I am a married heterosexual man with kids, but now - in my 40s - I have acquired a craving for anonymous gay sex. On my business trips I have engaged in drunken sex orgies with unknown men and looked for sex partners in gay bars and bathhouses, and I don't think I can stop.

But it needs to stop before my wife finds out! That is also why I insist on complete anonymity and don't engage in casual sex except when I'm traveling. I feel trapped!

It all started after I started watching gay porn on the net. At first I felt revulsion, but soon I got aroused by gay sex. Soon after I moved from porn to real life sex and it was good.

I don't want to kiss, fondle or cuddle with men. I don't want to be in a romantic relationship with a man. Therefore, I don't think I'm actually gay or bi. I'm just a hetero guy who likes sex regardless of the partner's gender.