No man I did not always know that. I thought God abandoned me once, for three days I was in the desert on the edge of a "Grand Canyon". The air was dry and the wind was warm.

What happened was I was raised in a family that put Priests on a pedistal. Well that same guy volunteered to be my "Spiritual Director". I thought wow how luckey, but he had other designs on me which became apparent and I confronted him on the issue and he did not deny it. I was f'n floored...my world crumbled. I was over 18 but it was a f'cking insult. I thought God, Jesus Christ and their teachings were rubbish. Thus the 3 days of desert living in my mind.

Well about 30 years later I realized by God's grace that man did me a favor..I came out of that major religion 30 years ago and never looked back. I figured if a Church of any organization teaches 99% correctly the scriptures but everyone mindlessly sits ther vs someone struggling to learn God's Scriptures as in the 4 Gospels and are only %1 correct....I believe that 1% is more valuable than 99% correct scripture if one is just mindlessly nodding yes, no, sit, stand, kneel.....


After the 3 days I realized a man f'kd me over not God, Jesus or their Scriptures. Now orgaized reigions are fantasitc for a sense of community and they hold wonderful retreats that are not really associated with everyday organized church techings. The retreats are spiritual in nature and the Lord's presence can be felt. That was 30 to 40 years ago...now?