself with intense restraint. Try a day at a time, the longer you are away from it the easier it gets, just like quitting any addiction. A day at a time my brother. Best wishes to you my friend.

BTW, anyone that makes their partner feel like shit, isn't worth the time you took to type the sentence about her. Darlin' I promise you, there IS someone special out there for you that will be your exact fit! Don't try to rush through life, enjoy it, savour it. Some of it will suck, but mostly, it's good. When I get lonely, I get lost in music. It's imprinted on my soul. I bet it is yours, too.

I only have like 3 friends in real life. I am in love with a girl who treats me like shit.
All I do all day every day is create music.
My life is so depressing. I would give anything to go back to when I was 18.
Ahh those were the days. Doing a bunch of drugs, having sex with random beautiful women, orgies, parties, EVERYDAY!
But now since I stopped doing drugs and sold my car I have virtually no friends. No one wants to hangout with me because they all want to get high, and all I want to do is create music.
Im just so freaking lonely.

Darlin' first of all STOP praying for strength!! I AM serious. When you pray for strength, God figures you'll have to use it. Pray, instead, for peace, for guidance, for more peace. Someone, a long time ago, told me when you pray for strength or patience, then you usually get a situation where you NEED to use those things.

I know how you feel, I've been there myself. I was a single mom, no job, no friends, family was always judging. I KNOW. The biggest thing that stopped me was I didn't want my two little ones to find me. One night I was ready, though. I had it all planned out. The kids wouldn't find me. Then the phone rang. It was my now husband. A little later, a person I knew from church was at my door. Those two divine appointments saved my life that day. I have found that when I pray, "Lord, please take these feelings away from me.", they DO go away.

Suicide is not the answer, hon. I know you don't see a solution. I know you see hard times. I CAN tell you it won't last forever. It really won't. You have people that are there at home that want to help you. They love you and don't want you to leave them. Remember, THIS WORLD IS NOT YOUR HOME, but it's NOT your decision to make. God has you here for a reason, wait on Him to show you. Please.

Hey, Swin. How are you, my friend? You and yours have been in my prayers.

And, no, I haven't gotten to my paperwork yet! Soon, though.

Please pray for me. I'm married to a man a bit older than me, and he has anger issues. One night several months ago, he really ripped into me emotionally, and somehow, I just snapped inside. He doesn't understand how this happened, but its like my animal mind or something just got tired of absorbing his anger and a part of me wanted to kill him. Of course, these destructive feelings were felt while I was frozen physically.

I haven't been the same since. I have depression and major insomnia. My husband and I have ups and downs, but he does not understand that he pushed me into a sort of broken down paranoid state. Even my coworkers have noticed that I'm different, and I'm not as accepted at work.

Please pray for my mental health. I am borderline crazy, or perhaps even went crazy a little bit. There is no one to talk to about this. The denial is so thick. I miss my happy self and my mind is not what it use to be.

Thanks for your prayers.

Please pray for me. I'm married to a man a bit older than me, and he has anger issues. One night several months ago, he really ripped into me emotionally, and somehow, I just snapped inside. He doesn't understand how this happened, but its like my animal mind or something just got tired of absorbing his anger and a part of me wanted to kill him. Of course, these destructive feelings were felt while I was frozen physically.

I haven't been the same since. I have depression and major insomnia. My husband and I have ups and downs, but he does not understand that he pushed me into a sort of broken down paranoid state. Even my coworkers have noticed that I'm different, and I'm not as accepted at work.

Please pray for my mental health. I am borderline crazy, or perhaps even went crazy a little bit. There is no one to talk to about this. The denial is so thick. I miss my happy self and my mind is not what it use to be.

Thanks for your prayers.

Better today than yesterday, thanks in part to DF and the others on this thread.

I didn't ask -- I leave the Jewish mothering to others ;)