Here is a link that contains some eye-opening findings/research about the nature of the human heart. It will better explain what I was alluding to in my previous post. If you have an inquisitive mind you may find this information to be quite intriguing:

[link to www.heartmath.org]

You have been sharing some valid observations/experiences that others reading your words can relate to going through/experiencing at some point in their own lifetimes of experience. There's no easy way to be concise about it but you are going through the ongoing process of elevating your awareness (and perception) and with that process comes a strange and unique transitory period in your life where you will experience emotional upheavels, unusual physical 'symptoms' & perceptual experiences, biophysical 'changes' to body & senses, purging of old fears/emotional energy (which gets consciously acknowledge & released on their way out), etc. A real wild ride. It sounds like you are in the midst of it. Keep pushing forward. There is a tipping point on the horizon where things will suddenly become clear to you and you will have a much greater awareness & understanding of what you are going through now.

My advice to you is don't allow yourself to become fixated on your emotions or on your current perspective at any given moment in time. Be fluid like water (I think that's a Bruce Lee quote). Things are going to flow and change for you and you are not going to remain stagnant with regards to how you currently feel. Focus on where you are directing your conscious energy. If you allow yourself to identify with fear or negative (low frequency) emotions sourced in the mind (brain), you will hinder your progress forward. Keep asking yourself questions and exploring new perspectives that challenge your current level of awareness & understanding. Don't allow yourself to become complacent or to become convinced that you've 'figured out' what's going on - as your awareness/perception of these circumstances you are experiencing is going to change. Put in some work right now because in the not too distant future you will be looking back at this experience you're going through with completely different set of 'eyes' than you have now.

:greenkarma: