You are messed up because you have rejected yourself. You have rejected yourself by global default, which is the rejection of The Great Creator, The Messiah and His Name is Jesus, (not the false jesus presented to the human race by false prophets) He is the very One Who created you. Stop everything you are doing and start fresh realising we are our own worst enemy stop flapping your ears and listening to all the false voices. Do all things unto the glory of God not to the glory of yourself as it is Satan in you wanting to glorify yourself, this problem worldwide is busy being brought down by God Almighty, people are confused, they have been knocked of their pedestals as there is a King that coming to take over and lead this world in Person from Jerusalem, God Almighty Himself! The King is here, surrender. You are the fruit from your mother's womb, the tree of knowledge of good and evil, a natural liar and a thief etc, and we must be reborn by The Tree of Life, Who is Christ, and we must bear His fruits, no longer the fruits from the tree of knowledge of good and evil. The human race made the womb of a woman a sacred thing, that is rubbish, hell comes out there or a great generation, but all still needs to be reborn through The Tree of Life whether you arrived in hell or just from a great breed, you still need to be reborn to enter into the kingdom of God. "Be still and know God." No more confusion! Read proverbs, I think it is one of the last ones, it describes hell, it can comes from the womb too. Go back to basics, forgive those who sinned against you so God can also forgive you of your sins and approach God only by fixing up your life first, you cannot approach God for help if you have skeletons and keeping silent about it, you have to expose yourself then fix up then God will help you, otherwise God will put Satan on you and you will be more messed up than before.